I will change this world, even if it’s the smallest way, I will make someone the happiest girl they have ever been, I will help educate children, I will aid those in need, I will do what ever it take to do what means the most to me..because I have the desire and the passion to do this and my heart aches to be there for everyone and anyone so I will follow my heart and my dreams and I will accomplish everything.
Every single person that you talk to or walk by is going through successes and failures every single day. Every day you pass by people that you will never get the opportunity to meet and will never have the chance to be enriched in all their knowledge about life and about things that you might never even come into contact with. It’s these moments when you need to take this and use it to your benefit and reach out and start a conversation with someone or talk to someone you do know and reach deep into their mind and figure out what they are passionate about.
I see this world as beautiful people that have their own personal beliefs, ideas, and passions and they all come together to make this world the amazing place that it is. Without any struggle people wouldn’t be able to teach other lessons. It doesn’t have to be direct lessons but I believe that people will benefit more from learning the hard way and having people be there to support them while others are there to hurt them.
I see the world around me as a test and obstacles are thrown every single day in my path but every day I grow stronger and I grow into this person that will be able to take anything on. I don’t feel that things you go through define the kind of person that you are. I like to think that it is how you take on the things that you go through and how to overcome them and use them to your benefit.
Nothing that I have gone through has been able to break me, at the time it might have seemed like there would be no way that I could overcome the pain and hurt I was going through, but it is true that time heels all pain. As much as sometimes I wish I didn’t have to wait for time to heel my hurt, I do appreciate all that time does for me because I find the time in between getting hurt and getting strong is where you learn the most about yourself and where you find pure strength and will power.
Are the strongest people the ones that have gone through the most? I don’t believe that you have to go through much to realize how strong you are inside. I do however believe that the type of pain and the kind of struggles that you endure help with the amount of strength you need to build but I don’t think that you could ever compare someone’s strength and their will power with the amount of pain that they had to go through.
Dreams, visions, you have the power to do what ever you want to do with the life that you are given. There are never too many boundaries placed on your life to not allow you to do exactly what you want to do with your life. Money should not be used an an excuse to hinder you from what you truly want and what you feel that your calling is. Especially if you have a passion there should be nothing holding you back.
I am lucky enough to know exactly where my heart is and what my passion is but do know that it will most likely change because I know how big my heart is and I know that there is so much potential for me to do a variety of things in this life. My heart and head are filled with the desire to help others in any possible way that I can whether it be to make someone the happiest that they can be, something as simple as making someone smile or laugh, holding the door for someone, just reaching out to show someone that I care in some way. People can use me as a doormat as much as they want because I have proved that nothing can break the strength I have and I will never be broken. I feel huge changes that I have gone through but I know that I will never be changed fully because I hold what means the most to me closest to my heart and nothing will ever be able to take that away.
Music is my escape when I feel that my world is crashing down around me. It can be the smallest thing that is bothering me or if my medicine decides to give me a slight feeling of anxiety I go right to my music and close my eyes and just tunnel myself to the lyrics and let the words engulf me and take control of my thoughts. Music connects people in ways that words wouldn’t be able to, the feeling behind the music and the way the artist sings the words is how people can relate to the words and how they can apply it to their lives, and use it to help them.
Some days can be hard, but every single day is a true blessing and no matter what at the end of the day I find the power to thank God for a beautiful day and to bless all the people that are in my life and to tell everyone waiting for me that I miss them every day but will be with them eventually and need to finish my job down here. It take a lot of pain and hurt to make me mad and upset because I have learned that nothing is truly worth getting into a fight or argument about because time is so short and there is too much to be thankful for every day. So why should I waste my time getting angry and upset over something so small when I could be using that same energy and make positive impacts in not only my personal life but also use that energy to reach out to those who need my support and care.
I am so ready to love and so ready to start my life and I know in my heart that when it’s meant to happen it will. I am so strong and know exactly what I want and I am beyond confident that I will find exactly what I want and who I want to be that person for me because I won’t settle for anything but that and will make sure that the person I am with feels the same way and feels that I could be the person to remind them how beautiful they are every day and how they amaze me every single second of every day. Because in my heart I believe in true love and I feel that there is someone out there for everyone, no matter what. I feel that you need to have a huge connection with that person on a variety of levels because without that strong connection you won’t have anything to build a true relationship on. I know that I have been through a series or relationships and flings but I know that I had to go through these things to finally figure out what my potential is and really build my confidence and figure out exactly what I have been missing for so long. I feel that being gay has been the biggest blessing besides being adopted by the two of the most beautiful people. I feel that everything about the way that they raised me and me turning out to be gay and the fact that they support me allows me to connect with my feelings and to grasp what I truly want out of life. It also allows me to know that one day soon I will have a wife and will be able to start a family and have my family involved and they will support my every move. I am in such a good place in my life right now and I know that there are some things rocky about how I feel but I have this feeling deep within that everything will work out and that I will figure everything out and everything will go the way that it should.
