▸ is your muse tall/short/average?
well he’s 5′9″. is that tall? is that average? is that short? U DECIDE.
▸ are they okay with their height?
he don’t really care? is this something he should care about he wonders
▸ what’s their hair like?
dark, brown, a frikkin mess nowadays, back in the days slicked back, or parted.
▸ do they spend a lot of time on their hair/with their grooming?
lol no, not at all.
▸ does your muse care about their appearance?
back in skybox? oh definitely. needed to strike a good appearance. as the days passed on by? no, no not anymore. he’s gotten to the point of whatever, i don’t care, i look handsome? cool, i don’t look handsome? whatever you say. my hair’s a mess? feel free to do something about it if ur close enough to me. theres blood on my clothes? wow what a surprise.
▸ does your muse care about what others think about them?
he ... hmm... he definitely did back in skybox. needed to make sure he was feared/respected/listened to. during s1 he definitely still clung to that care of what others thought about him with bellamy. aka caring what HE thought about murphy. as the story progresses, he comes to a point where he just... no longer really gives a shit. up until the point where he starts to care again. it’s an on and off button [ snorts ] like he definitely cares what his space fam thinks about him? but also still feels they’re better off without him
▸ indoors or outdoors? outdoors and indoors
▸ rain or sunshine? sunshine but rain’s nice too
▸ forest or beach? forest there’s caves there ( but beaches can be fun too )
▸ precious metals or gems? wtf do i do with gems. precious metals i suppose?
▸ flowers or perfumes? flowers we dont need perfume
▸ personality or appearance? personality, appearance is a bonus.
▸ being alone or being in a crowd? really depends... i feel he mostly likes sort of being alone, but not all the time? like alone with 1 person with him? crowds usually end up with bad shit happening.
▸ order or anarchy? anarchy.
▸ painful truths or white lies? painful truths. he’ll always go for painful truths. unless a white lie saves his life. he doesn’t like being lied to himself, though.
▸ science or magic? science, there’s no magic in the world.
▸ peace or conflict? complicated
▸ night or day? both
▸ dusk or dawn? both
▸ warmth or cold? warm
▸ many acquaintances or a few close friends? a few close friends
▸ reading or playing a game? playing a game.
▸ what are some of your muse’s bad habits?
he has bullets for words, doesn’t know how to shut up, ever lasting sarcasm and sass, dark humour, doesn’t know how to fix himself, tends to thrive in chaos and create such too, can’t believe someone would stick with him, serious issues, low self esteem. do i need to go on?
▸ has your muse lost anyone close to them? how has it affected them?
a ton of people, really. the first one having been his father at the age of 9. he never really got the chance to bounce back from that loss. it affected him the worst because through that his mother spiralled so much. and he got the blame for it, again and again. the happy little family they had been had been floated the moment he saw his father’s body leave that room, floated out. soft caresses replaced by hard hits physically, mentally and emotionally. his father’s death destroyed them. then his mother’s death happened and further ruined him. after that in skybox he had to watch his bunk mate off himself because he wanted to go on his own terms. throughout the years there he’s seen people be shipped off to get floated once they reached the appropriate age. he turns closed off to many, isolated in a way. doesn’t let a lot of people get close to him. can be counted on one hand, really. i think in a sense charlotte’s death affected him too because he was responsible for that. and yes he was fucking pissed off at her, because they hanged him for her crime. but he hadn’t intended for her to do what she did. he realizes at that point he’s made a mistake by letting his rage fuel him to the point of no return. even if he wasn’t really close to charlotte, but still. after that the closest death would be finn, the peacemaker. that one opened his eyes in a sense too. and eventually craig, even though he wasn’t super close to him, it was also an eye opener.
▸ what are some fond memories your muse has?
it’s hard. he wants to say the happy moments spent with his family, but they’re clouded with all the shit that happens afterward. so they’re bittersweet because he had it all, everything his young heart could long for, and then it was ripped from his hands. so i suppose i’ll say that the fond memories he has are with emori. just tiny little things. her laugh, teases, her very first shower, exploring the mansion with her, their first time and the sheer l o v e and just-- yeah. the moments he’s been given affection by his space fam are a big plus too.
▸ is it easy for your muse to kill?
to be honest, it’s.... scarily easy. but he has to live with the consequences of his actions for the rest of his life. two kills he had done out of rage, out of revenge. out of a sheer believe that it was JUST. that he was allowed this because they had tried to kill him. the second death he was partly responsible for wasn’t really in his book. he doesn’t LIKE to kill, but he WILL if he must.
▸ what’s it like when your muse breaks down?
hmmmmm... if he snaps, he snaps. what kind of breakdown do we talk about, though? in season 1 we see him break down in a sense of fuck it all, i’m a goner anyway might as well burn the kingdom down with my downfall. but there’s also other break downs. like the realization he was going to starve to death in that bunker. driving him over the edge. and then the screams and shouts i nseason 4 when they take emori from him. and then in season 5 complete isolation and pushing everyone away.
▸ is your muse capable of trusting someone with their life?
good one. he has... major trust issues. which is really understandable with all the shit happens. i have conflicted feelings over this question. like at one point, i think he WOULD be capable of trusting someone with his life. aka emori. and perhaps in season 5 even bellamy. but in all...? i think it would be really hard.
▸ what’s your muse like when they’re in love?
a love sick puppy. [ killed ] nah, he’s loyal through and through. adores and loves and just wants to cling onto this happiness given to him. worships his s/o, cherishes with kisses and touches and hand holding and just. he’s stupidly adorable once in love. but also dangerously lethal if the one he loves is in danger.
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