Jan 4, 2023
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#the burden of knowing i will never get the father i want to have but still wishing for him to be#the burden i will always have to carry of craving for his attention and validation but knowing that if i ask for it it will destroy me#the burden of never being able to entirely let him go bc part of me will always crave for him to be my father but knosing he will nevef be#able to be#the burden of never being able to forgive him for everything he did to me for putting me through everyfhinf he did for making me wonder#if i ever was enough for him knowing damn well i never was and never will be#the burden of knowing that even tho mom wanted the best for me and to grow up w a dad did me more damage than it did me good#the burden of never rlly forgiving her for making me go through that because she only wanted the best for me#jo.txt