#about days

[vadervalentine]

about days. pt 2.

(draft from december 14th 2023)

365 whole days has passed since i met you. that’s a lot, right?

you said to me earlier that you’ve also liked me at first sight, like magnets do. you remembered my suicidal jokes and laughed again, just the same.

we’re still the same, even when a lot has changed.

right now, it isn’t about longing for you, but actually longing for when are you coming back. it’s about being the one holding you while you sleep; about sipping bitter coffee together and gossiping about people i don’t even know; about silly faces and loud laughs while we brush our teeth in the morning; and stolen kisses before that… it’s about life with you.

actually, still is about a lot of hopes, but not the ones i had before. it wasn’t all just some kind of despair about being in love. it was love and still is, ‘cause i didn’t find anything about you that i don’t like.

so… still is about days, and coffees, but now it’s about us.

[vadervalentine]

about days.

139 days has passed since i met you. i liked you in the first sight. i remember your laugh and your broad smile, so bright and joyful; your voice, so rough and meaningful.

you enchanted me. and you keep doing it day by day.

the beginning was about longing for you. i’d see you from afar, watching your steps and fantasizing about being someone else; about being the one next to you.

then, suddenly, it was about the first time i’ve been held by you. about you whispering in my year, and your mesmerizing stare. about our stolen kisses under the moonlight.

it was about all of our midnight conversations, all those songs you sent me and those silly nicknames you had for me; about all those minor acts that made me blush while drinking coffee.

and, of course, about wishing i was the one laying next to you while you texted “good night”; about wishing you’d come home to me after work; about hoping you’d miss me, and wrote songs about me.

now, it’s about a whole bunch of “what if’s” and still, a lot of hopes.

maybe i just need to wake up and get over it, and when i do, i may admit that i was exaggerating, that it was all a despair about being in love. or maybe it was just your way to express yourself; too well or too badly, i’ll never know.

maybe i just need to interpret you better.

maybe i need a stronger mind and a stronger coffee.

maybe i need to find something about you that i don’t like.

or maybe i just need you.

cause when its about days and coffees, it’s about you.

[forbrannir]

Oh yeah today I had a good day! Went to a nice café with friends and got a free delicious crepe <3

Then Karen and I went to Book-Off and Coco Curry like we always do, and she bought all of the Sailor Moon manga and we proceeded to be nuisances in the restaurant because we were laughing too much at how little we understood of Sailor Moon omigosh. Are the men? Are they women? Are they cats or humans? Is Mamoru 20? Was anyone really a zombie? “How did they censor this??” How is it that we’re confused by this now but we weren't as kids?

So many questions 

[forbrannir]

Just had to say goodbye to whitewraith after a really awesome but way to short visit of hers!

We did so much waegh. It started off badly with her flight being hella delayed but she made it to Fukuoka in the end. And we Pokémon Center’d and we Owl Café’d and we ramen’d and it was all wonderful...I’m sure we did something at night when we got in but hell if I remember what. Probably something SHINee related.

Sunday was very rainy but we bought a Pokéball beach ball and Laura wanted to go to the beach and I hadn’t been for a long time, so we went to the beach in the rain and it was pretty great actually! I saw a sand dollar for the first time! And then saw 10 more, so I took some ;w; And we had fun being idiots on the beach with the ball and with some music from my ipod and paddling in the cold water. We had Coco Curry’s afterwards and it was delcious as usual and got Laura’s approval, A+. And then COSPLAY PHOTOSHOOTS @ THE CORNER OF MY FLAT which was really really fun!! I miss cosplay so much!! MAN. I am so pumped to start working on some again soon. Then we watched all of SHINee’s Tokyo Dome broadcast while eating ice cream and I cried =‘D It was fun

Sunday was Hiroshima day! Aka day that was depressing because of the museum, but then became very colorful. Kpop shop was super fun omg;; I had been in there before but only briefly. This time was less brief and more exciting! We got there and there were already a group of girls giggling over Exo. Laura and I went straight to the SHINee section (obviously) and started going through all the photos and such. They had the Jamong photo I wanted *sobs* so I snapped that up and then we were going through some more and one of the shop ladies was like “oh Jonghyun?” to Laura so she started showing us all the Jonghyun stuff, she was so nice! xD She even took a photo of us right before we left with Jamong stuff and now it’s on the store’s twitter fff. She and theother people working there even put SHINee on the TV they had going and us+the other girls in there did the fanchants S O B S. So fun though, I love it there, I don’t think that I’ve ever been so comfortable about my kpop fan-ness anywhere else in public before bar a concert haha, it was really nice. 

Animate and 2nd hand anime store were after that and Laura spent so much money but it was all worth it because everything was fabulous. AND FLYNN’S FIGURE WAS STILL THERE there was a lot of happiness. And much Tales purchasing...not from me!! Laura has transformed. She will soon even have more Tales Alter figures than I do! (I say that like I have tons but I don’t haha) Then it was Tower Records and I was able to buy SWCIII DVD! \o/ And I got 1000yen off of it with my point card!!! \o/ \o/ Laura bought it too + Misc of Us and she got the cutest freaking Taemin photocard I’m sobs. We went to Book-Off too and it was disappointing. How is Tokuyama’s Book-Off infinitely better than Hiroshima’s?? I DID finally buy ToVPS3 though so it wasn’t all bad. 

We ended the day’s journey with a quick stop at Iwakuni and Kintaikyo and meeting up with Preeya, which was so much fun! It was brief but it was great to see Preeya again and I liked that Laura got to meet one of my Guch friends ^u^ We may possibly be going to visit Laura in Korea now...I hope it happens!!  Night ended with conbini dinner Free! special episode and laughing at my awkward kpop albums on my computer along with my A+ naming of each photo. We laughed so much omfg. I’m sorry neighbors;;; Also....Laura with all the stuff she bought...it is worth seeing. 

AND THEN I HAD TO SAY BYE TO HER THIS MORNING. But not before breakfast and some more SHINee. Sigh. Pls come back, that was so much fun!! I can’t wait till next time ^u^

PLEASE VISIT ME

[forbrannir]

Oh yeah okay so I’m back from Tokyo Dome!

I haven’t started my fanaccount yet but I will actually be writing one this time! The notes have been started~

But as of right now, I am in pain. My arms hurt. I can’t talk too well because of my voice giving out. My eyes still feel a bit itchy. I haven’t slept half as much as I usually do on weekends. All because of SHINee. And it’s worth everything.

I shall quickly say I love them all. I was blown away by them all. And seeing them up close, all of the, was incredible. They’re so beautiful. And they go at it so much, they never eased up their dancing or singing! I couldn’t even just keep my eyes on Taemin. Well I did mostly, but you know. At IYB Minho surprised me the most and I kinda fell in love with him. This time, it was Key. He’s incredible and beautiful and so friendly. Sobs. But I’ll get into that later.

B a s i c a l l y this weekend was perfect and I can’t wait to write all about it and go through more photos and videos from the concert!