Dec 10, 2025
reminiscing on the man who broke my heart over n over n over again and yknow what? finally processed everything that happened and I am JUST NOW realizing and fighting to accept & move on from the fact that he made me feel absolutely and completely WORTHLESS! I have never hated myself more in my life during that period bc literally I felt less than human, less than acceptable, like a genuine piece of shit human
#told me to my face he just wants to date someone who’s nice to him and that he’s desperate and has no standards KNOWING HOW I FELT!#ABOUT HIM!#and yet also told me to my face he doesn’t want to date me!#which is fine that’s fine but DONT TELL ME YOU HAVE NO STANDARDS AND ONLY WANT TO DATE SOMEONE NICE TO YOU!!!!!! KNOWING THAT I LOVE YOU!!#genuinely felt like a gunshot straight to the chest!#absolutely destroyed me psychologically!#would Hve rather been shot instead of told all that to be honest!#uprooted every single one of my childhood wounds#and fundamentally changed my perception on men and love bc now they’re all evil fucking monsters and I. am ready to swing w a baseball bat#GOD#I don’t EVER want to feel like that EVER AGAIN!#posts