The point of this maquette was to bring together a variety of forces in a single focus. I made her in a partial trance using materials relevant to the purpose.
Originally she was a prototype, a clay sketch. I didn’t expect her to quicken so successfully, so I belatedly expanded the sketch and gave her bones. For that reason she is a little more lumpen and crooked than I would have intended. Nevertheless I have a lot of affection for her and I’m not really inclined to replace her in the way I once was.
She is complete in herself, but she also represents plans yet to fruit. I haven’t been able to do much of the follow up work I wanted to do due to the many things that life and magic brought me since then. My learned tendency is to see that as an inconvenience and failure, but it is not. I have achieved other things and this maquette sits with me reminding me of the promise to come.
I am exhausted after the past four months. No furlough for me. I’ve also recently been gifted some personal and family drama to transmute into gold. Who is to say what is bad, though? The greatest tragedy in the moment may yet prove to be the greatest blessing. Especially with a little help in that direction. Fortunately these old efforts continue to protect and nurture me. They endure and I endure with them.
I’m looking forward to coming back to this.
