omg when i was falling asleep yesterday i came up with the perfect new url
it's both fandom based and personal, and incorporates the new name without being obnoxious about it, and really connects with me both audibly and imagery-wise and it like encompasses who i am and my aesthetics but also has layers upon layers of meaning that i can extract from it and it's concise (albeit not super short. probs the same length as my current one) and p easy to remember plus it kinda has a fun possible double entendre and idk it just clicks with me
Hi! I was wondering how your niece's doing; didn't find a new post about her. She'll beat this, she's a strong little girl :) all the best for her and your family :)
uhhh everything's going as well as can be expected! :) thanks for the concern
the first time i watched pmmm a year ago i easily could see where kyubey was coming from and thought the girls were slightly overreacting to the reveal of what their gems were for and that the only villainous thing he ever did was not being completely upfront about the terms of the agreement
and i'm p sure i still feel that way and this is why you should never get attached to me because i am very very broken somewhere inside
I was tagged by theravioliyoyo, but I won't keep the chain going, sorry.
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Do you have a favorite villain? If so, who is it and why are they your favorite?
I think I like many a lot but... just one??? That particularly stands out???
Jade Nguyen is the only one that comes to mind. She counts as a villain, right?
Would you be willing to have a fictional creature (you get to pick which) as your pet, given the chance somehow?
Well, see, I do not like animals as pets (wild creatures depend), nor have I ever wanted one, and I don't think I would be particularly good at keeping one (or be able to not tire of it??) I'd probably just ignore it and I don't wanna be the person that ignores their pets, so... no.
That said, if I could have a baby Night Fury of my own...(they're reptilian, so I'm assuming there's no fur aka no allergies, and they might not smell the way horses and cows do???) .....I would seriously consider it.
What’s foremost on your mind right now?
Think of two movies you hated or strongly disliked. Which of them would you be willing to watch again over the other? Why?
Instead of movies I'll pick my two least favorite shows - American Horror Story and Game of Thrones. Of them, I'd rather watch GoT because at least there most of the stuff I object to is the ideology and set-up and format, whereas AHS most of the time disgusts me on a purely visual level and/or oh-god-i-can't-believe-someone-actually-made-this-and-thought-it-was-a-good-idea level. I've never felt physically sick from watching horror, but I felt marred and dirty and internally disgusted after making it through season 2.
What’s a hobby you’ve always wanted to have but you either can’t afford it or never seem to have the time to get into it?
ART. SO MUCH ART.
(Also rhythmic gymnastics/ice skating whoops.)
Can you name something you like about yourself?
I'm becoming a more well-rounded, fully fleshed out person by the day.
What do you think would be the worst superpower ever?
That is such a hard question omg. Idk. The... ability to stop time in a room for everyone (including yourself) except someone walking in while time is stoppped? (Aka nothing changes for you but someone else might have sneaked in and done shit without you knowing.)
Have you ever had a moment of pride, even if it was just a relatively small victory?
I was pretty proud of myself after I earned back my spot in the class journal in year two (i was seventeen). Basically I'd missed about seven months of school during my first year and while they allowed me to start taking year two's classes at the same time as everyone else, I had to kind of retcon passing grades for the subjects i didn't pass (because i also had subjects i passed just from my grades alone; if you take perfect grade and cut it in half to account for the second semester's zero you... still pass. story behind the abysmal and inaccurate marks for year one in english, math, and latvian. (and art?? i think)). basically you know the list of students' names they take attendance with? ours is located in the journal all the grades are kept in but basically my name was written the very last and in pencil for the first month of year two as i buzzed around from teacher to teacher, collecting assignments and taking tests. it was such a satisfying feeling to see it written in pen after that, but it still took me three months to complete everything i was supposed to in order to be a full-fledged student again. (and i managed to do it all while keeping perfect grades yay me)
(i am so much more used to doing regular work plus fixing past grades tbh. it is the story of my life since i was twelve. always double or nothing, never at the pace of everyone else)
What’s something you haven’t done in a while, but would love to do again soon?
ICE SKATE. i really wanted to go this year but sadly it didn't work out. i don't even remember the last time i went; probably like two or three years ago. i really loved ice skating as a kid but then i started taking meds that screwed up my balance and then the cheap rink close to my house was closed and now even tho i'm off the meds i... never seem to find the time or company or mood to go to the few other rinks i know?? which really sucks tbh
If you could go on any adventure right now, no strings attached, what would you do?
idk probably go to america and see what all the fuss is about and whether i fit in there better. (oh OH take creative writing classes at an american college and be actually present in the same classroom as the teacher but not have any of the stress of studies)
caseyballvins replied to your post:how would you guys react if i suddenly started...
honey you can call yourself whatever you want <3333 it’s your name. not up to us
no i know that
it's... i guess it's more about the name itself??? 'cause even tho i've been feeling disconnected from "crazy" for a while it was still better than everything else. i have.... never felt truly in tune with anything i've been called. my actual legal name that i've had all my life and been called more than anything else is that of a stranger. it's not mine. i respond, as i've been trained, but it doesn't refer to me. but i haven't really found anything that does??? i've gone through a lot of nicknames online, most of which i've given myself for this very reason. silver... silver seems closer than i've ever come before (still on the fence about violet, which is the other current contender)
and i'm just wondering whether it... suits me?? from an outside perspective
dysfunctiocerebri replied to your post:[[MOR]i don’t think i’ve ever heard a song by...
just out of interest, what do you like to listen to?
ohhhhh my god oh my god okay we would be here all day if i tried to explain that because my music taste is very varied. it'd be easier to tell you what i don't listen to
a general rule of thumb is:
no jazz (exception?? i think this is jazz)
no reggae, no blues (both probably have exceptions but idk genres well enough to tell which those are)
no rap (exception, exception, exception; rap, despite being vitriolically hated by me throughout all my childhood the most out of all these "nope not gonna happen" genres, actually has the most exceptions out of anything; i generally have a couple new songs a year that i fall in love with that include significant rap parts)
nothing before the 1980s (exception, ...exception, EXCEPTION!!!!!; i'm sure i love at least a few songs from the seventies but i have not yet gone through all my songs and categorized them the way i wish so i can't tell you which ones. probably some abba. def no bee gees)
lots of percussion is a huge turn off, especially the drum part where you hit on the metal plates for the "tschhhhh" sound (ESPECIALLY if loudly) and also if you crash two of those plates into each other like in orchestra.
i enjoy a good beat (probably more than the average person), and masterful dull thuds can add so much brilliance to songs, but i hate those metal plates so fucking much you have no idea. for this reason and some others i think that grunge is a no no for me, but as always... exception. (the pretty reckless is a giant exception to all my general guidelines for music and worldviews too tbh)
i have a looooooooooooooong history of greatly disliking brass and woodwind instruments, but i've noticed lately that their presence no longer keeps songs from becoming my favorites, and i think this is mostly due to the show Suits, which i would describe as one of the two most influential factors in my gradual opening up to music i would've easily dismissed a year or two ago (the other is this person i know whose music taste has rubbed off on me), so.... exception, exception, exception
I HATE VIBRATO IN ALL ITS INCARNATIONS WITH MORE PASSION THAN I'VE EVER HATED ANYTHING IT'S MY ONE DEALBREAKER AND IF YOU EVER TRY TO FORCE OPERA OR VIBRATO VIOLIN ORCHESTRA ON ME I MIGHT POSSIBLY BREAK ONE OF YOUR BONES AND YOU WILL BE RESPONSIBLE FOR IT
i generally prefer minors to majors, but there are plenty of songs written in majors that i love a lot but at the same time majors are just ew. u feel me
other than that p much everything is fair game and it just depends on style and shit
lyrics in general are very irrelevant to me. i mean. if they happen to be amazing and ruin my whole entire life and make me rethink my existence (only song to be featured in this post twice fyi) then great. but it's not a prerequisite for me to like something. in fact, often i'll have heard a song upwards of 500 times before i pay attenttion to the lyrics at all (and then possibly have a breakdown). it's very rare for me to notice them on the first go.
my favorite instruments are the cello, the acoustic guitar, the electric guitar, and whatever method one uses to get an underlying bass line, which is the most important part of any good song as far as i'm concerned. I have a complicated relationship with the piano (both the conceptual sound and the actual instrument in my living room)
plus that thing in many of eros ramazzoti's songs and numerous other compositions that sounds like an auto-tuned high-pitched acoustic guitar but also weird muted bells combined with this little instrument right here (that i am very surprised to learn does not have an english name); i have no idea what it is or looks like but that sound is so pleasant i can't even
i live for harmonies they are literally the best part of music and quite possibly what my life force feeds on but please for the love of god can we stop with this whole "third intervals at all times" thing it is VERY ANNOYING when you keep the same interval for dozens of seconds and then REFUSE to use the PERFECT OPPORTUNITY to change it to a fourth on the last note and deliver the kind of payoff that would make the song perfect. this is like. the biggest bone i have to pick with the western music industry right now. i mean does everybody else NOT get equal parts dissatisfaction, disappointment, and irritation at the chorus of this (sorry theravioliyoyo i am addicted to the song and love it a whole lot and have by now gotten used to that major gaffe but it still BUGS ME, especially because they already got it right on the "cooooold" and i am a grumpy old man). i have like. dozens of examples for this (IT IS THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE TBH) but since they occur like twice or thrice a song and i generally block them out of my memory whenever i'm not actively listening i can't link to any more rn
also among musical devices i really really love is that thing where you replay the same melody (oh hey it's the unidentified bell guitar sound again) over and over again but change the underlying chords hnnnnnnnng
a device i love only to a slightly lesser degree is when the final chorus/bridge changes keys to a tone or half-tone higher. IT JUST LIFTS YOUR SPIRITS DOESN'T IT (shit shit my mind is blanking right now and i can't remember any of the other examples for these but it's a REALLY GOOD DEVICE OK) (i wonder if i've ever heard a song where it changes to a lower key. that would probably turn out really sad)
and i really love it when the bass line is clearly audible. and when there's a sense that the song deepens as it goes on, gets more intense
i don't really know what else to say except that i have a huge thing for electronically generated sounds and instrumental songs made from them (ulrich schnauss is basically my favorite artist rn; tied with nana kitade, imogen heap, and the homestuck music team probs) but i also love acoustics a whole lot and there's pretty much no genre i couldn't love in some way?
oh i will say though that rn all my new music comes from tv shows and things recommended by friends and, well, my relationship with tv show music can generally be characterized by the fact that whenever i marathon a show airing on the wb/the cw/abc family/mtv it's usually followed by a string of angry swear posts containing roughly the text "godfuckingdammit i hate this why did i do this i already have such a big list of music to check out but fuck fuck fuck there is so much good stuff here ahhhhh i'm having eargasms five times an episode shit i made such a mistake slap me next time i decide to do this". (pretty little liars is particularly guilty of this and one of the reasons i keep watching it even tho i hate it is for the music) fun fact: last year i came back from nine seasons of one tree hill immersion with a list of 629 songs to download. (not counting the ones featured in the show that i already knew and loved, which would make for about 30-50 more)
so i guess you could say rn i'm very into indie pop/rock. i like 80s musical aesthetics a lot and i think i like them even more in modern productions so.... but i've always had a thing for ethereal mysterious music. one day i'm gonna listen to everything enigma has ever produced. and i also like really quiet melodic stuff IDK I LIKE A LOT OF THINGS OK
most of what i like is really beautiful but also sad and bittersweet and wistful for something you can't quite grasp?? sometimes angry, sometimes powerful, sometimes really really creepy (favorite song no kidding) and just generally have a really big emotional impact on me. but there's also happy stuff and inspirational stuff and so much dancy stuff idk I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO ANSWER THE QUESTION OF WHAT I LISTEN TO
(for the longest time i considered my favorite musical era to be 1998-2003 because of nostalgia and special snowflake syndrome but no now i think that my favorite musical era is 2010-???. there is so much good stuff coming out)
