Therapy? No thank you (:
So here is something a little different from the guy struggles that I have been going through...
I went to advising for next fall, and everything was going well. I was inquiring, she was advising, you know all that good stuff. This is where things got interesting. So most of you probably don’t know, but I am a busy person. No not busy as in 9am-5pm; 5 days a week with occasional errands here and there. It’s more like 7am-9pm 6 day a week with errands everywhere.
So as my advisor is doing her advising ordeal we have this conversation:
HER: So our program is a little challenging whether it is academically or emotionally...and we recommend that our students have enough time in their schedules to make sure they are not overwhelmed.
ME: Mmhmm....okay. (so where are you getting at with this woman?)
HER: Well I know you said you like to keep busy?
ME: Well yes, I like to constantly having something to do. (since when has there been a problem with being busy...)
HER: (nervous laughter) You see I was always one of those students that struggled to get the reading done, and I had a hard time with the academics...and some other students slaved over paper while others cranked them out in no time.
ME: Okay...(is this going somewhere)
HER: From what I hear you don’t seem like you struggle academically?
ME: Eh it’s not to bad. (college has been a joke, I need something that is more practical)
HER: Well for those who don’t struggle academically they tend to struggle emotionally...and I think keeping busy may be a coping mechanism for you. So I recommend you quit one of your jobs and take sometime to seek help at the Health and Counseling Center to help you deal with any oppressed emotions. (casually places her hands in her lap and gives me a plastered smile like she just told me the fucking weather)
ME: Um wow...okay, that’s intense (I don’t see a fucking therapy license in your office, don’t tell me I’m emotionally fucked up. It took 10 years to learn how to oppress that shit I’m not trying to have a band-aid therapist tear me apart. No thank you.)
HER: (Slowly nods her head)
ME: I don’t think that will be necessary, but I will definitely take it into consideration.
Now here is the thing...I am one of the most emotionally tormented people, and with that being said, yes I have found numerous coping mechanisms but I am okay. I am functioning. I am alive. And no matter how much I have gone through, I have not been triggered.