#AfterTheFuneral - Closed on Sunday - I avoided grief yesterday, by staying busy. Grief comes in many shapes and forms. Coming out of the darkness of the shadows of grief is easier said, than done. Many people passed away this year, but 3 hit me harder than most. Fit Richardson aka QB - I met him in 2020 during the protest in Richmond. Murdered doing security. In the short time that we knew each other, I was able to SEE where his heart was, and that was protecting his community. He had my back at the circle in my time of need, and we physically removed someone from a protest that was jeopardizing the safety of VCU students. More of my grief came from the pain in his sister's eyes, as she had already been through too much 💔. RIP Fit, I will never forget you. I received a text from Pops Holmes telling me. I was heading to my nephew's football game. I couldn't stop crying as if I knew him all my life. RanDumb Thinker aka Sleeper - My long-time business & dance partner. We started our entertainment company together in 2003. Murdered while protecting a piece of property. It's hard for me to watch the videos he recorded. It's hard for me to hear his voice. Knowing your triggers during the grief process can help avoid public breakdowns and breakdowns at family gatherings. I was serving the people when I found out he passed. Gambino Sanders called and said, "what happened to your man's Sleep?" Me - Nothing, I was just talking to him a few hours ago 💔 Sadly I was wrong. Sharrod Ford Sr. - My long-time friend, and #BLM757 member. I knew him since 2003. He passed away from complications of #Covid19. We had adventures with #MCI - Adventures with #BLM757 - Sharrod didn't curse, smoke, or drink. Sharrod had a beautiful voice, he was a gospel singer. I can't watch videos he recorded either just yet 💔. When I found out he passed, out was out serving the people. I'm not as tuff as some may think. The grief that God has put me through, made me stronger for OTHER people... I'm just numb to it now. This is my story. This is my song 😔🕊 Hoping my story helps other get through this Holiday season. #ClosedOnSunday #HappyHolidays #Christmas #FYP #Explore #ExplorePag https://www.instagram.com/japharii757/p/CX9DM7kODr_/?utm_medium=tumblr
