And like, the worst part of the ADHD stuff is definitely that I am always very aware that everyone around me is doing fine watching the documentary and is sitting still. I am very aware of my body, and I can't keep still, but I'm also so so so aware of the fact that none of the people around me are like this, because it's always made so clear, like, people tell you to sit still a lot when you're a kid, and I probably got it more than most (my parents said something a while ago about how they thought that I only had the attention part of ADHD not the hyperactivity part, and like, idk, all I know is that by the time I got put on meds I was hopping up in the middle of dinner because I couldn't sit still that long). And so I end up being so self conscious of the fact that I'm moving the way I'm sitting every few minutes at the very least.
I don't actually have a point. Yeah. So. Yeah. idk.