Life of Admin: New Years Resolutions
Well guys. Four days into 2019 and I am pleased to say, its been going really well. I have had so much shit on my chest towrds the end of 2018 and I was feeling a little depressed. Alot of my active watchers may remember a kind of self-deprecating post I made about being in a manipulative relationship with a guy i really like.
That boys ass got left back in 2018.
I am a caring soul, and if someone comes to me with a problem, I am more than willing to help. But the way he was using his situation to take advantage of me just made me feel dirty and pathetic. For someone who was making all these claims about wanting to die, he sure did enjoy the power he had over me.
Now I am a girl who has faults, i am human. When I want to be in a relationship, I need someone who is stable, someone who is grounded. This guy was none of that. A whiney ass mother fucker who just wanted a shoulder to cry on with the occasional fuck.
Look, i get it. But im a girl with standards for her partners. I dont say that to try and sound bitchy or whatever. I say that as a person who is still questioning their sexuality, a person who has experienced abuse in past relationships, and a person who has their own mental conditions to deal with.
With that out of the way, lets talk about my resolutions.
I got a haircut appointment next week and my 22 inches of hair are gonna go.
I want to look at my mental conditions more positively and make a real effort to mature. I want to be a more pleasant person, and less of a hermit.
These past couple of days I have been really interactive with my family (who i usually avoid) and I think it is safe to stay that i actually missed having a relationship with them. Along with being around my family I have been helping out around the house more. Helping to clean up, doing chores, cleaning up the christmas decorations. Its on my schedule for this weekend to clean out my room and get things nice and tidy for the new year.
I was also gifted a fitbit for christmas! Im not super conciousness about my weight, nor am i over weight or anything. My doctor said that i am in a good position given my height and age. However I should become more mindful of my diet as get I get older. So it is on my resolutions list to loose around 15 pounds. I am in a weight category where I can loose that weight and still be at a healthy number. So everyday so far I have set aside at least an 30 minutes to do some strength training, and an hour to walk my dogs! They sure have been appreciative of it, so thats a nice bonus.
I want to have a stronger more self preservation additude (I am a slytherin afterall ) while being nicer. Like I said i need to have a stronger additude going inti the new year. I need to value myself more. The job I will be starting soon will force me to interact with people regularly, so it will be a good way to help me get over my anxiety.
So, all and all, ya girl is ready for the new year. The old sad little shell I was before, has been fully shed. From the ashes I rise to live up to my full potential. Look out 2019, cus here comes Vira!
