#abandonment feels

[slowlyunraveling]

All the Things I Wanted to Tell You

This morning started with panic, heavy enough that my arms hurt from holding back the urge to grab my phone. Thirty minutes felt like forever. The silence nearly broke me.

Then came the errands. So many of them. I wanted to tell you about every single one. The weird pickle‑flavored cucumber crisps at Costco — strange but strangely good. The crushing disappointment when Sam’s Club didn’t have the sugar‑free iced tea, and the annoyance of hunting it down at another one. The 24‑pack of water I hauled home like a task warrior. How I laughed seeing that Liquid Death now makes electrolyte packets.

Every little thing made me ache with the thought: “This is exactly the kind of silly detail I would’ve texted you.”

But instead, all I had was one‑word replies from you, and a pit in my stomach that those crumbs are all I get now.

So I took a bath. Hot, soothing, washing away some of the ache. It wasn’t a permanent fix, but at least for a little while, I felt clean again.

Goodnight. 🌙

[la-negra-barbuda]

i used to dream of traveling the world dropping all i knew in pursuit of myself i wondered how other people did it and left their families behind

then mine left me and my memories of them became hollow attempts to capture something never meant to last like the transience of a journey to a far off land and my heart traveled farther t h a n  i  e  v  e  r    c    o    u    l    d

[writingmy5yearplan]

1x05 Broad Daylight

Ugh… Oh no she didn’t. The only good thing that came from that bedroom scene is when she left after.

The only reason McNally left her rounds on the table is because she was explaining herself to Luke. She shouldn’t have to. Part of her doesn’t feel comfortable enough to stay. I blame Luke 110% percent.

Ahh okay okay, Peck isn’t a bitch she’s just awkward as fuck. Jealousy is not a good shade in Sam Swarek.

Ok seriously… A home invasion where the dog doesn’t bother to bark should tip you off that it’s someone you know.

Oh jeez here come the feels… Her mother abandoned them 14 years ago. Cue in the abandonment issues and tough exterior front.

If Diaz proposes to his girlfriend because she told him so, he’s gonna become less adorable.

Swarek’s pep talk to Andy… Wow.

Favorite quotes:

“Just go in there and cuddle, Diaz.”

“Look I get it… your mother left you you felt abandoned now you want to stand alone. But in this job you can’t do it alone. You have to have each others back, you stand behind your partner. Always.”

[laudeliina]

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