#abdndiaries

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First tattoo on me, hand poke by me✨

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Everyday I learn more and more and more and it’s amazing and exhausting and tiring but also so profoundly prudent.

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Bitches, I really made it lol

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Best night of my life🫶🏽💫 So grateful for this life, for myself and for this universe

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Life is so fun when you’re obsessed w yourself. That’s honestly the secret❤️‍🔥

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Today when speaking to my therapist, I realised how difficult it is for me to be grateful for myself. I feel grateful towards my parents, but it’s hard for me to feel grateful towards myself. And that is a problem, because yes my parents have done a lot for me, but so have I. Everything I have achieved up until this point has been thanks to them, but none of it would’ve happened without the work, time, effort and energy I put in. I chose this. I am the one choosing to do the work. I am the one choosing to break the cycles and create new patterns in my life and for that, I am so so proud of myself, and so grateful to myself. There’s that quote which says something along the lines of, having compassion for others but not yourself, is the easiest… no it goes ‘If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete’ and I FEEL that. Also the quote ‘It broke my heart but opened my eyes.’

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‘Shamed individuals beg for approval by undervaluing themselves.’

That sentence resonated so deeply with me and really helped me to understand why I feel the way I do and why I am the way I am. Baby steps every day. Also ordered that book so fast and I’m gonna start reading it. I’m annoyed that I left it back in Aberdeen but it’s really not that deep, I already have it on my phone from Z library. Think how fortunate I am, just really deep it Nishu

Also this is why my whole life feels like a performance where I am always performing and I’m always being watched…

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Forgiving yourself is so hard, but it’s the only way