I wonder sometimes
I've noticed in the past few months that I seem to be getting somewhat more popular, like, steadily more popular each week or day or month, with my follower count and the number of people that approach me at conventions (Megacon especially) and that's got me wondering a lot.
Like, do I have fans? Genuine fans who are fans of what i do and the things I type and stories i say? I have 3 thousand followers but I know for a fact that a good number of those are people i've met at conventions, but the rest of you i'm not entirely sure.
Do I have a fandom of followers? Are there people out there who draw me or talk about me or dream of talking to me or meeting me because I've helped them somehow? Do people write stories about me or tell their families and friends about me?
Are there people that look up to me? Have I made a real difference for anyone in the world,or on this site, or just in general? Do people look forwards to when I wake up and come online and start posting?
Like, I know people like me in general, over 3200 people like me from my count over here, but I'm really starting to wonder if i'm entering like, some sort of scene of popularity, where people talk about me and share stories about me and wait for cosplays I put out and stuff.
Are my followers my fans? Or just followers? Or friends? or all or none?
I don't want to get to a point in my life where a number on a website means more to me than the life I live outside of it, but If those numbers are real people then I really do want to know if somehow I've become something more than I could have hoped for, and how many people are really there looking up to me because of it.