#addicelia

[oceansaurora]

I'm stuck here still, like a wildflower on the side of the highway.

Your fingers grip the wheel, as you're pulling out your parents driveway. You're staring down the road, burying your heart in the ash tray. You think it's gonna grow, like a wildflower on the side of the highway.

You got stopped by the cops putting lipstick on, for your junior prom You looked so pretty he let you off. You always said that it creeped you out, and it let you down And it made you think less of the law.

We can sleep on the floor cause you're scared of heights And you're scared you might turn into your mother. I'll sleep in the rain under your headlights,

I'll be outside your front door.

[oceansaurora]

Breathe deep, breathe out…

I'll be getting over you my whole life.

It only feels this raw right now, lost in the labyrinth of my mind.

You know how much I hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back, just like that.

[oceansaurora]

“she’s here today, you know. i feel her here.”

“i feel her everywhere.”

“me too. but here? it’s different. she’s… happy. i think she’s happy for you. proud, even.”

“hmm. seems like even in death you can keep healing.”

[oceansaurora]

know i wanna beat it, wanna beat it bad

everyone looks happy in a photograph

i’ve crossed the county line, i cannot go back

i’m always on my own

couldn't make it home cause of all that rain

run of bad luck in a nowhere state

i’m high above us now in a big jet plane

i’m always on my own

[oceansaurora]

the one person whose arms i want to fall apart in about what happened to me is the one person who can never know it even happened. how do i make this about addicelia.

[oceansaurora]

who are we to turn each others heads? who are we to find ourselves in other people's beds?

i don't like the way i never listen to myself, i feel like I'm on fire.

i’m too shy to cry for help.

who are we to tell ourselves that we're misunderstood? how am i to say I'm always yours?

who am i to choose the boy that everyone adores?

this love is not what you want, this heart will never be yours

This love is be and end all.

This love will be your downfall.

[oceansaurora]

when you left, you took my bestest friend away

and in this mess, i think i dug a thousand graves.

talia, i hope you're happy anyway…

but four drinks, i’m wasted.

i can see you dancing, i can lay down next to you, at the foot of my bed… if i drink enough.

i can taste your lipstick, i can lay down next to you…

but it's all in my head.

If i drink enough, i swear that i will wake up next to you.

[oceansaurora]

i’m doing 90 in a porsche, headed straight to you. been a long, long day and you know what to do.

there’s a violence in the way I long for you, and it's a war, the way you love me like you do…

i can't stop, and i can't run, and i can't choose.

i wake up with you a little less alive, when i go to leave, you pull mе back inside. you take me by thе hand and dance me 'round the room.

there’s a hitman shooting bullets at my mind… when you touch me, he stops trying for a while.

i can't stop, and i can't run, and i can't hide.

i can't seem to stay away.

i love you more than most these days.

like heroin, it broke my baby blues.

you look at me, i look at you.

you kill me slow, i get you through.

Like heroin, I'll always come back to you.