I was blocking terfs on my fb and I scrolled past your name.. And i stg my heart skipped a beat. Granted it's done that all night, but still.. The crater in my chest still burns. Tbh I have no clue if I'll ever get over this.. Over you.. Over the fact that I have a bottomless pit of memories, and you have nothing. It would be so much easier if you had never loved me... If I had made it all up. If you had chosen to discard me of your own volition. But that's just wishful thinking I guess..














