#about progress

[ailovemyself]

I was taught the way of progress is neither swift nor easy.

Marie Curie (1867-1934), French physicist and two-time winner of the Nobel Prize

[the-lazyyy-artist]

I love my job so much.

The coaching calls I support everyday have so much nuggets of wisdom that I can really apply in real life, may it be in my daily chores or my hobbies. I have a hard time churning or continuing the stories I have in my drafts. Today, we're talking to a children's book author struggling with her progress, and she shared something her writing coach said. She said, "done is better than perfect", and I'm like damn... That's actually true.

She also mentioned how she's so afraid of the next step that he hasn't even worked on the first step yet, or rather, hasn't worked hard enough to finish the first step. And again, thay resonated with me.

I have this big project that I'm supposed to post at the end of the year, but because of the amount of breaks I had while writing it, the thought of actually finishing it all and making sure it's a perfect story scares me a little. The thought of if this would appeal to my fellow fans scare me because what if it wouldn't? The thing is, the fear is part of the process. As much as our brains want to keep us safe by making us think of the outcomes that haven't even happened yet, we should use it as an avenue to become confident with our craft and our works. Fear is good sometimes.

The perfection aspect is what cripples me, too. But honestly, i just want to finish it. I wanna finish the project and post it out there and see how it goes. One day, I'll get back to it.

[ailovemyself]

There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. You seek problems because you need their gifts.

Richard Bach

[thebearnamedlar]

Paging Dr. Larry

Ugghhh.

I’ve written six pages in the past ten hours, and made some edits to Chapter Two here and there. Which is ostensibly great progress, in theory.  But I’m nowhere even halfway done with all the things I outlined for this chapter. Frankly, I’m already at sixteen pages, and I’m half-tempted to just say “Fuck it,” tie up Speech-act Theory in a neat little bow, and just move on to Chapter One, which I haven’t touched since November. But hey, at least I realized that I actually have 25 pp. officially approved. Like, final-draft-approved. And I’ve finished 9/20 pp for my musical ethnography. So...you know. It’s not entirely dismal. Just...a little bit.

[idleutopia]

New Year, New Me!

Update: as of 1/29/2015 I am now 187 lbs! I did not think the day would come when I could be under 200 lbs! A day where I could look in the mirror and feel good about what I saw! Next week I'm going to just work out and eat well. This week I have been supplementing my dinners for a shake and to be perfectly honest, I don't like it. I much prefer to eat healthy, everything in moderation and work out. 

I started out at 230 lbs back in December 2013! I finally decided to do something about my weight back in January 2014. I started the "21 Day Challenge" and it was brilliant. I learned that I have enough self control, that I can think about my choices,eating wise, and that I can do challenges.

I decided to do the 21 Day Challenge again this January and the results have been amazing. It's only 21 days of restricting only things like white bread, sodas, fried food, junk food, and other such things. It's a wonder what a difference not consuming those things can make. 

The progress has been slow but after being stagnant for so long, any progress is amazing. I feel so proud of myself. I've truly worked for it.

I do feel I need to push myself more to build up strength and endurance but it's been an awesome journey, that still has a way to go.