Hm.... so Pink and Gray fused and now we have me, new!Pink (not to be confused with the other new!Pink from a few months back, who was a fusion between old!Pink and Cyan). Great. Kinda interesting that twice now old!Pink has fused with different alters and each time the fusion kept her color.
I was.... really confused at first when the fusion happened. It didn’t really seem like Pink and I were really headed in that direction. I mean, I’d literally just split with Soot only about a week ago, and Pink and old!Gray didn’t really have much of a connection with each other. But... I was no longer old!Gray, and I guess it was because of the split, and the fact that Pink’s role of being the holder of all our hypersexuality was now obsolete, that we subconsciously felt drawn to each other. Yesterday we both felt that tug in our head that was like.... oh, I suppose I want to fuse with you now, huh.
Soot.... poor Soot. I think he got a little bit jealous that Pink and I were fusing, and not.... the parts that made up old!Gray. He told us that it felt too sudden and that we should think on it more.... and admittedly I had some unfinished business that I wanted to close out as Gray. So we tabled the fusion for later until I finished things up, and as soon as that was done... well, it just sort of happened.
I still mainly feel like Gray. It more feels like.... I have access to old!Pink’s feelings and memories more clearly now, more immediately. I can still feel her presence, it’s not that she’s gone. She’s now.... me, as well. It’s kinda nice. I wasn’t even sure if the fusion had really taken at the time, since I was still mainly acting and speaking as Gray would. But then uh.... one of my partners walked into the room after a bath and I found myself drawn to them and wanting to physically crawl all over their body, so, yknow, stuff Gray wouldn’t have done at all.
I have a new sense of confidence that feels.... different. I haven’t felt confident since the split, but this new confidence definitely isn’t the same type of confidence that old!Gray had. But... it’s nice, still. I like it.
I think I’m gonna like this version of me, however long it sticks around.
