Fuck…I feel dizzy. My play-partner in crime and I…we’re enjoying our little dance once more. Last night, while I was taking the lead, I made a blunder of which I’d later enjoyable regret. A beautiful mistake that shows that neither dance partner is truly in control at a given moment.
“I love seeing you break.”
“Will you keep breaking for me?”
Just a few words spoken in a heat of passion, and suddenly, the mood of our waltz has flipped. I no longer lead our movements, but instead am trailed along their own new path of which they’ve chosen for me. I am caught in a flurry of steps and praise and steps and teasing and steps and pleasure, all the while my mind threatens to slip into such blissful silence.
And would I be wrong to crave it? To crave their gentle words and comforting embrace? To strip away my dignity and pride, all for the chance of hearing that sweet praise once more? No, I think not.
I know one day, I’ll take back the lead of our sweet waltz once more. That I’ll have them twirl and dip and bend for my pleasure and amusement. It always happens, and always will, thus our eternal dance. And yet, though I love to have them at my mercy…I will always choose to bend for them again.