#about lil

[malkaleh]

Listen as a patrilineal jew who has genuinely been terrified of going to synagogue because Am I A Fraud I will pathetically admit to clinging on to everyone who does say I am Jewish Enough okay bye.

[rcseteaparty]

‘Inventory Check’ Lil!

Send ‘Inventory Check’ to see an item in my muse’s inventory. Plus descriptions of the item(s).

An old worn case for glasses, the material has not been well maintained and is peeling or faded in spots. The singular feather inside is as bright and well maintained as ever though.

The closest to heaven she’ll ever be.

[isabellaofparma]

please stop putting the sad robot on my dash i can’t spend the day crying

[lilith-swbf]

I was tagged by @noon30ish! Like. Weeks ago. Sorry it took me so long to get around to it 😅😅 thank you for tagging me ♡ (for some reason it won’t let me tag you and I’m mad lol)

Post the rules, answer 11 questions, write 11 new questions, tag 11 people!

Noon30ish’s questions:

1. What is your favorite non-Victuuri character from YoI? Why?

Mari! She’s such an awesome, supportive big sister to Yuuri, and I really love that effortless connection between them. I kinda look like her too, lol. I’d love to cosplay her someday.

2. If you could visit anywhere in the world, without worrying about money, where would you go?

Gosh, anywhere? I’d love to go to Ireland. It’s so green and lovely, and my ancestors were Irish. I’d love to learn more about the culture.

3. Favorite video game/board game?

Right now, I’m hooked on The Witcher 3 and Animal Crossing: New Leaf. An odd combo, but they’re both such relaxing games! I love them. ♡

4. Do you have a talent that is very unlike/unique from your other talents/skills, unique or unknown?

Ooo, well, let’s see…I have a lot of musical background, I’ve played piano and sang my whole life. I can also whistle scarily on key, apparently. And even though I’m a painting major, I’ve recently fallen in love with wheel-throwing ceramics. Never thought I’d be good at it, but I’m not too shabby as it turns out!

5. What superhero would you most like to be and why?

Hhhhhmmmmmmm, that’s a hard one…I’ll go with Storm? Cause she can fly and she can make a cozy rainy day whenever she wants.

6. How did you come up with your username?

Lilith is a name I’ve always loved, and sins fit well behind it, lol.

7. Waffles or pancakes?

WAFFLES 😍

8. What’s your favorite Disney movie? Character?

I’m not a huge fan of Disney, but I did love Aristocats as a kid, and still do. I don’t know that I have one favorite character, though, except for maybe that one way past cool cat that sang “everybody wants to be a cat”.

9. Give me a 3-sentence description of a D&D character you would create.

Virgil Longbottom’s not the brightest halfling in the cabbage patch, no two ways about it. Curly-haired sod is a bit flighty, if not entirely scatterbrained, and he talks aplenty when it would serve him to hold his tongue. But when he lets loose with that long scythe of his, you’d better shield either your eyes or your nads, cause he’s goin’ for one of em, and his aim ain’t nothing to sneeze at. (Lol that was fun)

10. How many languages do you know? Are there any you want to learn?

Aaah, does knowing some phrases in Sindarin count? 😅😅 English is all I know, but I’d love to learn Gaelic or Polish.

11. Do you have a favorite name? What is it?

Well, Chiharu and Miuna come to mind…lol. I’ve always been partial to Leah. It’s so pretty.

My questions:

1. What’s your favorite cereal?

2. Have you ever had your wisdom teeth removed?

3. Favorite song?

4. What’s a word you use often that people don’t always know?

5. Dogs or cats?

6. Anime or manga?

7. Subbed or dubbed?

8. What’s your favorite number and why?

9. Have you ever seen a meteor shower?

10. Toilet paper: over or under?

11. Have you ever had a dream that either partially or fully happened later in reality?

I taaaag @n-s-f-w-sportsbaes, @liroux, @autumn-leaves-falling, @addinavi, @tates15, @superluminaryofthestars, @amethystmix, @kashoku-sinpai, uh. And anyone else who wants to do this! You guys aren’t obligated to if you don’t want to, don’t worry <33 I just tagged you cause ilysm

[malkaleh]

I will have to periodically ask my friends sometimes ‘listen my brain is being particularly awful right now, would you be able to tell me that it is lying and you still love and like me’ and that is just a thing I have worked out and it’s honestly better than slipping into trying to be a perfect doll for people which helps no one.

(I do not do it often these days/try not to do it. I just like..so it’s hard to explain that fundamentally from the age of four my entire being has been ‘you don’t deserve to be a person’ and it’s so fundamental that even now at 38 that scar is always going to be a part of me even if the infection is gone)

(I have no idea if this makes sense but anyway)

[malkaleh]

Hi in the interests of ‘apparently asking for help and sharing when I’m having a bad time might apply to me as well so I am sharing terrified’ hour mothers day is really hard and I am really really heartsick that I am not a mother and also feeling like a disappointment because actually I don’t want to/can’t manage to add more activities to my life.

[malkaleh]

I woke up from a screaming horror of a nightmare that made me cry. And that does not negate all the good things that happened yesterday but also that was Horrid.

I think I need to write some hurt/comfort or something. Or a cheerup. Maybe some cookie baking but honestly WHY IS TELEPORTATION NOT A THING.

(I want my friends from across ocean(s) too actually)

(the thing this week kind of broke me I think)