#aboutdora

[kuwdora]

could you please post/link a big picture of your icon? it intrigues me so...

aw this is such a great question. my tumblr icon is a piece of art that, according to the metadata, I saved over 20 years ago and has migrated with me across multiple laptops, and hard drives and life events, hah. Way back in the day I had been obsessed with tarot decks and fantasy art and was saving everything I could find that was Brian Froud or reminiscent of Brian Froud's style or type of faeries. I've cycled through a few of these images as my longstanding icons (though I always made room for fannish icons and was an avid LJ icon maker back in the day)

I have always wanted my icons to give off that strange faery vibe. sometimes more approachable than others. usually twinkling with mischief in some way. this image file was labelled "xc.bmp" - bitmap file. Microsoft image file. old file. two other faces of kuwdora around the internet: green face (original file name: allergy fae.gif) and pooka face:

thank you for the ask!!! ❤️

[kuwdora]

Earlier this year I had a laugh when I was checking my go-bag supplies for 2024. Last year I had topped it up with some fresh supplies and rearranged things to make space for some extra clothes and whatnot. Then I re-discovered the reading material I had put inside.

In case during an emergency I wouldn't have my phone or my e-reader, I knew I wanted to have something to read on hand. What did I pick?

The books: Star Trek The Final Reflection by John M. Ford. And a pocket-sized book of John Keats poetry that I've definitely carried with me through 6 apartments in 2 cities for the last 15 years.

In case of emergency: carry Klingon Trek novels and John Keats.

[kuwdora]

My brain continues to be waterlogged from burnout/PTSD and late stage capitalism. I either have two speeds: zooming everywhere like I'm golden Sonic and vibrating with New Ideas. Or I'm stuck in molasses and I'm having a hard time following through with my current tasks and responsibilities. It's still an uphill battle navigating the dysregulation and dysfunction since all of this is manifesting slightly differently than what I'm used to dealing with. I was telling a friend the other day that I have a TON of fucking spoons, they're all just melted into the most useless shapes and abstract renderings that kind of hypnotize me. Like...what am I supposed to do with these things? Gonna try to melt them back into a proper shape with habit stacking, accountability and continuing to be gentle to myself in the face of uncertainty and things outside my control. I am doing a lot, even when it doesn't feel that way. Anyway, thank you friends for tagging me in all the fun tag games and sharing pretty pictures or sending me delightful DMs. I have approximately 29 blog posts about all the randomness and fannishness bouncing around in my head that I'll b shoving into my queue. Oh, my queue which is actually almost maxed out because I had gone on a queue-stuffing frenzy in December since I couldn't stand having my drafts folder so large anymore and I've only just been adding since then. And now it's like 900 posts long? So maybe you'll see a random reblog of your post in six to eight months into your future. Sorry? I ought to make some sort of mini "about me" post or something since I'd gotten a lot of new witcher folks followin' me in the last few months. And now all my vidding and multi-fandom friends are tricklin' in over from Twitter. I just have to let you all know that I am so fannishly all over the board with my interests that I will just keep trying to over-tag things for people's filters. I am 1 half witcher fixation, one quarter vidding, one quarter all my other media interests. yeah, yeah, this has been an actual post. what a marvel. I keep telling myself I used to blog more but that was probably like a decade ago now. But the desire is still there. I was more chatty on Twitter in the last few years (until recently). I have more than enough to say about this or that when rolling around in DMs. Just gotta try to let myself noodle in my own tumblr space some more.

[kuwdora]

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

Hello, I have managed to wrangle a few brain cells together for a meme! Tagged by @andordean

Three ships: I still live and breathe everything about The Witcher. So every combination of Geralt/Yen/Jaskier is my jam. I’ve also adored rare pairs going all the way back to Stargate Atlantis, so rare pairs are definitely my cuppa. And Witcher fandom has so many!! I mean definitely glom onto the Grumpy One/Sunshine One in pretty much every fandom and I even made a vid about it (New Best Friend). But in the end I can’t just have one type of ship. I want it all. Om nom nom, my fannish buffet. Give me slash, give me femslash, show me your character studies and crack and joy with all the tropes and characters. Most of my witcher friends know I make the rounds everywhere. 😍

Last song: Rasputin by Boney M because I rewatched this Bucky Barnes Rasputin fanvid and now I’m earwormed for the next month.

Last movie: uhh, probably Blade 2 because I rewatched for my Blade vid WIP. I love it a lot and had forgotten so much about it since I hadn’t rewatched it as much as the first film.

Currently reading: Spin State by Chris Moriarty even though I haven’t touched the book in 2 months. I also have 12,000 witcher fic tabs open and keep bouncing off because my brain is parsing only very short things right now.

Currently watching: Picard, The Last of Us, Crazy Delicious, Piñata Masters.

Currently consuming: Coffee and yogurt.

Currently craving: Food-wise I would love some kind of mac and cheese with some very rich cheese combination. But big picture life cravings? I need this emotional ulcer to go away. I want to feel like I can breathe and see a little more clearly again. I have a final interview that was FINALLY scheduled for the end of this week. It’s been two long months (on top of many more months) of so many interviews, professional calls, social anxiety, and fatigue. I am tired of forgetting things because I’m hyperfocused on job stuff and its so hard to turn it off. I’m tired of having to push down the imposter syndrome again and again. I am so tired and anxious. I would like to be done and start this new chapter of my life, please.

Tagging: ooooh, um, who do I tag who wants to do it? You don’t have to but I’m throwing it out here. I have no idea who likes being tagged for these kind of things but!! Here! @littlestsnicket @therealallecto @crushcandles @spacecores @salamanderinspace @lovelysailboat @reinvent-and-believe