#admitting my wrongdoings

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Admitting my wrongdoings regarding the hhgregg community. (CW: harassment, SH mentions, depression mentions, and suicide baiting)

DO NOT HARASS ANYONE MENTIONED IN THIS. I DO NOT WISH TO CAUSE ANY MORE HARM.

I'm sure you all know that at some point, I was part of the hhgregg community. But I stopped posting about it after some time.

So what exactly happened?

[Forgot what pronouns that Luna uses and I currently don't know, so I'll be using they/them to refer to them throughout the post.]

[Some stuff may not be described correctly, as many of Luna's posts about the situation were deleted and my memory of it is quite fuzzy.]

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So a while back, Luna (known as hhgreggtism at the time) found a lead to the 2010 President's Day Sale ad. They were allegedly gatekeeping it.

I wanted in on the secret, so I did something very selfish— I silently broke my friendship with Yurii and only told Luna that.

This, of course, caused an uproar (part of it being Yurii sending uncensored cuts to Luna), to which I sided with Luna. Yurii and NegaPosi (known by different names across various other platforms) were rightfully mad at me, and I impulsively lashed out at them, further damaging my relationship with them.

Some rumors about Luna were apparently going around. Yurii also had some rumors about her.

To this day, I don't even know if they were true. Hell, I can't really remember what exactly they WERE.

Anyways...

Even after the situation had settled down, I continued to harass Yurii and NegaPosi.

When the latter made a vent post depicting one of her sonas cutting herself, I did something stupid— I said some really nasty shit to her in this exact wording...

"...oh boy.

I'm surprised someone older than me hasn't grown up."

(Keep in mind: she may have been [and still is] in her 20s while I was under 18 at the time of saying that [and I still am as of making this post explaining the whole thing], but I had absolutely no right to say that to her— that was fucking vile.)

Later on, I tried to apologize to Yurii. At the time, she accepted it, but I don't actually know if we're on good terms. (And if not, I don't blame her.)

Then, I forwarded the post and responses to NegaPosi. She declined the apology, and honestly, I don't blame her for that.

(Dishonorable mention: the reply from June 11th on the DeviantArt screenshot that was written and sent at a point where I was dealing with severe depression with the situation being the biggest factor of it. I had no right to pull that either.)

And the stuff pictured in my DeviantArt comment (Caroline refers to amnesiastudi0s, a pedophile who groomed Yurii + stalked Yurii and I):

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At least after that point, I stopped posting about hhgregg.

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Gathering all this and reflecting on it again, I regret starting this whole mess. I know that no amount of saying "I'm sorry" can fix what I did. I've shifted the blame too many times, and for that, I feel beyond disgusted. For a while, I've wanted to say that all of us that were involved were at fault, but I know that's FAR from the truth. I'll do anything that I can to own up to this if need be, but right now, this is all I can do.

This might be weak, but I just thought I'd finally post about this in a bit more detail and get this off my chest. Peace.

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Admitting My Wrongdoings Masterpost

DISTURBING CONTENT AHEAD (stalking and other rash behavior)

First offense.

Second offenses (suicidal ideation warning).

Offense towards another person.

Apology/acknowledgement 1.

Acknowledgement 2 (pedophilic joke, ban evading).

Acknowledgement 3 (ban evading).

Last note/Boundaries.

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Regarding the hhgregg community.

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I'm fucking done with Shrunken School Obby.

What I did was too much to bear.

Too many consequences.

Greater negative impact than positive (on the community AND me).

I might take a look at Big Race and shit when it comes out. But I don't give a shit about that game or the characters anymore.

(Note: I'm only leaving the Shrunken School Obby community, NOT the full Shovelware Studios community.)

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Vent (CW: vague mention of online harassment - to which I am the perpetrator).

I feel like I can't enjoy Shrunken School Obby anymore (at least not as much as I used to)...

but maybe it's for the better.

I scarred people online - possibly for life - and I can't undo that.

I lost online friends and got banned from two Discord servers because of it.

That was gross behavior and I can't use being a dumb teenager as an excuse to get away with it.

If any one of my ex-friends or friends of the people I harassed see this (most likely not)...

I am genuinely sorry, but you are not obligated to forgive me.

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A little something I've been unwilling to admit... (CW)

I have actually ban evaded on Discord before. I won't reveal the account that I use for that, but I have.

Should've put that with the rest, but again, almost no one admits to that.

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Today, I fucked up. (Vent)

CW for (possible) mentions of breaking boundaries

Today, I sent an anonymous ask to someone if I could use their OC for an AU where they are shipped with one of my characters and the two characters have a child. (I won't say who I sent it to for personal reasons.)

That is gross behavior. I knew that it could've violated their boundaries, but I sent it anyway.

After that, I regretted it. A lot. They haven't responded as of now, but if they do, I am sorry for making them uncomfortable.

I am extremely sorry.

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An important thing that I forgot to mention in my apology...

CW: bigotry, pedophilia joke (I don't support either of those), ban evading

I also made weird comments on the Shovelware Studios Discord, like a concept for a bigoted character (against the rules), as well as making a comment under a screenshot of Peel dancing with his hand clipping through YFH (the comment was in a suggestive tone, Peel is a child and YFH is an adult).

I have photo evidence, and I can confirm that it's true because I got banned from the SWS Discord and even tried ban evading. I also got banned from the Care Bears discord from the same actions.

Again, I am sorry for what I did and how I've behaved.

The pedophilia joke in question:

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I have also privated Chai AI bots featuring Director Warrant. These were also made without the consent of her creator. I should've probably deleted them as well, but I wasn't fully sure.

Edit: The bots have been deleted.