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Guys will wood sometimes sounds like Carlos from welcome to night vale when he’s talking softly. Wha t

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Me when he’s so everything bagel and I’m so nothing burger : 😝

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Guys insane lore update from Halloween (Friday) this week.

I got my first genuine kiss from a hot and talented musician. He’s a jazz guitarist and is really cool and funny and I’ve been plotting for like 3 weeks to get him on Halloween with me so we could hang out at least; oh boy did we hang out

So I painted Mr Guitar as a skeleton and let him borrow my skeleton onsie bc he didn’t have a costume; and ofc I would let him borrow it; and I get to touch his face????? He’ll fucking yeah

And then for like 30 mins we split off from the group to go to a party; which ended up being full but trading swigs from my redbull can that was filled 2/3rds of the way with svedka mango >:3 and we talk a lot and I remember most of it; it was partially about like height and I told him how my ex was legit 5’6” and so height isn’t a big deal to me; since I’m a tall girl (6’ 💀 it’s rough out here)

We get back to our friends dorm; drink more and sit close together. People start going to bed and so we start to go back to our dorms and he offers that instead of waking my roomate up (it was 1am and ik she was asleep), I could sleep on his beanbag chair in his room. OF COURSE I SAID YES

So we get to his room; and I sit down on the beanbag and he sits next to me; we talk for a bit; and I say “omg dude ur guitars are so sexy” and then he started playing for me; and I tried playing it left handed (I play left handed guitars and he plays right handed so I just flipped it over and was trying to do the right ones but we were lowk drunk; he had muscle memory of the scales tho 😂)

And then we get on the topic of music; and we listened to The Neighborhood and then we somehow ended up making out to jazz music and the neighborhood for the next 2.5 hours. He actually ended up giving me a couple of very light hickeys but I now know that I can ask him to do them harder and darker since I’m gonna be at school and not come home for a couple weekends lol. By then it’s 3am and he invites me to come sleep in his bed bc “you’ll get cold down there” and I ofc said yes

Dude he even gave me a brand new toothbrush that he had as an extra bc he knew that I was “not all that good with germs” omfg a guy who remembers shit about me

Apparently I was the first person he’s shared a bed with in college (he’s a sophomore) and so that was a great confidence boost; like he’s not a hoe THANK GOD IM NOT ONE OF HIS SIDE PIECES I GENUINELY THINK IM THE ONLY ONE RN YAYYYYYY

Anyway; he sleeps in just boxers which I’m totally ok with; since I knew we prolly weren’t gonna crack on the first night; but omfg was that not fucking amazing. He smelled great; and his one tattoo that I saw was really cool and I should remember to ask him the meaning of it. We cuddled all night and when I had to leave at 9 he was like “Oh my days. Stay up here for a second.” And had to put on pants bc he def had a boner like all night bc I kept running my nails across his arms and back lightly; and he kept pressing into my chest and he snores a bit but I don’t mind; I’m just happy he felt comfortable enough to fall asleep on me 🤭

I haven’t felt this happy since fucking Valentine’s Day with my gay ex boyfriend (not homophobic he legit turned out to be a homosexual and I support that; it was a pretty amicable breakup) and I cannot wait to get back to college tmr to maybe hang out with him (please please please!!!!!!)

I really hope Mr. Guitar is a reoccurring character who I may have locked down by the holidays? If anything I have a cuddle buddy and I’m very happy for that; esp one that I think is cute and is smart; and I think he likes me bc he doesn’t seem like the type to ho around lmaoooo

Ok goodnight guys 😝 wish me luck

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Guys I just want him. I didn’t realize how jealous I can get but if he kisses ducking Lucy or Ella instead of me I’m gonna fucking kill myself. I would rather it be villager / Maddie but literally I wish it could be me. I’m home for the night from college and so he’s sleeping in my bed tonight so hopefully he doesn’t wash the sheets so I can smell him and maybe sleep better. Idk that’s still crazy. I wish I could just be friends w benefits w him at least.

I get so jealous on the inside that I feel like a fucking 3rd grader again when everyone got chosen before me during recess for kickball teams. I just want to bite him and not let go. Ever.

He’s an ass guy, and I don’t have one so I’m SOL and I’m also fucking fat so like I’m double shit out of luck. I’ve been thinking about asking him about my size and if that’s why I’m unlikable besides by a gay guy. Maybe if he tells me I’m fat I’ll actually go to the gym. I should get back into my sophomore year of hs habits and drop this weight before Halloween

I think I’d be happier then.

I know what would make me the happiest though (his tongue in my mouth and we go at it sloppy style and he’s my first and I won’t be disappointed by it either)

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Just saw a lesbian couple on campus holding hands awww

When will it be my turn to be a “cringy” couple please let it be soon 🙏

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Got high again w A.M. Radio and my dormmates :3

Blehhhhh >Xp

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Can’t wait to see A.M. Radio at college Thursday! Then he’s driving back home with me and I’m dropping him off at his place, and then I’m picking up my mom and going to the MCR concert that Friday night!!!!

Omfg I love mcr (if you couldn’t tell by my profile name and picture lmaooo)

I really hope he hugs me just as tight as he did last Saturday. I know I’m going to

I dreamt about him last night. Nothing evil, it was like a slice of life anime where we were going grocery shopping together and we held hands :3 very sweet and cute, woke up feeling warm and missing him more.

I really hope we pick up where we left off if ykwim >:3

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I can’t even dream about anything else but him omfg what. I crave the feeling of his canine teeth on my tongue again aughhhh he’s making me yearn again I hope that at the dorms he and I can spend a whole lot more quality time together if ykwim like please please please it’s 4:56 in the fucking morning and I woke up from a dream about him and couldn’t even jack off the right way because I knew it wasn’t him :( this sucks actually I wish I could go to his house rn and wake him up to be with me rn aughhhhh but I can’tttttt

Please let the start of college be the start of him and I. By Christmas I’ll have him locked down; bet.