#about me!

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In what way is your OC worse than you?

In what way is your OC worse than you? Aina, in nearly all her incarnations, has killed people. I have not.

Some of Aina's kills were done in self-defense. Some were done to relieve the victim's suffering in the moment. A few others still were premeditated, done either to save another person or to satisfy a thirst for revenge. (In the case of Orochimaru in the Naruto-verse, it was both.)

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🍀 what is your comfort show/series and why is it your comfort show? How has it helped you?

So I have two for different reasons, I’ll explain now.

Morning:

Wildcards – it’s a Candian show about a con woman and a cop that got 100%  on Rotten Tomatoes. It’s fun, quirky, written well and the subtly of some details is just perfect. They are spot on with continuity.

Why I watch:

I get terrible morning anxiety and it helps me regulate. Usually I’m up at 5.30am/6am and the first thing I do is get a bottle of water, put the show on and start writing my next story. Within an hour I’m usually pretty chill and ready to face the day.

Bedtime:

Brooklyn 99 – I put this on my phone everytime I’m starting to drop off. It’s funny, interesting and there’s something very soothing about Andy Samberg.

Why I watch:

My ADHD brain doesn’t do well with quiet, so having it on at a low volume in the background helps me fall asleep. I don’t even watch more than the intro and I’m away.

🍇 a word your friends would use to describe you

Organised.

That defo comes from managing my ADHD.

✏️ when did you start writing fanfic

I grew up in the age before the internet was a big thing, so we didn’t even have a computer in the house. It just wasn’t a thing. I think I remember being about 8 and hand writing The Bill stories (This was a British Cop TV Show I used to watch with my granddad.

After that when I was about 15 I remember hand writing Sailor Moon stories – again the internet wasn’t a huge thing at that time. We basically used it to buy books off Play.com because Amazon wasn’t a thing either.

At 18 was my artist friend was on DevArt and was like why don’t you post your writing on the internet and I was like who the fuck would read it. He explained fanfiction to me and showed me FF.net. That summer I ended up writing a CSI Miami fic and posting it and was pleasantly surprised.

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Oh neat. Got tagged by @thesunflowersqueen

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Currently Reading: A bunch of Benophie fic, but also Music is History by Questlove.

Last series: I was watching Widow's Bay, we got through three eps and should pick it back up, because it's so good. But I also have been sick again this week (omg I am disgusting do not ask), and have been rewatching Bridgerton s4. Again.

Leave me alone.

Last movie: Uhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmm The Rescuers? Disney's Robin Hood maybe? I've been revisiting old animated classics lately, and that's been a lot of fun.

Last song: Qobuz tells me Rainbow Connection. Who am I to argue?

Sweet or salty: Salty. I like sweet things, but it can be a little too much for me.

Coffee or tea: Both. I love 'em both. Tea is cozy and calming. Coffee is bracing. Love 'em.

Working on: Shit tons of fic, a couple of songs, and myself.

Whoever would like to do this as well, go for it!

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About The Vampire Aina: Part 6

It's come to my attention that Aina may sound a bit too nice for a vampire. And maybe that's the point? That's what she wants you to think. That no one can read her mind proves to be a further advantage toward that end.

Let's explore her more monstrous side!

First, the obvious: like most vampires, she eats people. She's too scared to set herself on fire just yet.

It was either humans or other animals. As you know, Ricean vampires find human blood more nourishing than the blood of other animals. But more importantly, Aina has gotten along better with animals for most of her existence. Even as a mortal--in Japan during its Warring States period, no less--she had no real friends despite her best efforts. (In hindsight, I suppose this made her especially vulnerable to the charms of her vampire maker.) Getting beaten to near death by people on the night she was turned only solidified her resolve to eat them.

Aina has anger issues related to years of rejection, though her temper has cooled somewhat over the centuries. Hers is a quiet and cold kind of rage, these days. She's a master in the art of passive aggression. She keeps helping people precisely so they don't notice her anger.

(Lestat sees it, though. He may not be able to read her mind, but he's still highly observant. Why else would he spend effort trying to pull reactions from her whenever they cross paths?)

(Louis can sense it, too, though he's not as inclined to be a troll about it.)

In the early days, her kills got quite messy, reflecting the rawness of her fury. But as the years passed, she learned to keep them tidier and, for lack of a better word, gentler.

Though she has tried to limit her kills to "evil-doers", this approach has proven problematic between her inability to read minds and the bloody historical periods she grew up in and lived through.

When hunting, she'd hang out around places like prisons, campsites, and the infamous Aokigahara Forest.

Yes, she has obliged more than a few people who came out to end their own lives. She's even drained people who changed their minds midway through about wanting to live. No, she's not proud of this.

In fact, Aina has an extensive history of killing people who were seeking death in some way, whether due to depression, severe hardship, or terminal illness.

Despite the above mentioned anger issues, she isn't truly a sadistic person. These days, she wishes to ease suffering when she encounters it, not propagate it.

She's not just a parasite! She can and will use her powers for good! You'll see!

For as invested as she becomes in Louis and Lestat, Aina finds their brooding about their shared condition to be tiresome (though she knows better than to say so to their faces). Mostly because it reminds her of her own self-loathing, which she takes great care not to dwell on. She'd rather look for solutions.

Blud™ is conceived as a possible solution to all their existential dilemmas. If it is successful, vampires can keep feeding themselves without having to prey upon humans.

Her time as a scientist working on Blud is the most motivated she's felt since Elliott's death (more on him and Abigail in another post)! Nothing is going to stand in her way of realizing it. Nothing! Not even ethical regulations.

For the record, she opposes the Great Conversion on, if nothing else, ecological grounds. She's been left out of much of the conversation about it since she cannot communicate with other vampires telepathically, and when she's brought up to speed on it she can empathize with the motivations behind the movement. Even so, the long-term implications of the Great Conversion for society and the planet keep her from supporting it. Sounds to her like the world needs Blud now more than ever...

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About The Vampire Aina: Part 5

Continued from here.

Aina is in an awkward position as a vampire in that she is lonely and yearns to belong to a community. But befriending humans is problematic for obvious reasons (bookmarks her relationship with Abigail for later), and most vampires she's met don't think her vision of peace through the creation of Blud is worth pursuing.

When Louis agrees to invest in her research, he's also, unintentionally, throwing her a chance to connect with vampires who might share her vision. Louis doesn't like to eat people, either. He wouldn't if he could help it. Well, look at that! They're in the same boat.

In the beginning, Aina tries to keep her expectations low and treat this as just a business partnership. But having been alone for so long, she loses sight of those boundaries and catches feelings. Platonic ones, that is. She wants to be friends. She wants them to go out for karaoke after work and watch movies and go hiking in nature and be a shoulder the other can cry on. That sort of thing.

As for Lestat? Daniel's book does initially sour her toward him. On the other hand, Louis still seems greatly attached to him despite their past, and Lestat is a vampire too. A rule-breaking one, at that. Maybe she should check him out, after all?

And then, like with Louis, she grows to care for Lestat.

...at her own peril.

He and Aina have this rocky relationship where he tries to get reactions out of her and she keeps deflecting because she knows he's looking for those reactions. He doesn't really know how to respond to platonic gestures, never mind from a woman. The passes he makes at her on the night she visits him aren't out of real desire. They're made out of fear. To punish her and push her away.

And I think, once she calms down enough, Aina will see his misbehavior as that, too.

But for now? It hurts. It hurts to have a(nother) bid for connection be met with cruelty.

And it hurts knowing Louis is too in love with Lestat to care about how he's treated her.

She could raise hell, but what good would it do? She's got a potentially world-changing project that needs finishing, and she still needs Louis's support. So, after a long cry in her coffin, she falls back and puts back on that air of polite detachment she'd had at her first meeting with Louis.

Louis, for his part, can sense Aina withdrawing, but he only presses as far as checking to see if she isn't turning on him like other vampires have since Daniel's book dropped. She's not sure whether this or not asking at all would have been more offensive.

"Oh, you don't hafta worry about my allegiance. I just...realized I've been asking too much of you. From now on, it's strictly professional between us. No more karaoke nights, no more movie nights. Kay?"

"If that's how you feel, that's fine by me."

But all is not lost in Aina's social life. She has Abigail, at least. Though their bond isn't without its own obstacles...

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((How would a Vampire Aina fair in context to the Stardew Valley world? The Naruto one? How would a mesh of these three versions behave if combined, replaced, or overlapped?))

What a great question! Thanks for sending!

In a lot of ways, Vampire!Aina isn't so different from Stardew!Aina or Naruto!Aina. All incarnations of her adore nature and yearn for love (platonic, romantic, community, et cetera), though they may initially find that love in the wrong places.

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Vamp!Aina would be happy to take up a farm. In the Stardew Valley fandom, there's a relatively popular fanon that the Farmer, the player's avatar, is a cryptid. She'd fit right in, in that respect!

Although, making friends would be much harder since she'd be more active at night, when everyone else would be in bed.

Also, how is she going to feed herself in such a small town? She could theoretically drain animals, but she loves animals too much to do that to them. Plus, Ricean vampires find human blood more nourishing than that of other animals.

Here's where the horror creeps in...

Well, if nothing else, there's potential for a tragic romance with Abigail, right?

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In the Naruto-verse, Vamp!Aina would have far less of an issue hunting for food. There are plenty of enemy shinobi to drain from!

But again, making friends would be, to say the least, a challenge. Especially since this is a world with no other known vampires.

...then again, perhaps she could make herself at home in Water Country?

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What would happen if the three Ainas collided? I like to think they'd be a powerhouse of good will and resilience! Though they would have their differences.

To Vamp!Aina's credit, she would like to move away from eating people, hence her conception of Blud™. But she'd likely need the help of Orochimaru to make it a reality, which would not sit well with the other two Ainas, but even less so with Naruto!Aina.

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Salutations! Welcome! Get to know me. . .

What does my moniker (username) mean?

I asked once to send someone poetry I'd written about our relationship, and their answer was no— a moment of self discovery I celebrate, tongue in cheek.

When did I begin my poetry?

When I was invited to a creative writing group (I was so charmed to be asked). After joining, instead of thinking about poetry, I began to write it. Poems I compose in free verse are public, but if I compose in rhyme and meter, I keep it private.

When did I begin my writing?

More recently. "Black, Soft, Unearthly" is the first piece I decided to make for others to read, and its sequel, "Then Shall Change Red".

When did I begin my art?

I explored it through different projects and styles all my life, I pursued it in my education, and I have a bachelor's of science in fine art.

When did I begin my violin playing?

Much later in life than I wanted, but at the first opportunity I had, in college.

What do I love to do, when interacting with others?

Talk about creativity or hobbies, make jokes, make small talk, or give mentorship! I'm very adept at listening and sensing emotions, but I've no idea what to do with this interpersonal knowledge, and very often don't want to do anything that is not my routine or special interests.

I do ask you not to give me a follow if you aren't engaging me/my posts because I'll soon send you into the void, where everyone self interested, boring, or lacking imagination belongs.