#adhdon't

[afterdarkafternight]

bored so i took some tests on idrlabs after completely forgetting what i was supposed to be doing (homework!)

i know these tests can't be substituted for a diagnosis at all but

am i cooked chat

[woodpengu]

You ever just... ADHDon't?

Like, the mechanism in the neurospicy brain that breaks a Necessary TaskTM into so many steps one day makes the steps too numerous that the hardware fries? So you just... don't?

[freudianity]

Meds blogging

I’m using my blog to record my interactions with methylphenidate under the tag #meds blogging - feel free to block this if you aren’t interested in my personal medical history.

So good news: I was consistent with my meds over the holiday! I was kind of worried about it, it’s where I’ve slipped up in the past. I’m already taking sertraline once daily, so the routine was pretty easy to continue.

Today was the first day of the new stage of my meds - upping them from 5mg at breakfast to 5mg at breakfast and lunch. And I kind of fucked that up, lol. I took them both at breakfast by mistake. At least I know not to do that again!!

The results were pretty familiar from the last time I tried methylphenidate, back last July/August. I unlocked two new emotions: anxiety/edginess when I’m alone and deep affection when I’m talking to someone. I was able to drain this away by throwing myself into something that required focus - I chose Heat Signature rather than anything useful, though.

I’ve always found it difficult to examine my emotions, and differences in them, so it’s interesting and hopeful that I identified this shift on the first day.

[freudianity]

Meds blogging

I guess I've been meaning to record stuff about my new medication somewhere, and here is as good as anywhere else. I'll be tagging all of this with #meds blogging so if you want to avoid it, use that.

(wish I could throw a read more in on mobile, oh well)

I started 5mg of methylphenidate, once at breakfast, on Thursday. At this dose it's not really meant to be noticeable in any way - just getting my body used to the idea. So me being unusually productive and motivated this afternoon was probably unrelated. I'm noting it anyway, just in case.

I'm going on holiday from Wednesday through to next Tuesday - Rome with my sister, my brother and his wife, and hopefully the disruption to my routine won't stop me remembering to take them. That's usually been the stumbling block when I've tried ADHD meds. I should ask them to help remind me.