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[tzschixel]

A Carlos a day for my mental health 33/? [32]

Two close colleagues meet during their unexpected down time. After a few rounds of yapping and running out of topics: J: You like boy or you like girl? C: W... what? J: Answer me. And be honest. Do you like boy or do you like girl? C: I don't... I... J: Because I'm gonna plant one inside you.

[sinister-flower]

Reading Hamnet yesterday, my second book of the year. I have been listening to the audiobook during my walks too. Can't wait to watch the movie.

10/100

[farahhassim]

Maybe I am alone. Maybe that’s okay. Until— . . . it isn’t.

When the loneliness presses down, heavier than a stone I never chose to carry, when it drapes itself over me like a blanket I can’t shake off, when silence hums louder than any song I’ve ever known—

when smoke curls through my chest, burning pathways into lungs that only wanted air, when every inhale feels borrowed, and every exhale feels like surrender—

when I dream too much and live too little, when the world outside my window keeps spinning without me, while I sit, stuck inside the stillness of my own mind.

When my chest tightens like a fist around my ribs, and suddenly I can’t breathe— like the air itself is leaving me behind.

When I speak to the walls just to hear a sound, but even the echo refuses me. When I clutch my pillow at night as if its cotton filling could ever replace a heartbeat.

When I invent a lover with gentle hands, a friend with listening eyes, people made of smoke and memory, who vanish when the morning light comes in.

When I stare too long in the mirror and watch my reflection blur, as if the glass itself is tired of holding me together.

What then?

Do I wait for the ache to soften, for the night to forgive me, for the weight to lift on its own? Do I fold myself into the quiet and call it survival? Or do I keep asking questions to an empty room, hoping someday, the silence will answer back?

[archxangels]

𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔱 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔡𝔦𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔢

[ells-diary]

[jewish-microwave-laser]

i forgot how much i fucking hate being graded. i'm literally doing a good job but because im running on disabled person time i get docked points

i visited the emergency room two times these past five weeks and have been forced to go cold turkey on one medication or another four times, had a colonoscopy and egd scope, and so fucking much more. and you want to take points off videos of me reading some sentences in hebrew (which you already know i can pronounce because i cold read them every class) ??? come ON

[mckendrickslove]

[1000thingstodo]

Is whispering and being quiet in the library a myth?