you know i think sometimes i and some others dont realize just how much trauma and pain eliwood and ninian went through in their lives
ninian and nils had to run away from their hometown because their father had been too corrupted and wished to use ninian as a sacrificial key to open the dragon gates and end humanity. she was abused and abandoned and the only father figure in her life died protecting her. he would have been alive if he never found her. ninian could have the thought that the mans death was because of her. and to make matters worse, she got corrupted herself and became berserk in her dragon form.
eliwood lost his father right before his very eyes and in his arms. when he finally found love, he ended up accidentally killing that love, leaving him empty with horrifying guilt and heartbreak. eliwood had to cradle ninian’s corpse; a corpse drenched in blood; a corpse that became colder by the minute; a corpse that was caused by him. imagine eliwood had to live with the guilt that he killed ninian. he shoved durandal right into ninians chest. he took ninians life and left nils all alone in this world. even when ninian was revived, eliwood could never rid himself of the memory and guilt that would long, long, long haunt him until the end of his life. imagine the first few times eliwood couldnt touch ninian because hes afraid he might hurt her again. hes afraid that he might kill her. hes afraid and he feels as if he shouldnt be near her.
and even when theyre married. theyre happy but its too temporary.
ninians life force is slowly draining. she grows frail and weak and her condition worsens after roys birth. imagine eliwoods guilt quickly resurfacing and swallowing him whole. he shouldnt be with her. she shouldnt suffer like this. but ninian wants to be with him. she isnt suffering. she loves eliwood. she loves roy. she loves her family. even if its for a short while, shes happy to live this life until her last dying breath.
which then ends up eliwood alone. with a young roy. raising him and loving him as a single father. he grows sickly with age and he misses her too much but he loves roy and wishes for their child to live a happy life. but no matter what, eliwood will always live with the guilt until death finally takes a hold of his soul.
