CHAPTER 12: AM Thoughts
People come by and go like everyone’s got an expiration date whether its existence or companionship. Sometimes its a stranger that comes by and leaves but then returns and leaves again. Sometimes its mixed signal that no one really understands if it’s a coincidence that happened or meant to be. Maybe we were meant to be that way, maybe it is a sign we’ll see each other again and meant to be or not. I sacrificed a lot of things and try to strive deeply throughout the means. I still try to remove the thoughts of negativity in my head, a video clip of madness and death of different things and everyday things I encounter. The only thing I wanted to do is to confront, say it out loud on the airplain take-offs that sorry, i loved you, and I dislike you at the same time. Sorry I wasnt plain, sorry I couldnt get hints, sorry I messed up. Im doing this for my own good and for you, its not yet the right time I believe, life is long yet short like when walking going to a certain place would take a while compared to when by a vehicle you would just take a few minutes. Like life, like the songs, just take it slow and enjoy while deadline is still unknown. Live a healthy life and YOLO. I did regret not saying some certain things because maybe just maybe when I’ll get over you, maybe that’s the time Im ready to say Hello again.
hugs, teddy hugs. Fiela