he feels like an idiot ; a failure, a loser, how could he abandon her and think he can walk back into her life like nothing happened ? he wishes nothing had happened. the last few months of his life have done nothing but make him wish he could go back, be sitting on the couch with dakota before ben called him. before he left to go and find his so called brother. he would give anything.
aching all over, he’s been standing on the sidewalk outside the house he once called home for ten minutes now. he can’t bring himself to walk to the front door, has turned around to leave and second guessed himself too many times now. fuck it. he can do this, he loves her, and surely she still loves him, too. surely she’ll understand. miguel takes in a deep breath, shakes his arms out slightly and mentally psyches himself out for this. he can do this. before he looses his nerves, he’s at the front door, knocking.
( * @afterburial. )
