@adventson * NOW YOU’RE PROBABLY THINKING:
“ gross ....... *knife emojis* ” and you’re not wrong, but it’s been a while since i rambled like this & you know i’m not great with words so just bear with me. i know that we’ve been a little more distant lately, but i wanted some way to express the fact that you’ve ?? really left an influence on both me, and my writing on cloud. you’re an amazing, smart and ... just really cool person. it’s because of you that i revitalised the urge to return to cloud back when i was mostly active on my old noct blog, and that was ... the start of ... this year ?? and since then you’ve managed to spark inspiration & muse through your dumb sporadic #cas shut up and #tbd tags which you should never delete btw and through just ... Existing, i guess.
i don’t think i’ve ever really had the same Writing Spark with anyone before you; it’s just ironic it happened to be writing these two assholes. seeing your commentary on the game ( + crisis core ) made me think more about both the stranger / more realistic / spookier / Deeper aspects of the og itself, & honestly i’d never even gotten around to watching a playthrough of crisis core until you appeared, so ... there’s that.
even though you’re a huge loser with terrible ( very good ) taste in muses and your characterisation / headcanons / thoughts and feelings towards each & every one of your muses is bad ( impossibly good to the point i’m almost envious,, ) i just really hope that life starts treating you more kindly; that you’re less anxious and get to do more that you want to do, that you find the kind of comfort and happiness that you deserve and that you forget i said all of this because it’s embarrassing gfdjkl;
TLDR; have a good birthday, loser. here’s to finding nibelheim
