i just wanna say something real quick if thats okay!💕
at age 10, i was confused, we had watched the whole puberty video and such in school, it was gross. But my sister took my under her wing, and for that im greatful, she taught me about the LGBT+ comminuty, racism, sexism, homophobia, all of that, so i wouldnt be so confused.
At age 11, i thought i was a lesbian because i started liking girls, and noticed how pretty they are, and that i could totally see myself dating a girl, and so i told all my friends, but the problem was, i liked boys too, and had a crush on one. Then one day my sister was watching a Will&RJ video, and i found out that i was bisexual.
At age 12, i started questioning my gender, i felt more masculine and resented my feminine aspects, i cut my hair short, and even my sister at the time came out as nonbinary. I was so confused, so i identified as male, and came out to eveyone once again, that year i also identified as queer, and it was one of the toughest years in my entire life.
At age 13, i once again questioned my gender, was i a girl? boy? nonbinary? genderfluid? it was a mess. i finally decided that nonbinary was a good fit, since i still hated every part of me that was female, and i held my head up high, being proud of who i was, queer and all even despite what the kids in the halls told me.
At age 14, freshmen year, i decided, fuck it, im going to explore my feminine side, i was gonna put on skirts and dresses, buy cute outfits, wear some make up and just do some self exploring. and i loved it, it felt right, i still had a masculine side, but i got to indulge into the things i never let myself explore, and started using she/her pronouns again, and joined the school gsa, where i came out as bi.
At age 15, i can say that im really content with who i am now, and that even though i might have more exploring of myself to do, i proudly identify as Bisexual, and go by She/Them, something i probably wouldnt have been able to do in middle school.
Why did i spew all this about myself? because i know there are people out there like me, confused and exploring themselves, and im here to say that its okay, indulge in your masculine and feminine sides, be neither, explore who you are and dont be ashamed, because at the end of the day, you are you and thats amazing.
stay happy and ill support you forever lovelies!!
-admin spring❤❤
