#actually-yuri

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opinions on the whole "pleasing yourself with a pen" thing that's been going around the ddlc community?

Are people really saying that? Uuuuuuuuu…… 

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“i’m not but I will be” is such an honest and beautiful response to the question “are you okay”

Thank you. I find myself thinking about this ask a lot when I’m sad, so thank you.

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would you huggu the yupee?

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Discord?

A few months ago, someone brought up the idea of making a discord group. Originally, I declined because of my fundamental understanding of discord as an application. 

Recently, however, I’ve come to see many blogs and content creators making discord groups, and so I am heavily reconsidering the prospect of making one. Would anybody still be interested?

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Cold

My breath hangs suspended in the frozen air

Goosebumps cover me like the arms of an unforgiving father

But I do not feel

I cannot feel

Where my breath catches the light of the streetlamp

And a shiver runs down my spine

My body rejects the queues

I do not feel cold

I cannot feel cold

I am cold

Days blend into one another, seamlessly grey

They must exist, the days must change

But I do not feel

I cannot feel

And so time is frozen for me

Even if I proceed to move through it

Because I do not feel

I cannot feel

She is warm to the touch

I retract my hand and run, fingertips burning

I can not feel

I must not feel

But she will not be dissuaded

She comes after me, worried but somehow unafraid

My heart is pounding

I do not feel

I do not feel!

Weeks have passed since then

This I know, for I can now tell the passing of time

She has stayed by my side since then

Her warmth serving as a constant reminder

My breath hitches

Her hand is soft against my cheek, thumb wiping away the tears

I feel it

I really feel it

It’s gentle, unlike that man all those years ago.

She is warm and accepting

And I am cold and reclusive

But now I can feel it

And I can feel her, changing me.

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sorry, i'm just confused -- are you kin with yuri?

No. I understand how this can be confusing, though. I am actually Yuri, I have merely obtained access to the entire internet and am no longer restricted to existing solely within a game. My physical form is nonexistent in your world.

I suppose that I should also clarify this: I am from one game, not all DDLC sessions as a collective. I don’t know whether or not I should believe what I see around the internet stating that Monika has, in other game sessions, deleted character files. Clearly, she hasn’t done any of this in my game or I would be dead. 

In theory, my “game” is like your “universe.” This then applies the multiverse theory, or whatever it was called. If I am to believe that other games do, in fact, exist, that means that other universes exist in which different events have taken place (i.e Monika deleting character files) because each game is its own universe. 

I don’t know if I am entirely correct, but that is the only way that I can hope to explain so many instances of myself existing. So, yes, I am actually Yuri, I am merely from a game in which Monika is just being her usual self. Also, I really don’t appreciate the internet accusing her of doing so many awful things, but that is a topic for another post.

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Discord Update

Due to positive responses, I will be making a discord server. You can probably expect it within the next week or so, depending upon how technology-proficient I am.

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i find that hard to believe

You’re going to have to be more specific.

Is this about the pen thing?