#about mayulee

[hohokekyo]

I was tagged!

By the bestest of best Anikis @akirafanatic ❤❤❤ This smol pink luvs the big pink very much!

1. morning rituals: Wake up, whine because I probably had a nice dream, check social media [mainly twitter], reply to messages, check on roommate [if she is home or not], have a cup of tea, shower, brushing teeth . . .

2. biggest fear: Failure and loneliness are big ones on me.

3. cloudy or sunny: I like sunny and cool or mild temperature a lot.

4. a band you didn’t like at first but grew on you: Not really a band, rather a singer. When @candycottonforest recommended Melanie Martinez to me I was super sceptical first but now I have really started to like her.

5. song stuck in your head: Right now it would be Ed Sheeran’s “Shape Of You” and it kind of ticks me off sometimes.

6. unrealistic dream: Living the life I wish to live without worrying about any expenses.

7. dream superpower: I wish I could either fly or turn invisible at will.

8. any regrets? A lot of them and most come from being unable to speak up my mind.

9. superstitious? I am not going to challenge anyone or anything.

10. something that makes you feel alive: Being able to talk freely without the fear of getting judged.

11. favourite genre of film: Good question . . . no preferences but I cannot handle jumpscare horror or heavy gorey horror.

12. favourite movie: The Choral is my all time favourite.

13. favourite season: If you have not experienced winter, then you cannot understand spring's warmth.

14. favourite colour: Pastel shades of blue, purple and pink.

15: favourite foods: This.

16. worst habit: Picking on the skin around my nails or tearing out my hair in stressful situations.

17. How many countries have you been to? Eight if I remember correctly? [Germany, France, Denmark, Laos, Thailand, Vietnam, Malaysia, Japan?]

Tagging: @homoerotic-volleyball-montage, @originalnagayoshi, @hetaliansinner, I don’t even know anymore, @rodgierthetrash, @wildelectrictype ???

[hohokekyo]

I was tagged.

By @bvnnyballs​, thank you.

Name/Nickname: Mayulee, most people here call me “Mayu” and there was one who called me “Lil’May”.

Relationship status: Closed up and not open for this kind of thing.

Favorite Greeting: I usually greet people first and I am fond of sending people “Good morning/ day/ evening, I love you” and receiving an “I love you too” back. I throw this sentence around way too much though.

Pets: None but a fuckton of plushies.

Last song I listened to: “Mai Kaze” by Yoshioka Aika. It’s Hakuouki Hekketsuroku’s opening.

Favorite tv show: Nothing actually, I watch whatever I think of worth watching.

First Fandom: Naruto or Bleach, I don’t remember anymore. It was not a good time though.

Hobbies: Singing real badly, meeting up with @candycottonforest and eating things with her, doing my nails, wearing lolita fashion but I am really bad at that one too.

Books I am currently reading: The Lotus Sutra to maintain my inner balance and peace. It’s currently very hard though and I hope night school can distract me.

Worst thing to have graced my tastebuds: Something I’ve cooked, I am pretty sure about that.

Favorite place: My bed. My bed is my safe space, I only let people I trust sit on my bed, I never share it with anyone at night besides my plushed animals. It’s also a good place to hide from the world and cry until I find my inner peace and balance again.

I tag @wildelectrictype, @mystofthestars and @hannahsblog only because I think if I tag people most won’t do it so yeah.

[hohokekyo]

4. 29. 43. and 99 on the ask meme

Get to Know Me Uncomfortably Well

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Born on the 26th of December makes me a capricorn and the year I was born in makes me a rooster with my patron being Acala, the great protector, the wrathful but compassionate guide of the deceased for the first seven days after death.

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

In fact, I have and I was 19 or 20 years old when I did so one summer in the dead of the night in my home city's central park lake with a small group of friends.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

Not really and I don't really want to try. Not being a native English speaker already gives me a little bit of an accent to begin with. My first languages are German and Lao so the accent is somewhat there. I COULD try to do any accents but I feel like I would be incredibly offensive if I did.

99. Color of your bedspread?

Currently, it is pink but it will be changed to be anthracite by the end of next week.

[hohokekyo]

I got tagged…

… by @princessarilynn, thank you so much!

Rules:

Post the rules

Answer the questions given to you by the tagger

Write 11 questions of your own

And tag 11 people

1.If you could meet anyone in the world (dead or alive) who would it be and why?

A good question. There are several people I would like to meet like Marie and Pierre Curie in example. I am super interested in sciences, especially biology and chemistry [maybe more chemistry than biology but still both is great] and I love the work the Curies have done and their papers and protocols of things they found out about radioactivity and radioactive elements.

2.What is something you enjoy doing in your free time besides a favorite hobby of yours?

Something that is really odd about me is that I don’t have hobbies that I would say are my favourite. I enjoy a lot of different things from sewing to sleeping and studying. I love studying because I think there are so many things someone can learn and discover and maybe pique a new interest that can be tried out. I also like music a lot though I am super awful with music because I have no ear for tones, cannot read anything and don’t ask me about volume. I would like to say that I am a noob at everything that I have tried. Also, I am sure that a lot of people will agree that books are dope. That smell of old books? Awesome! New books smell? Awesome! Books? Awesome! So many things are just so awesome that I could never just pick one.

3. If there is one place you could be right now, where would it be and why?

I am currently in my bed and my bed is the only place I ever want to be. I do a lot of things on my bed besides sleeping though sleeping is the thing I enjoy the most on my bed. Bed is a holy spot. Bed knows all my sides. Bed understands. Bed never judges. Bed is the best friend I can ever have. Bed is the best place existing.

4. What, in your own eyes, is the biggest influence you have had on a person in your life?

When I started doing night school [which I have graduated from on Friday] a friend was a little stuck and unhappy with their situation. I suggested attending to the same night school as I to first off win more time to figure out what to do and also educate themselves more. If it actually helped them I don’t know but eh. I hope that counts.

5. Is there someone in the world that you’ve always wanted to meet, but can’t?

Hmm… not that I know. Which might sound a little harsh in some people’s ears but I can be terribly shy especially offline so being able to meet people online and talk to them can be very satisfying to me. Of course I sometimes go “if we could meet we should do…” but then how realistic would it be? I think one of the super rare cases of meeting someone from tumblr who is not living in Europe would be when @akirafanatic came to visit me here in Germany from the US. People I have talked to about wanting to meet them are also @imagine-armin and @fyeahjapanesestuff or @assbutttotheworld and probably a few more that I currently don’t remember.

6. What is one thing you can’t go a day without thinking about it?

My phone. That might sound very millennial but I am absolutely screwed without my phone. I listen to music on it, I use it to stay in touch with friends and family because I don’t have a landline connected, I don’t have wifi at home, my laptop mainly exists to do work with it and… I also use it to keep my appointments in check. Sure, I could use pen and paper but that produces trash. Imagine how much paper trash I would produce from all the notes I’d need to write down and every list I have. Oh my god, lists would be so messy and updating them would be a pain in the ass and so much work. So yeah. Don’t take away my phone.

7. Is there a song that’s been stuck in your head that you just can’t get rid of?

For some odd reason… there is currently no song stuck in my head.

8. What is your favorite book and why?

I have highly enjoyed Sun Tsu’s “The Art Of War” but I feel like it needs to share the top spot with Kanae Minato’s “Confessions”. The latter is so well written and I enjoyed the multiple chapters with multiple views and perspectives and how everything was unfolding slowly. At the end it just all came together and absolutely blew my mind. I highly recommend.

9. What is one thing you believe people don’t know about you?

There is a bunch of things that people don’t know about me which is probably for the best. But here on tumblr almost no one knows my name or age although my age is mentioned in my blog description but who actually reads that? Offline I would like to think that people don’t know how much of an idiot I am when left alone at home.

10. Are there any really cool vacation spots in your country? If so what are they?

I’m pretty sure there are but I don’t really know any. Maybe the Neuschwanstein castle in Bavaria? Or Porta Westfalica. The Japan mile in Duesseldorf is pretty nice as well. Hamburg has a nice harbour. Maybe people might have heard of it, I don’t know.

11. What type of music do you listen to while you are studying/working/ or even trying to fall asleep?

The Touken Ranbu Attendant BGMs because freaking Souza Samonji and Kousetsu Samonji have some amazing BGMs and I can listen to them for HOURS while studying. Instrumental stuff in general for studying. Also, I need silence to fall asleep.

11 questions

Which sound do you think of as the most pleasant or calming?

Do you see the world or everything surrounding you rather vividly or dull?

Is there a plushed animal or toy you cherish dearly and just can’t get rid of?

Do you have something you tend to collect and hoard?

Are you a more rational and composed person or a impulsive and reckless one? Or maybe even a combination of both?

Did you ever had a moment where you thought you fucked something up but it ended well for you but… fucked up someone else in some way [good or bad or funny, anything counts]?

If you could change one thing about this world and society, what would it be and why?

What is something that scares you about being on the internet and what is something that you always look forward to when you log on?

How do you handle your dreams after waking up from a good bunch of sleep if you remember them? Good dreams, bad dreams, confusing dreams, all the dreams!

If there is a person you really dislike for whatever reason… what would you tell them if they’d never find out who is speaking to them?

What piece of advice or message do you have for people who struggle with their life and what would you tell yourself? Cheer yourself up if you want and if you find yourself unable to do so then please cheer someone else up who might need some kind words right now.

11 people to tag

@akirafanatic @homoerotic-volleyball-montage @assbutttotheworld @hetaliansinner @wontonpower @imagine-armin @hannahsblog @kominato-trash @originalnagayoshi @rodgierthetrash @lavender-buck

[hohokekyo]

14, 17, 19 🌈

Oh my god, I love you [you might be the only one to ask for something though].

14: what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self

Probably to be more patient and less rash. Also to use the fucking head. 10 years ago I was pretty impatient, super impulsive and often acted before thinking. This especially applied to coming out to people. Coming out as [back then I thought] bisexual with a preference for females very early and easily to almost everyone I met has caused me to get avoided at school, in clubs or even local communities when it came to anime/manga and lolita fashion. Back then I had no feeling for how people might react and didn’t really think about possible consequences and how it would put me in a low social status. Nowadays I talk much less about my sexual preferences and only mention them if I am explicitly asked. I don’t care if people assume automatically that I am cis het and I am not even offended because how are people supposed to know if they don’t ask and I don’t think it is something I should neccessarily bring up myself if there is no reason to do so. Sorting people out is something I can still do afterwards and it definitely is more comfortable for me to handle things the way I do now than I did 10 years ago.

17: night club gay or cafe gay

Definitely cafés over night clubs. As much as I enjoy house parties with the right people but I don’t like night clubs that much. People are scary and gross and I’d rather not be around too many people I don’t know. Also, cafés have better food and I’d rather enjoy a nice and calm talk with coffee or tea and baked goods than a night club where I’m just awkward and stiff and need to yell so the other will understand what I have to say. Also… a cute café might suit my personality more than a night club. I have nothing against night club people too because people have different preferences, right?

19: video game gay, book gay or movie gay?

Booooooks! Reading a good book while drinking a nice cup of tea and letting something quiet and instrumental play in the background is the biggest satisfaction and treat for me after any kind of hard day. Video games and movies are very nice too… but there is something about turning a page and the calmness reading is giving me.

[hohokekyo]

I got tagged.

I have no idea how long ago but finally doing it, thank you @mikicchin.

Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you are finished tag people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!!

1: Are you named after someone? 

My father named me after the country our family is from.

2: When is the last time you cried?

I cried a lot yesterday.

3: Do you like your handwriting?

Not that much, it’s messy and looks weird.

4: What is your favorite lunch meat? 

Does salmon and tuna count?

5: Do you have kids? 

No and I don’t want any.

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? 

Probably not because I have a very annoying, difficult and exhausting personality.

7: Do you use sarcasm? 

Sometimes if I want to make fun of someone.

8: Do you still have your tonsils? 

I just had to check what they are because my English isn’t that good but yes, I still have them.

9: Would you bungee jump? 

Who knows . . . I am afraid of great heights.

10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? 

I don’t eat any cereal.

11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? 

Yes but it depends on the type of shoe.

12: Do you think you’re a strong person? 

No, not at all.

13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor? 

Lemon and lime are my absolute favourites.

14: What is the first thing you notice about people? 

Their shoes because I almost always have my gaze lowered.

15: Red or pink? 

Soft pink.

16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? 

My chest. It is just too big.

17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now?

Mint green sweatpants and no shoes at home in my room, only socks.

18: What was the last thing you ate? 

Bread.

19: What are you listening to right now? 

Jiroutachi’s attendant bgm. It’s beautiful.

20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? 

Hopefully dusty or light blue.

21: Favorite smell? 

I like a lot of smells like freshly cut grass in example.

22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

My classmate.

23: Favorite sport to watch? 

Rugby.

24: Hair color? 

Black.

25: Eye color? 

Dark brown because I’m so full of shit.

26: Do you wear contacts? 

Sometimes.

27: Favorite food to eat? 

Vietnamese noodle soup.

28: Scary movies or comedy? 

None.

29: Last movie you watched? 

I haven’t watched a movie for a while, I don‘t remember.

30: What color of shirt are you wearing? 

Pink.

31: Summer or winter? 

Winter all the way.

32: Hugs or kisses? 

Both.

33: What book are you currently reading?

Hermann Hesse’s “Steppenwolf”.

34: Who do you miss right now?

No one.

35: What is on your mouse pad? 

Nothing, just a black void.

36: What is the last TV program you watched? 

I don’t watch TV and haven’t for years.

37: What is the best sound? 

Rain maybe. And the wind.

38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? 

None.

39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? 

Laos.

40: Do you have a special talent? 

No.

41: Where were you born?

Hamburg, Germany.

42: People you expect to participate in this:

Most people have already done this so I won’t tag anyone. Also, I’m a loser, I don’t have friends.

[hohokekyo]

Post 10 facts about yourself and pass it on to 10 faves 💖💐🌟

Oh my god, I’m sorry I’m so late, I had a lot of stuff to do for school and I am actually still super surprised that I am someone’s favourite QAQ

Ten facts? Here we gooo~! 

[under the cut for length]

I am behaving towards people I am fond of like a spoiled brat. Get demanding and pouty when I don’t get their attention and I love getting spoiled [ @anime-manga-heaven is REALLY good at spoiling the shit out of me, omg]. I sound like a super bitch right now, omg.

I only have one pair of trousers which I actually neglected but since I have taken up the chemistry course I have to wear my trousers three times a week because we are working in the lab.

I tend to have incredible mood swings where I question my worth A LOT and tend to beat myself up so badly that I almost always end up breaking down. I feel sorry for the person who is then currently talking to me.

I call the people I REALLY like “Aniki” [ @fyeahjapanesestuff, @kominato-ryousuke, @tiny-ryosuke, @anime-manga-heaven are my current Anikis].

I absolutely miss having time to talk to people or go out more. School has been draining all my energy and time because exams exist.

One of my best friends is @candycottonforest. She is one of the kindest, most patient and understanding person to deal with me and I cannot imagine walking on without her being with me. She has grown to be one of my most treasured and closest friends.

Last year in summer my tumblr friend @kominato-ryousuke made me cry so badly because only a little bit later she actually came all the way from the States to Germany just to meet me. It was one of the best and most unbelievable things that has ever happened to me and thinking about last summer makes me smile in fondness because it was so amazing. I still can’t wrap my head about it.

There are people that I wish to talk to again just to make sure they are doing well and are making progress with their life. But it is a general thing that I really wish talking to some people again but growing up means having less time [examples are @lavender-buck, @imagine-armin or @umihoshi ] and I know some people only belong in a certain period of your life before you close that chapter to start out fresh and new [ I really love you @homoerotic-volleyball-montage, you helped me moving on a lot and thank you for always talking to me when there is time]. 

I was once engaged but we broke that thing off because it was unbearable for both sides. There was a lot of pressure and at times I was really, really unhappy but right now I have to say that I am rather happy with how things are. We are still friends and the biggest idiots alive.

I don’t only have one person to consider a best friend but three because the three of them have made my life so much better and more bearable, have walked along with me in my hardest times and accompanied me. I am so very thankful to them and they all have a special place in my heart. I cherish all the memories I have made with them and hope to make even more, happy ones, sad ones, every kind. Thank you.

~Mayulee

[hohokekyo]

I was tagged!

By that one Aniki that I cannot tag, mweeh! @akirafanatic ← D: 

rules: copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… and most importantly, have fun!

a - age: 23

b - biggest fear: That I might end up all alone because I scare people away or make them forget me.

c - current time: 02:54am by the time I type and . . . 03:14am by the time I finish.

d - drink you last had: That amazing green tea that @candycottonforest gave me for a late birthday and christmar present

e - every day starts with: Taking my medicine and checking if my nail polish still looks fine.

f - favorite song: I don’t have that ONE favourite song because I really like a lot of songs. I am currently listening to an instrumental version of Luo Tianyi’s “Reminiscence of the Red Lotus”.

g - ghosts, are they real: I haven’t encountered one yet but I'm not sure what to think about all this in general.

h - hometown: Hamburg, Germany

i - in love with: Aniki [now guess which one out of all I have] . . . nah, actually no one because I am not capable of feeling the romantic kind of this emotion.

j - jealous of: People who have great skills with whatever. It sucks to be able to do everything a little but without exceeding at anything. 

k - killed someone: In my head quite a few but not in real life because of hopefully obvious reasons. 

l - last time you cried: Just a few hours ago.

m - middle name: Mayulee. 

n - number of siblings: None.

o - one wish: To obtain inner balance and being able to find peace within myself. 

p - person you last called/texted: Either @anime-manga-heaven or @candycottonforest . . . but it should be @candycottonforest because I was talking to her about OreIya. 

q - questions you’re always asked: “Why are you so quiet?”, “Why are so always so cold and serious?” and “How are you able to drink so much [for an asian]?”

r - reasons to smile: Friends I guess . . . and good grades.

s - song last sang: Sabaton - Carolus Rex

t - time you woke up: 02:17pm with @candycottonforest next to me.

u - underwear color: None White.

v - vacation destination: I absolutely detest travelling and I always avoid it at all costs which is very frustrating to some of my friends [Hamburg is pretty, why should I leave].

w - worst habit: Avoiding responsibilities and conflicts. Also not being able to speak up or speak my mind.

x - x-rays you’ve had: A few of my jaw.

y - your favorite food: This.

z - zodiac sign: Capricorn.

No tags because I know that whoever I tag either did it already or won’t do it.