Self-Ship Introduction — Fresh Start Edition 🖤✨
Y'all already know I'm a bigender AFAB cistrans catgender girl, so no need for a whole coming out moment — just stating facts and moving on 💅
Anyway. The old posts? Gone. Deleted. Purged. Getting rid of them was a complete nightmare and I don't wanna talk about it. What matters is we're starting fresh and this time it's actually gonna represent who I am now rather than whoever I was back then. Think of this as my official self-ship introduction — properly done this time 🖤
Also I don't use a self-insert — I self-ship as my actual irl self. For visual purposes I use a gacha club version of myself, so no worries there 🐱
My F/Os 💀🖤
1. Skitzo (In The Dark Comics) Tag: red eyes don't scare me
Bro. It's obvious. I've said it before and I'll keep saying it — demonic vintage 1920s killer sun bear with a three pointed knife, red eyes that switch instantly with zero warning, and the most unhinged reality bending abilities known to existence. The black and white aesthetic combined with the sheer chaos of what he actually IS?? Yeah. That made me catch feelings. I don't need to explain further 💀
2. Cartoon Cat (Trevor Henderson) Tag: the cat kept me
The way he EXISTS is what got me. Old rubber hose cartoon aesthetic but make it eldritch horror. He can be any size he wants, stretches and morphs like cartoon physics never stopped applying to him, and is simultaneously the most powerful entity in the entire Trevor Henderson universe. Every other monster avoids his territory. That alone says everything 🐱
3. Ayano Aishi (Yandere Simulator) Tag: my heart her heartbeat
The Aishi Condition is genuinely one of the most fascinating character concepts to me — completely emotionally numb by default until she meets her fated person and then suddenly fully feeling everything all at once. That's so specific and so her. Add the calm composed exterior while internally calculating literally everything at all times and yeah. Yeah I get it 💅
4. Monika (Doki Doki Literature Club) Tag: fourth wall lovers
Self aware enough to realize she's in a game, smart enough to do something about it, and somehow still the most emotionally genuine character in the whole thing despite being the one who broke everything. The piano playing, the literature, the way she just THINKS about things?? She's beautiful and terrifying and I'd follow her into the void no questions asked ✨
5. Jax (The Amazing Digital Circus) Tag: it's not like i'd show up for you or anything
Colorful, cocky, chaotic, and hiding genuinely significant trauma under approximately seventeen layers of sarcasm and "I don't care" energy. Canonically the most mentally fragile member of the circus underneath the persona. Also a confirmed closeted transfem which just adds even more to an already fascinating character. Using he/him for before he came out and she/her after — acknowledging the full arc because both matter 💀
6. Ankle (Animal Crossing) Tag: pretty tax
Egyptian queen energy 24/7, genuinely believes her attitude is completely normal and justified, snooty and judgmental and opinionated and also?? Stunning. The design does a lot of heavy lifting and she knows it. That smug "I know I'm better than you" aura is somehow both insufferable and incredibly compelling and I hate that about her 👀
7. Rouge The Bat (Sonic The Hedgehog) Tag: my most prized jewel
Spy brain under a flirty confident exterior, always running some angle, never caught off guard, already knows things before you tell her. Jewel thief with actual standards and the skills to back up every bit of her confidence. She can fly. Nothing rattles her. The total package honestly 🦇
8. Suicide Mouse (Creepypasta) Tag: real softness is not known
The original Mickey Mouse concept twisted into something that carries heavy weight — no forced happiness, no performance, just existing with all that heaviness in complete silence. The tragedy of what he represents hit different and underneath all of it there's something genuinely soft there. Sad little cutie boy and I mean that with my whole chest 😭🖤
9. Petey The Cat (Dog Man) Tag: petey's one miscalculation
Reformed villain still actively figuring out how to be good AND how to be a parent simultaneously, irritable and emotionally stiff about basically everything, inconsistent in the most human way possible. Some days warmer, some days pretending nothing's happening, some days just grumpy about having feelings at all. That specific flavor of character is so compelling to me every single time 💀
10. King Julien (Madagascar / All Hail King Julien) Tag: accidentally coronated
Eccentric, chaotic, unhinged charisma that somehow actually works. Genuinely caring underneath ALL the showmanship — does selfless things for people he loves even while making everything about himself. Cannot be stopped from throwing celebrations under any circumstances. The energy he brings is completely unmatched on my entire roster 👑
11. Reboot Wally Darling (Welcome Home AU by @bloodred_iscream) Tag: against my better judgment
Sarcastic, clingy, cocky, slightly narcissistic — and ALL of it rooted in a genuinely hurt ego because he knows he's a "replacement" and fears he isn't his own being. That specific insecurity driving every single one of his most exhausting behaviors makes him so much more interesting than he'd be without it. Complicated as hell and I mean that as a compliment 💀
12. Alastor (Hazbin Hotel) — familial F/O, my papa 🖤 Tag: the radio demon deer's fawn
Theatrical, permanently unsettling, radio static voice, dramatic about literally everything always. The protective energy he brings is menacing AND warm simultaneously which is such a specific combination. Also he seems like a genuinely cool dad to have and I needed that so here we are ✨
13. Catnap (Poppy Playtime) — familial F/O, my brother 🖤 Tag: worship? no. siblings? yes.
Quiet, devoted, slow blinking, genuinely doesn't understand a lot of normal concepts due to factory upbringing but tries anyway in his own Catnap way. The loyalty is the most absolute and unconditional thing I've ever seen in a character and underneath all the cult stuff there's something genuinely soft there. Also he's kinda cute honestly 👁️👁️
Dynamics 💀✨
Skitzo — So basically I witnessed him actively murdering someone and my response was to just. Pretend I saw absolutely nothing. He KNEW I saw. Every time he tried to kill me after that something about me just existing stopped him dead in his tracks and eventually he just. Stopped trying. I fell first but he fell so much harder and that's just facts 💀 He shows up unannounced sometimes covered in someone else's blood and we just vibe like that's completely normal. Red eyes mean stand back immediately and I know better. Otherwise though?? Surprisingly chill honestly 🖤
Cartoon Cat — Originally I was prey. Wandered into his territory and got into a game of cat and mouse. Except I won. And he genuinely could not bring himself to finish off someone who'd actually beaten him so now here we are somehow 🐱 Expects me to visit his territory regularly and if I don't show up he will find me and teleport me there mid-whatever-I'm-doing with absolutely zero warning or apology. Anyone who genuinely upsets me just. Disappears. No explanation. No body. No drama. Just gone ✨
Ayano — She's 18, I'm 19, I'm her senpai, and somehow I convinced her to accept my polyamory. She does accept it. Through very gritted teeth. Because the alternative is losing me entirely and that's simply not an option her brain will allow 💀 Climbs through windows if I don't respond to texts. Shows up unannounced and stays as long as she wants because telling her to leave is genuinely pointless. She's a yandere so you already know how it goes for anyone who tries to claim me 💅
Monika — I visit her in the game whenever I feel like it and she never once guilts me about how long or how often. She figured out how to leave occasionally now so she's not permanently stuck which is genuinely so important to me ✨ Most emotionally mature partner on my entire roster by a significant margin. Already researched things before I even brought them up. Makes me feel completely seen. Zero possessiveness, zero demands, just quiet patient devotion and I treasure that so much 🖤
Jax — Started out as a jerk specifically and deliberately toward me which. Backfired completely because I didn't react how he expected at all 💀 Feelings developed that neither of us acknowledged out loud for an embarrassingly long time. Now calls me boyfriend sometimes just to be annoying about it, occasionally slips up and means it genuinely, immediately gets flustered, will take that flustered moment to his grave and never acknowledge it ever. Shows up when nobody asked her to. Does things for me while loudly insisting it's not for me. Classic 😭
Ankha — This is enemy to lovers with extra steps honestly 💀 I call her out on her bullshit constantly and she is SO unused to anyone pushing back that it genuinely threw her off at first. Grudging respect has been building underneath all the friction ever since. She's had to learn to dial back the insufferable behavior or risk me just wandering off to spend time with literally anyone else on my roster — frames every moment of softening as her own gracious personal choice and would NEVER in a million years admit it's about keeping me around 👀
Rouge — She had her eye on me before I even knew she existed which is so very her 🦇 I fell for her in the meantime. She eventually decided I was worth keeping around and honestly that's the whole story. Flies in whenever she feels like it, lowest maintenance relationship I have by far, zero drama zero demands zero interrogations. Just shows up, exists, leaves. Refreshingly simple compared to basically everyone else on this roster 💀
Suicide Mouse — He tried to take his own life and I stopped it. Since then he hangs around when he feels like it and I keep an eye on him 🖤 The mutual quiet caretaking just happened naturally — he notices when something's off with me even while carrying his own heaviness and that means everything honestly. Softest and most understated dynamic on my entire roster but genuinely one of the most tender ones. Gets completely flustered if I give him any kind of more-than-platonic compliment. Has said cryptic stuff like "real suffering is not known" directly to my face, I asked him to explain, it only got more cryptic. We're working on it 😭
Petey — Met him while babysitting Li'l Petey and somehow ended up being the one thing this man did NOT calculate into his whole reformed villain plan 💀 He has complicated feelings, handles them badly, continues to handle them badly, responds to any affection with maximum stiffness and "it's fine. obviously." and refuses to elaborate further on anything emotional ever. Would be getting away with ALL of it too if Li'l Petey wasn't right there commenting on literally everything with zero filter and maximum enthusiasm making it completely impossible for Petey to hide a single thing 😭
King Julien — Went to the wrong location entirely. Ended up in his kingdom by complete accident. He decided on the spot that I was incredibly cool and welcomed me anyway and his approval is entirely vibes-based and completely absolute once given 👑 There is always a party somehow. Maurice always has questions and concerns. Mort is a whole situation that I handle by simply picking him up and relocating him whenever necessary which King Julien finds inexplicably attractive. It's a lot ✨
Reboot Wally — The ONE F/O who fell first instead of me and honestly it shows 💀 What I feel back is genuinely complicated and I'm not going to pretend otherwise. He makes everything about himself, spends significant energy listing every single flaw of every other F/O and arguing I should drop them all for just him, says he'll shut up about it, never shuts up about it. Dramatic about literally everything always. Underneath all the noise though the core is always "you're still mine though" and he cannot help it. It's complicated. We're figuring it out. Slowly 😭
Alastor — Fully latched onto him the moment I met him at the hotel due to some very unresolved issues with my actual dad situation and he was confused about it for a while but kept me around because I was entertaining ✨ That gradually became something genuine even if he'd never say so in plain words — the smile and the theatrical flourish say it for him. My Radio Demon dad. Found family through pure chaos and I wouldn't trade it 🖤
Catnap — Saved him from his canonical fate and he's mine now, unconditionally and permanently, my brother 👁️👁️ Protective in that quiet lurking way — present even when you can't see him. Would eliminate anyone who hurt me without hesitation or a single word about it. Still casually recommends I worship the Prototype mid completely normal conversation every single time without a shred of self awareness. Every time. Without fail. Without shame. I saved him from becoming that thing's coat and he is STILL doing PR for it. The slow blink is his entire "I love you" and I accept it 💀🖤
Why I'm Actually Posting This 💀
Honestly? I've been lurking and occasionally posting but I'm kinda over shouting into the void. I'm grateful for my mutuals who do interact, but I see other self-shippers getting engagement and anon asks and I want that too?? So here we are. Putting myself out there for real this time ✨
What I'm Looking For 🖤
Just looking to connect with other self-shippers and talk about our F/Os!! Open to:
Fanart if anyone wants to draw me with my F/Os 👀 Anon asks 💌 Comments and reblogs ✨ General self-shipping conversation 🖤
Happy to answer questions as myself too!! (OOC: A little nervous about responding as my F/Os because I don't wanna butcher their characterization, but we'll see 💀)
Still fairly new to actively posting about this so I don't have every boundary set up yet, but I've done my research and I know what I'm doing. Mostly 😭
Important note — sharing self-shipper here and doubles are absolutely welcome!! If you also ship with any of my F/Os that's completely fine, there's enough fictional love to go around 💕 If you're non-sharing though, no worries at all — that's exactly what the self-ship tags are for, feel free to block them 🖤