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But I'm Sorry [ANGST]

Pairing: Bambam x Reader

Genre: Angst

Words: 1128

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I remember the day when he left me.

“(Y/N)?” He called out my name and I looked at him, only to meet his eyes that were drowning in sadness and regret. “Yes, Bamie?” I mumbled before I stood up, looking at him completely. “I’m sorry but…” he said, looking down at his feet. “I kinda want a break. I just really don’t feel like being with you or anyone that I know of.”

It struck me when he asked for a short break. I don’t want to stop him from doing so because I know he’ll look for himself but it deeply affects me. So, I told him that I love him and I’ll wait for him and that’s it. I looked to my side only to see an empty couch. I was about to fall asleep when the door opened. “Ms. (Y/N)?” A nurse asked by the door before I let her come in. “Ms. (Y/N), can I clean your wounds?” She asked before giving her my left arm and letting her sit down beside me. “I’m sorry if it happened, (Y/N).” She said, looking down with a sad face as she cleaned my wounds. “He needed it. I have to step down on every thing because I wanted him to be okay.” I replied, my voice cracking at the end as the scene became a cannon in my head. It was never ending of how he turned his back. “How long has it been, (Y/N)?” A small frown crept into my lips before I took a deep breath. “Three years.” I muttered before I felt her hold firmly gripping on my hand. “I’m so sorry.” “It’s not your fault.” I shook my head then smiled at her. She began to fix up her things before she helped me lie down and placed a light kiss on my forehead. “How’s your heart going?” I sighed and shook my head again. “It’s not going to go far. It’s at its limit. I’m just waiting for him to come home to me.” She held my hand then sighs softly. “What if he didn’t come back?” Tears formed at the brim of my eyes as I chuckled softly. “I hope he could’ve told me instead of just asking for a cool off. I would’ve understand him better.” A sob escaped my lips before I wiped my tears with my free hand. “Because I helped him, a lot. When he needed me, I’m there. I’d cheer him up and would never leave his side. This cool off is our downfall. Now, that I’m falling apart and I need him the most, I don’t know where he is now.” The nurse leaned down to give me a tight yet comfortable hug. “He’ll be back soon. I can feel it. Now go sleep, you need it.” She said before she went out with her things. As the lights turned dim, I looked at the window before tears started to roll down to my temple. I hold on to the paper that I wanted to give him for a long time now but  “Bamie, I love you.” I said before my eyes slowly closed.

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I ran to the hospital where she is in and I quickly ran to the information desk. I told her name and I quickly got access to her room. “Will you accept me still, (Y/N)?” I mumbled as I got in to the elevator and pressed the floor where her room is. The doctor told me to be careful because she’s already resting but good thing they allowed me to. Once the elevator dinged and I got out, I immediately went in front of her door and slowly opened it. My heart leaped with joy since I will be seeing her again but it shattered when I saw her looking at the window, with a sad face and a paper by her hand. A mark of her tears were evident and I’m sure she cried herself to sleep. I went to her side only to see her deeply cut wounds at her left hand. I was hesitating to touch her because she looks so fragile and pale but my body went numb when I felt her cold hand against mine. They were not moving and I sense no heat from her body. I immediately took the paper away and kept it inside my pocket before I hugged her head gently against my chest. “(Y/N), please don’t leave me. I love you, please.” I said, in attempt to wake her up. “I love you too, Bamie.” I heard her mutter before I looked down to see her smiling again. “Thank you for coming back but I’m sorry as well, yes?” I nodded at her as tears started to roll down my eyes. “I wish for you to be happy even without me.” she said before she closed her eyes and my world were tore apart. I called in the doctors, telling them to hurry up as I try to shake her gently. “(Y/N), please don’t!” I yelled, trying to keep her close before the doctor pulled me away and started to revive her. Right in front of me, I saw her being revived and every time that they would try, the smaller the hope is until they stopped and announced her dead. I sat down on the couch, where I should’ve been before. I took out the paper which she was holding a while ago and opened it to see a letter.

Dear Bamie, I terribly miss you and it has been years when I last saw you. How are you doing? I hope you’re okay and is doing well. I hope you’ll come back for me. I know you will but please come back soon. I’m afraid I won’t last any longer. I hope to see your face and hear the words ‘I love you’ from you before I go. I love you so much, Bamie. If ever you read this and I’m gone, sorry. I can’t hold it anymore and it feels like my body just gave up on me. I want you to be happy wherever you are, Bamie. I hope you are safe. I hope you’re eating well and you’re healthy. Don’t overwork and please take long rest. I’m right here to listen even if I’m gone. I love you, Bamie. I love you so much. I love you.

Love, (Y/N)

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And there goes the girl that I regret leaving. She could’ve been the reason why I can stand back on my feet. She helped me whenever she can. But… Where was I when she needed me the most? I was gone. I’m sorry, (Y/N). I’m sorry.

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A Year [ANGST]

Pairing: Park Jinyoung x Reader

Genre: Angst ANGST PURE ANGST

Summary: When you were alone inside the house and you thought someone broke in

Words: 880

Masterlist

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It has been a year. A year when he left me. I never heard of him after he said, "I am dangerous and I don't deserve you." His footsteps barely audible when he started to walk away. My beating yet shattering heart was too loud and its attempt to get out of my rib cage is gradually nearing. "Jinyoung..." I muttered. Maybe he'll hear it but once he took a turn at his right, I know he didn't. My knees started to wobble as I sob. Goosebumps were also creeping in me and I just had to shift to get the scenario off of my head. I looked at my now pale hands and tried to slowly to turn them to fists but they felt weak and delicate. I looked to my side and a soft sigh went past my lips. I stood up, in attempt to go down and get a glass of water . My mind twisted, my body shattering. I felt that I was breaking apart. It has been a year and I still haven't accepted the fact that he's gone. A wind blew just right at my shoulders, where he would place his hands on and squeeze it gently. Must've been just an open window. I slowly nodded to look around the area, whether there's an open window or no. But to my surprise, there was none. "Jinyoung?" I called out before I saw the luminous figure of his. Seeing the soul of dead may be a blessing but for me, it gives me the ache that I try to avoid. Every flashbacks took turns as both of us took steps until our palms are gently placed against each other.

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I start to walk away from her as tears ran down my cheeks. My heart racing before I clutched tightly on it then rests my side against a firm wall. It was wrong of me to do that but I have no choice. She doesn't have a clue that I was sick and as much as I want her to stay with me through this. I know I will not survive. It's some kind of virus and there is no cure. This virus slowly eats my life and I can't drag (Y/N) to this. I slowly walk back to the hospital, the familiar scent of medicine and alcohol went around my system before I fell to my knees as my eyes were blurred until it turned black. I can't see but I can hear doctors' voice. I felt their hands tugging on to my clothes, performing whatever they need just to let me survive. But there's no way to go around this anymore. Gradually, the doctors calmed down and sent me back to my hospital room. I felt my friends around the room before I heard the doctor sighed. "We lost his eyesight. He will not last long." That was the only thing I need to hear to assure me that I somehow helped (Y/N). The door clicked and I heard the voice that I miss. The one that I broke a while ago. "Jinyoung?" (Y/N) called out. I can hear that she's sobbing. "Hey, (Y/N)." "I knew you were feeling something wrong you piece of-" "I'm shitty, aren't I?" I said before I felt her warm hands against my cold ones. Droplets of tears hit the back of my hands before she gently pressed her lips against it. "Jinyoung, why didn't you tell me?" "I don't want you to go through this hell. You deserve a better life and I'm sorry I can't give you that." She shushed me gently and I felt her palm against my cheek, making me lean in to her touch. I miss her already. I miss her for so much. "You've given me a better life and Jinyoung, I'd rather go through hell with you than be in heaven without you. I know that it's too late, Jinyoung." she said as she caressed my cheek. "Go sleep, Jinyoung. I'll be just right here for you. I love you so much, baby." I smiled at her words before I squeezed her hand gently. "I love you too and I'll wake up tomorrow. ……

Jinyoung never woke up the next day. His hands were pale and so is his face. His lips that I adore were cold and his eyelids never opened. But a small smile is at his face. Tears forms at the brim of my eyes as I try to smile for him. I climbed at his bed then hug his head close to my chest where my heart would be before I curled up as I sung a soft song, our song, as a good bye for him and let him sleep for a really long time.

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I opened my eyes again to see Jinyoung's glowing body before his smile on his lips. "It's time for you to move on, (Y/N). You deserve to have someone who'll love you way more than I did." Tears starts to form at the brim of my eyes and I nod. "I love you, (Y/N). I do and always will. Good bye, (Y/N)." He said before he turned his back before leaving me inside the now big, dark, and cold house. It has been a year since you left us, Jinyoung. A year.

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It's Time [ANGST] Pt. 1

Pairing: Mark Tuan x Reader

Genre: Angst ;;

Summary: When Mark realizes it's time....

Word count: 961

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"I'd rather see you smile than see you hurting. Even if it pains me." He hummed, cupping your cheek as his thumb gently caresses it. "I don't know, Mark. I like you. I really do but I don't know the reason why I can't accept you." You replied, looking away to avoid his gaze. Mark has been courting you for years now but you believed that it was just wrong to accept him. It has been two years from now since your last break up and it really did tore you apart. It was not your fault but the guy made you believe that you were the reason why he broke up with you. You swore that you will just enjoy your life. No love... No more... During your recovery, Mark was there at your side. He would always run to your house if ever you were having anxieties. He would stay there until you're sleeping. He would go to you if you were hurting. Mark is pained, seeing you like this but he would pull you out of your misery. He tried to court you, asking for multiple times if you'd give him a chance but he always get the same answer, 'no'. You tried to push him away but he would be there and stay for you. It went to a point that you were ignoring him for days but he would just follow you around. Sneaking to help you even if you're trying to push him away.

Your heart would contract and your body would be weak if you see him around but it was your desire to go away as well. You were confused, you don't know what to do. On the other hand, Mark was hurting. Seeing you walking away from his hold. It was as if his life depends on you. He also knew why you became like this. He's well aware that it's his fault.

Mark had a girl before you started to become an unstable wreck. You guessed that everyone would want to have the relationship he had. But you know that their relationship wasn't healthy at all. The girl cheated numerous times and played with Mark's feelings, whilst he loved her for too much and grew attached to her. Mark was more afraid of being left behind by the girl, rather than being cheated. This was his downfall. Mark would keep quiet to all of his friends about what really is behind their relationship except for you. He has been with you since childhood and he would always go to you if he was in trouble. Little did he know, he was slowly falling for you.

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I was staring outside the window when I felt a light tap on my shoulder. I tried to smile when I looked up to see Jackson. "Hey man. Are you okay?" He asked while we do our usual handshake. Aside from (Y/N), Jackson is also my closest friend here in the university. I guess he's really good at reading my mind that he clicked his tongue then looks at where I was looking. "Is it (Y/N)?" "Guessed right." He hums then covers the window with a paper, turning my gaze to him with a slightly furrowed brows. "How do you feel when you don't see her?" I looked down then pursed my lips while I fiddle with my fingers. "Hurt..." "Then what about now?" He asked, removing the paper from the window. A small smile went to my lips, seeing (Y/N)'s small figure at the field. I thought my smile would hold on for a really long time but then it slowly faded away. It turned into the opposite and everything felt heavier. I remembered every word she said to me. All those bittersweet memory, it came back but I felt deeply hurt. So I looked at Jackson before looking down as I felt tears forming at the brim of my eyes. "More hurt than before..." Jackson sighed deeply before smiling. "It's time to think before it's too late. Is it still love or is it just attachment now?" He chuckled softly then ruffled my hair before fixing it. "You are handsome and you have a good heart. It's time for you to let her go and realize things on her own." He said before standing up then went back to his chair. It got me into thinking if I am ready to let her go or no. Should I or should I not? A soft sigh went past my lips before I messed with my hair then rested my head against my arms.

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It was dismissal and I immediately took my phone out to send a message to (Y/N). My hands were trembling and I kept on biting my lower lip. I held on to the fabric of the pocket of my pants as I waited at the park in front of our university. I looked up at the sky before a soft voice called my name. "Mark?" "Hey there, (Y/N)." I said, testing out her name one last time with my lips. "You said we'll talk? What's up?" She asked. Her tone sounds different. It's really cold, sad, and  one thing is for sure. She knows something is up. "I'm here to say goodbye." I muttered, just enough for her to hear. "What? Is this like a drama for you? The line 'it's not you, it's me' is already overused. Where's your originality?" I took a deep breath and released a soft sigh. "Say whatever you want..." She's crying. Small sobs went past her lips and tears were streaming down her cheeks. Oh how much I wanted to pull her into my arms and hug her tightly but no. It's time to say goodbye...

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Blind Date [FLUFF]

Pairing: Choi Youngjae x Reader

Genre: Fluffy (Prepare your pillows for a fluffy Youngjae)

Summary: When you were supposed to meet up with your friend but you were secretly set up to a blind date.

Word count:1566

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It was around 2 in the afternoon and you were at the mall for already a few hours. Your friend told you to meet up with her at the mall by 2, but now, it's making you irritated because she was nowhere to be found. Your friend was always an early bird and knowing that she's not around makes you think that something is up. You tried contacting her but it's no use.

"H-Hey there. Excuse me. I would like to ask if you know someone named (Y/N) that is currently here?" He asked. A small sigh went past your lips now that you have realized what your friend did. A blind date. It was never common thing in your place but it happens. "Wait, did (Y/F/N) set you up?" His eyes widen slightly and nodded before mumbling softly. "You see, I'm (Y/N) and I think she set the both of us up." You bit your lower lip as you looked down and swayed a bit. He raised his hand for a hand shake and smiled at you before he laughed softly. "My name is Youngjae. Nice to meet you." You reached out your hand and held his for a hand shake before nodding a bit. "Youngjae, it's nice to meet you. My name is (Y/N)." You replied as you retreated your hand. "So, (Y/N). Are you up for a little chat then maybe we could walk and have fun for a while?" You nodded as a reply then flashed a small grin.

Both you and Youngjae went from each store, left and right, and would somehow point things and remember them so you can comeback for it. Meanwhile, Youngjae would sneak glances at you. He looks at you as you raise different items and look at the price and would somehow pout because you can't buy it for now. He would also secretly talk to a sales lady to kindly place it under his name so he can give the item to you afterwards or maybe give them to you as presents. He would stifle a laugh as you rant about things that are funny for him and would find your expressions hilarious. He listened to you and that caught your attention. Why was he not speaking or at least say a few words? "Youngjae, are you okay?" He emitted a small hum and a flashed a bright smile. "Then how come that you don't talk that much?" "Well, I usually listen to someone first before I speak. I'd rather let them talk out things before I do but don't worry. If I am already comfortable, I will definitely start the conversation and I'd be more open. I just don't want to scare you because I can be pretty loud sometimes." He said and you chuckled at him before giving a slight pat on his shoulder. "Okay then Youngjae. I'll wait for you to roam around with the topics so you will be able to talk to me. I'm not forcing you and thank you. That's so nice of you." He looked around and pointed at a restaurant. "Want to grab something to eat?" "Eung!" You nodded and immediately held his arm and dragged him towards the restaurant.

'If only you know who I am.'   Youngjae whispered softly while he gazes at your hair being swept by the wind.

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"Ay look! It's the creep!" One of the seniors said while pointing at Youngjae. It was lunch break and the usual boys have decided to pick on to a lone student. Youngjae was known for being mostly alone of the time and he was always picked on by bullies. You weren't in favor of what the seniors were doing to him but you don't know why you can't stand up and speak up for Youngjae. "You're such a loser!" "Get out of here!" All those words kept on replaying on your head and that's when you banged the table and yelled at the seniors. You walked immediately in between Youngjae and the seniors and glared at the obviously tall boys in front of you. "You better stop or this gets to the principal." One of them snickered and bent down to meet your height. "Well aren't we a tough girly-girl? You see, the principal is my uncle and there's no way this is going to reach him." He said and paused for a while. "Unless, you want something bad to happen." You scoffed and reached out your phone from your pocket and stopped the recording. "Not unless I have it recorded." You smirked then approached Youngjae to hold him by the wrist firmly before leading him outside the cafeteria. "Sorry about my cousin. He always like to pick on someone not their own size." You shrugged the loosen your grip from Youngjae a bit. "Thank you." he muttered and you grinned at him.

You and Youngjae went to the principals office and reported your cousin along with his gang about what he was doing to most of the students. Youngjae received an apology from the principal and ended the conversation with 'a sanction' for the students. The both of you went out of the room with a smile on your faces before you stopped and faced him. "The next time they bully you, tell me. We'll get through it together." You said before running away. "I'll catch up with my class! I'm late!" "Good bye!" he greeted and waved his hand.

Youngjae never had a chance to know your name on that day and before he could even ask you, you went missing because of a sudden event in your family. Your mother got sick and was hospitalized. You never get a chance to say good bye to Youngjae so you left a message on his locker instead. That you'll come back soon and the letter ends with your name. He only knew your first name. He wasn't contented so he approached your best friend and knew more things about you. After a few months, he heard that you came back to the country and will continue your studies on a different school. Since he knows that you still have a connection with (Y/F/N), he asked your friend to set up a blind date so the both of you could meet again. Youngjae's features have grown mature than the last time you met him so you didn't recognize that the boy you helped a few months back is now right before you.

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"Know what Youngjae, you remind me of someone a few months back. The both of you got the same name that's why I suddenly thought of him. I don't know how is he know but I hope he's okay." You muttered before taking a bite from your food. "Oh, does he get bullied a lot when you met him?" You hummed and your eyes squinted before nodding. "Yeah. How do you know about that?" "Well, he was popular for being a loner but I'm pretty sure that he's in good shape now." He said as he finished his meal. "Wait! Are you Youngjae? The Youngjae that I know?" You hissed then leaned a bit low to make sure not to disturb the other costumers. "Yes, I am that Youngjae." He grinned then you involuntarily smacked his arm. "Ow!" "BRO!" You exclaimed, earning glares and inaudible words from the others. Youngjae rubbed his arm as you finish your food then got pulled by the wrist as you led the way outside. You stopped walking after a while then glomped him before ruffling his hair. "YAH! How are you?" "I am definitely feeling good today. "That's actually good to know. You changed a lot and you've been very good looking! I didn't expect this." You grinned then poked his side, causing him to flinch and laugh lightly. "I guess my friend wants us to be together, huh? I actually wanted this to happen." You confessed, starting to walk slowly along with Youngjae. "Actually, I asked her to do this. After knowing that you're here, I asked her if she could do something for us to meet. I never expected that she'll make it look like a blind date." He chuckled as he covered his mouth slightly with the back of his hand. "Oh really? Do you like me, mister?" He stifled a chuckle then nodded. "I see. So this was your move." He nodded then glanced at you to smile. "Let's give it a shot then, Youngjae." You said, wiggling your eyebrows. "Do I have to undergo a lot of things?" He whined a bit before a small pout was formed on his lips. "Nah, you just have to buy me food and... You have to tell me everything about what happened to you." "Challenge accepted, (Y/N). Let's send you home." "Nah, it's here." You said, pointing at the house behind you. "Oh wow. We walked that far?" He asked. " Yeah, you better get going now. It's late. I'll see you tomorrow at school." He smiled softly then bowed down. "It's nice to accompany the princess, I'll be here tomorrow morning so we could go to school together." He said before standing up straight. You smiled softly and waved a hand before going inside the house.

"I'll be protecting you like how you protected me, (Y/N)" he thought before walking back to his house.

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Master List

Here’s the master list for all the members!

Jaebum

Save Me [ACTION]

Mark

Pen Pals [FLUFF] It’s Time [ANGST] PT.1 It’s Time : For You [ANGST] PT.2

Jackson

Good bye, Jackson [ANGST]

Jinyoung

Splinter [FLUFF] A Year [ANGST]

Youngjae

Blind Date [FLUFF]

Bambam

Let Me [FLUFF]

But I'm Sorry [ANGST]

Yugyeom

Dance Buddy [FLUFF] Angst Stories [ANGST]

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Dance Buddy [FLUFF]

Pairing: Kim Yugyeom x Reader

Genre: Fluff

Summary: You weren’t able to get a certain step and Yugyeom comes in to the rescue and helped you with it

Words: 828

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It already felt like eternity when you can't get a specific dance step right. It has been 8 pm and your body started to feel like it's breaking apart. You have been dancing for more than 4 straight hours and you still can't get a set of moves that the choreographer have taught you.  It was frustrating you and a couple of deep sigh already went past your lips. This day was also rough for you since you have been scolded for the steps you can't get, the staff didn't get your coffee right, and you haven't took your heavy meal yet. You went to your bag to get your towel while pouring water all over your dry mouth because of practicing. You ignored your vibrating phone for a while, seeing your boyfriend's name on its screen before you gave in and answered his call.

"Hello?" You started, trying to fake a cheery side of you just so you can hide the fact that you've been overworking to get the steps right. "Hey there, (Y/N). Where are you?" He asked. He was worried and you know it by the way his voice trembled slightly. Yugyeom has been very protective of you eversince the both of you got together. Aside from pursuing your dream of being an idol, Yugyeom was a part of your dream. The both of you know that it'll be busy but the both of you didn't mind. One way or another, you'll find a way to be with him as much as possible and so does he. But it is clear and obvious that any company right now won't do anything good to you. Well, that was running through your mind. You need to practice and get this steps or it'll haunt you for the rest of your career. "(Y/N)?" Yugyeom called out from the other line, waking you up from your trance. "I know you're over working again. Please don't." A soft sigh went past your lips and you run your fingers through your hair as you curled up on the floor. You can't help but let a small sob escape. Tears flows out from your eyes as your frustration steamed out from your body. But before you could end the call, the door to the practice room opened. Revealing the tall yet a bit slim figure of your boyfriend. His facial feature changed into a sad one as he saw you on the floor. He immediately scooped half of your body as soon as he sat down beside you and hugged you as tight as it could. You wrapped your armd around his waist, almost instantly, as you cried out your frustrations. He rubbed your back, calming you down as he placed butterfly kisses against the top of your head. "You'll be fine, (Y/N). I know you can do this." He muttered, gently running his fingers through your hair. You kept quiet for a minute or two before he spoke up. "(Y/N), want to have a run through?" You nodded and stood up immediately, holding out your hand for him. "Please, Yugyeom?"

Yugyeom took no time to waste and immediately stood up then walks to the computer. " Was it this song?" He asked, holding on to the mouse and clicked the play button as soon as you nod. You took a deep breath before starting to move your body. It gracefully went according to the beat of the music. Yugyeom observed your movements and a smile went to his lips. You were well aware that he loves to dance and so you did your best in showing what you have learned all through out your practices. Yugyeom was about to cheer and clap his hands when you stumbled and got the step wrong. It was the step that you kept on messing up and a frustrated groan went past your lips. He stopped the music and approached you and held your hands firmly. You looked up at him and he flashed a soft, comforting smile. "I'll teach you, okay?" He said before leaving a light kiss on your forehead. The both of you faced the mirror and started to dance. It took the both of you a couple more tries before you finally got a hang of it. You gave it another chance and finally, after unsuccessful attempts, you were able to do the dance moves. You felt a wave of joy hitting your body and went straight to Yugyeom and glomped him. " Thank you, Yugyeom." You muttered, snuggling close to his chest as he rubbed your back, tilting his head a bit to take a look at you with a soft smile on his lips. " You're welcome. Now how about some ice cream and I'll take you back to your dorms?" "Sounds really nice." You nodded before he cupped your cheek to make you look at him and leans in to press a lasting kiss against your lips.

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Save Me [Action]

Pairing: Im Jaebum x Reader

Genre: Action

Summary: You open your eyes and realized that you were in a hospital. One question lingers in your mind, 'Where is Im Jaebum?'

Words:1322

Imagine Im Jaebum with his January 2017 hair color in a formal attire and has guns... /dies immediately/ This is also my first time doing an action themed plot so--- 

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You woke up with a painful headache and when you reached out to massage your temple, you noticed that a cloth was wrapped around your wounded head. It was then, memories of your encounter last two days ago, that it seems like it's only yesterday, blinded the reality and you tried to re-assess what had happened.

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It was around 10 in the morning when you, a giddy teenager strolled around a park. It was unusual for you to see that the park was almost empty. Well, except for a guy that is in a corporate attire. You were about to turn your heels and walk away but you only need to hear one thing to stop you from your tracks: a gun shot. You were trembling and a lot of thoughts ran through your head. Should I stop? Should I run? Should I let myself be killed? Be caught?  You stood there, frozen, not knowing what you should do. All you could ever do was close your eyes and hope for the best, speaking to your mind and mutters his name softly. "Jaebum, save me."

In one swift move, you heard a silenced gun near your ear. Your body calmed down as soon as an arm was wrapped around your waist. "Don't worry, princess. I'm just right here." He mumbled, loud enough for only you and him to hear. A small hum went past your lips as you nod, basking yourself with the warm and feeling of security around his hug. "Don't ever go out again without telling me, okay? You do know that--" "Yes, I know, Jaebum." You cut him of then looked up at him with a soft smile on your lips. Jaebum sighed then cupped your cheek. "I know, I know. Let's go home, okay? I'll make sure to treat you outside soon." He assured before holding your hand and led you back to his car. Jaebum has been your boyfriend for five months and he has been your family's butler ever since he was 18. Your parents never stood in between the both of you because Jaebum earned their trust a long time ago and they were in favor of him as well. You were pulled out from your trance when Jaebum snapped his fingers. "Hey, (Y/N), are you okay?" He asked, a frown forming on his lips. "A-Ah yes, I just doze off a bit." You sat down and he helped you wear his seat belt before placing a light kiss on your cheek. After a while, he started to drive and held your hand lightly. "I'm just right here, baby. I will do everything that I can to protect you." You chuckled and nodded. "I know, Jaebum, and you never fail to tell me and remind me of that."

The ride was comfortably quiet but was cut off when you felt the car sped up. "Im Jaebum?" you called out loudly before unintentionally holding on to his arm. "Someone's following us and they're up to no good." Jaebum said, cursing under his breath as he swerved, speed gradually increasing and avoiding every car just so the both of you will be way ahead of them. He focused looking at the road while your sight locks at the driver's mirror, watching another car that seems to be following your tracks. Suddenly, Jaebum turned to the right, leading them to the forest. You were confident with yourself that you know where to go since you and Jaebum have been exploring this forest for years. "(Y/N), you know where to go, right?" You were only able to nod as you felt speechless for what is happening now. As soon as the car stopped, you took off the seat belt but before you could get out, Jaebum held your wrist, gripping on it firmly. You know what he meant by this. 'Take care. Please be safe. I'll go get you afterwards. I love you.' He leaned in for a quick kiss then gave you an extra gun that he keeps inside the car. Swiftly, you ran towards the depth of the forest, specifically to that meadow where you and him would usually lie down and just spend the rest of the day. You were getting really close to the meadow but you were also not aware that you're getting close to danger. Jaebum were able to injure the others, refraining them from walking just so he can freely run to you. His pants were heavy and sweat beads trickled down his forehead. 'Please be safe. Please pull the trigger if you need to.' He mumbled repeatedly before stopping in his tracks as soon as he saw you trapped by the man's arm around your neck. Soft whimpers left your lips as you struggled to free yourself from the man's hold. "Oh! Wittle butler is here to save his princess, boohooo. Too bad, this girl's parents did enough just for me to go nuts." "What did she ever do to you?" Jaebum muttered, locking his intense gaze on the man. "Oh she did nothing, but her parents' stealing stocks from me behind my back when I trusted them?! That's unforgivable." The man smirked before he pulled you down by the hair and let his knee hit your stomach. You yelped at the sudden pain before your hair got pulled as he threw you to the ground. Your back hit a hidden wood, causing you to groan in pain. The click of the safety lock caused Jaebum to growl at the opponent while a gun was pointed towards you. You tried to sit up, not aware of what was happening for you were starting to get dazed. "Why don't you say goodbye to your little girl here?" He grinned before hitting your cheek harshly with the gun's back strap. Your head bumped against the ground before the man stood up and shot you by the side. You rolled slightly to cover your side but the turn was enought to let Jaebum see you in deep pain. "Jaebum, save me." You whispered and Jaebum took no time to wait anymore as he unlocked his gun and shooted the man by the leg and shoulder.  Your sight became blurry and turned to black but you heard another shot being fired before you completely passed out.

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You got out from your trance before swiftly sitting up, causing you to wince in pain. You held the side where you were shot.

"Jaebum..." you muttered, eyes looking every where to look for signs of your alive boyfriend. Tears started to form at the brim of your eyes as you tried your best to comprehend that you are alone in the room. You looked down at your hands. 'If only  these were built to hold a gun and kill someone...'  You were trying to hold your sobs and wiped your tears. "(Y/N)..." You heard someone called your name but definitely, it wasn't the voice that you wanted to hear. "Hey Jinyoung..." You answered weakly. "I hate to break it but... It's Jaebum. He's--" "Dead." You cut him off before looking at him only to see his familiar sly smirk. "What?" You muttered before wiping off your tears again. "Yah, Park Jinyoung! Why did you make my girl cry? Did you actually told her that I was dead?!" Jaebum yelled as soon as he came in to the room and sees you crying. Jinyoung laughed loudly, making him fall against the couch. "You should've seen her face when she said that you're dead!" He said, clutching his stomach. Jaebum shaked his head while chuckling before making his way towards you. He sat down at the edge of the bed and cupped your cheek. "Hey, stop crying now. I'm here and I won't leave you, okay? I'll save you until your last breath." He mumbled before placing a lingering kiss on your forehead before encasing you in a warm, firm hug.

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Good bye, Jackson [ANGST]

Pairing: Jackson Wang x Reader

Genre: Angsty angst

Summary: When you caught him making out with someone but waited for him to come home to finally end things.

Words:1027

It's really hard to make this as Jackson's character but it's worth the shot. I hope you'll like it!

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It was the same. Jackson has been missing a lot of times and he felt detached to you. You thought it was just normal during the first few days but as days turned to weeks and months, you've been suspicious. You don't like to think further than the usual idol work or he's just busy with his promotions but there were times that you were doubting your thoughts. You've tried calling the other members as well to ask where he is but they would always answer the usual 'He left a while ago' or 'He's  not around practice' . It was unusual for Jackson to be like that and now you've grown suspicious if ever he's been doing illegal things or he has been up to something good but your thoughts would never end with the latter. You tried to search for hints if ever he's cheating and there were a few things like red stains on his shirt, female perfume, change of attitude, but it would never bother you just because you've thought of him that he would never do that. Within those weeks, your suspicions have been fed by facts that you finally decided to follow him to the practice room after all those weeks of drowning in your thoughts. It was time to face the reality that he may be doing the worst thing that crossed your mind, cheating.

It was four in the afternoon when you decided to go to the building and visit the boys but your main reason was only to see Jackson. You have no intention of coming across the other members as much as possible. Nervousness crept inside your body as you start to tremble lightly. The cold temperature of the building doesn't help either and it caused you cold sweats. Standing at the door of their dance practice room, your stomach churned and you felt sick when you hear incoherent yet audible soft moans. You peeked through the slight opening of the door to see Jackson making out with someone unfamiliar to you. You took a step back then sighed as you looked down at your feet. Thoughts and questions rushed around your mind before you heard shuffling of feet from a lot of people. "Noona?" A familiar voice echoed through the hallway  and you looked at the source of the voice. "Oh hey Yugyeom." You faked a smile before rushing to the younger boy to swiftly encase him in a warm hug. Yugyeom hugged you back just as tight before you pulled away after a while. "I need to go now, Yugi. I'll see you around, okay?" The latter nodded at her before the both of them waved goodbye. She ran towards the exit of the building, trusting her feet to wherever it will take her so as to stop her tears from falling. This was it. The one that you feared the most happened. You don't know why he had done this to you and you don't even have a single hint to why did he do this now. A pang of pain hit your chest as soon as you stopped from your tracks, breathing heavily as you tried to catch it back in attempt to recover easily. Tears continued to stream down to your cheeks as the image of what you saw a while ago drowned your thinking. It seems like with that image, all your sanity will be drained and you felt your body get numb. But no... You shouldn't when you're still outside. Because of your pride, you wouldn't dare breaking down in front of so many people. So you forced yourself to run back to your home.

On the other hand, Yugyeom got confused when you started to run. He barely saw you do it and if you do, he knows that something is wrong. He was about to open the door when a girl went out. His eyes widen and so does the other before he rushed inside to see the only person left inside the room, his Jackson hyung. "Hyung, I saw (Y/N) noona just a while ago. Did she came here to see you." Jackson took no time to waste and started to fix himself up. He knows that he screwed up and he had been cheating but for you to see him do these things, his mind went blank as he rushed outside the building in attempt to look for you. His phone vibrated and he swiftly took it from his pocket to see your message. 'Come home as soon as possible... We need to talk.' Those four words struck him the most. Knowing how this will end, he still needs to go to your shared home.

You heard the door being opened before you took a glance to who was the culprit of the slight noise. A soft deep sigh went past your lips before you opened your lips to speak up. "I don't know why but I think there's no need to explain what happened. It has been clear to me that you want me no more. I'll be leaving now. I'll go back to get the rest of my things but for now, I'll be at my friends. Good luck with everything, Jackson." You gathered all the courage you could muster to stand up then take your bags but then he swiftly caught your waist in a tight hug from the back. "I'm sorry (Y/N) please forgive me." "After a few months, you finally said sorry to me. I'm happy that you did." You muttered, holding tightly on to your bag as a few tears rolled down to your cheeks, leaving droplets of it on the floor. "Please don't leave me (Y/N). I swear I'll change." He begged, staining your shirt with his tears as he bury his face against your back.

"I gave you months to do so. I'm not letting myself be fooled, twice. Goodbye, Jackson." With that, you pried his arms away before you took a last breath inside the home you both shared that will now be half empty as you decided to leave and took a step outside of the door.