I usually dont express my views online but i came across your old work - Evolution of a lover's heart after reading donor and might i say eoalh is the kind of ff that pierced through my heart with all that angst. There are only some works that ought to be masterpiece which makes me feel all the emotions i felt while reading the story. I remember crying buckets and thinking what it takes to write so deeply about characters, to think like them to do justice to the story. I look up to to all such authors who present their creativity that makes readers like us fall in love with the characters and somewhat see ourselves in them. I have read this story almost half a year ago and i've re-read it again and i thought it would be a mistake to not appreciate you for your talent. And then guess what? My new addiction! Dextrocardia!! And can I ask you where did you gather or them roots of OC's Insecurity? The way he she speaks defiantly about patriarchy, how she acts and especially the way she was interrogating jeongguk because isn't that what usually woman do? Who have lived patriarchy and seen bad men. I could feel her as she was a part of me but I absolutely love your writing if I haven't mentioned that above? ( I must have im your fan) and then Aoav! Why am I getting attacked again and again because I'm in the middle just being nostalgic over eoalh and then reminiscing dc and then fantasizing about vampire and especially if that's a buff Jeon why not? I have no idea what's going on in your life but mine is definitely filled with your ff!!
ahh, thank you!! eoalh is very special to me even though it was so long ago (that i started it at least, it took quite a while to finish...). at first when i started writing, i wanted to write about "strong" female characters (so stories like ttag were born...) but then i swung around to "what if i make someone as 'weak' as humanly possible and she's still worthy of love? maybe even the definition of love?" and i think that what i like the most about eoalh is the reader because despite her 'weakness' she's very aware and very strong regardless? i'm very lucky that eoalh is somewhat of a reader favorite on my blog because while some parts are a tad too cringey (😭 which is why i'm editing it rn....) it's still very special to me and i do still cry often when i reread it lol
dextrocardia!! again, i wanted to write something very angsty, like eoalh 2.0 lol because at the core, their very much the same: man treats woman very bad, tries to gain her forgiveness. but i guess i wanted to take it a step up because dc!jk for sure intended to hurt reader while eoalh!jk never meant to hurt her in any way. i definitely wanted to write an e2l where they just absolutely hate each other at the start (and i'm very fond of 'plot twists' lol like yuna cheating in eoalh and the actual dextrocardia reveal--which i didn't even really plan to be any kind of plot twit lol since it's in the title lol--and the assault on reader by jk's friend in dc). as for the feminist things, it's just something i'm very passionate myself so i just incorporated it. i both love and fear men, myself (that's why all my jks are the Goodest and Sweetest boys) and so i just imagined what someone who would've seen the Really Bad Side of patriarchy up close could feel and think, while still at the end of the day be physically attracted to men and at her core, want to be loved. her insecurities are mainly kinda 'generic' as jk didn't put too much thought behind his insults, but still thinks that definitely can affect you if told to you. the shoulders thing is definitely from me, though: my mom told me i had shoulders like a swimmer when i was like 9 and for some reason that stuck so, so hard, so i only wear like tank tops and sleeveless things when i'm at my skinniest 😭 i did start to incorporate reader having kind of an ed but thought that it was best to leave it as disordered thinking and a few behaviors rather than go all out because that would be too deep for that story and such a huge thing to address.
aoav!!! my baby!! god, i absolutely love a strong man just absolutely Harmless and pliable (lol) for a woman. like the more pathetic, the better 😩 but with an added spice of "danger" at the start.... i loved the thought of vampires being more of a warm, animalistic predator than cold mythical creature, so that's just what i did (and tried to make him 'realistic' because i feel like stories about vampires and such always leave question marks--my other vamp fic too--just because the concept at its core is unrealistic). aoav might not only be rainbows and hearts however.......... we will see.......
thank you so, so much for sending me this, it was a joy to read!!! ♥️♥️
