Darcy looked around the walls of her room, bleary eyed and barely conscious. Her phone ringing is what woke her up from a very uncomfortable drunk-sleep. She answered to the sound of Coulson’s voice, telling her Professor Fields was dead. Dead. No longer living. Fuck. It was hard to wrap her brain around. Apparently, the professor’s cause of death was unknown but all signs point to accident from drinking too much at the rave. Despite the alcohol still very present in her system and her inability to concentrate fully on anything, she knew something about this seemed...odd. Odd as in, Coulson was bullshitting her. Again.
She had been lied to so often that it hardly even fazed her at this point. Oh, really, is that what happened? At first, she was curious (it’s in her nature, after all) about what it could be that May and Coulson were whispering about in the hall. What had Simmons looking so on edge? Why was everyone so fucking suspicious? But now, after months of this dance, she knew that no matter what, she would never be let in on whatever secrets were holding them all together.
Her voice was indifferent as she replied and hung up the phone despite the hurricane of emotions swirling inside of her. Fitz, of all people, found the body. She felt guilt start to eat away at her inside. If she had stayed with him, maybe he wouldn’t have been the one to find the body. That maybe he wouldn’t have to live with that image burning behind his eyes for the rest of his life.
A colleague was dead. A good person and good professor who probably had a family that loved them and so much more to give the world. An agent worthy of the title. She couldn’t help but think: “It should’ve been me.” God knows she had had enough to drink to kill a normal person. She wasn’t a good person, definitely wasn’t a good professor, and didn’t really have anyone that couldn’t live without her. She didn’t meant that part in the self-pitying way, just a simple fact. She was disposable. An accident waiting to happen. And yet, here she was. Sitting on the floor at 4 AM in last night’s dress with a pit in her stomach as deep as the Mariana Trench.
She threw her phone at the wall, watching as the screen shattered, before letting the tears spill over.









