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#12

Currently on my period and all i want to do is shove chocolate cake down my throat

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#11

I have yet to watch the first episode of Game of Thrones Season 7, but i don't know whether to save a couple of episodes for a binge or just start now. Then again, I have no idea when i'll ever have time for a GoT binge. Such is the life of a (going into my) final year university undergraduate. Sobbity sob, woe is me. I can't even begin to explain how relieved and excited I am to graduate in just under a year's time. Although more hell probably awaits after. Someone find me a rich guy so that I can live the rest of my life (and my dream) as a housewife.

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#10

Responding to compliments: "You're so pretty!" "That's a personal opinion"

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#9

a few weeks ago i was so stressed about not having an internship for the summer. now i have one lined up for 3 months and have just applied for a 2-week work-from-home one and will be interviewed in july. i also have to take some online assessment tests for a company that im applying to, for a graduate industrial placement, just to keep my options open for post-graduation, though i plan to apply for juris doctor law at the end of this year for entry in august 2018. all of these applications are driving me nuts to top it all off, i failed one of my math-based econs module's exams so i have to resit that in august. which is not that big of a stress cos i know i can pass if i take it again but just.... i hate math so much. but it was a compulsory module so, what to do 어쩔수없다 怎么样呢？ and i just signed up for more lessons for the rest of summer. im not earning enough money from my internship for life sob but i can't complain, i don't have my degree yet.

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#8

currently in a real shitty mood for no reason. all tihs overthinking and overanalysing is stressing me out so much. it's times like these that i really want someone to just talk to me, and not expect me to respond much. to just like tell me a story, or how your week has been. but i can't just randomly ask a friend that without them wanting to know why, and i just hate bothering people. so i simply continue and suffer in my own self-created misery. at least it's nighttime now, and i have a shit memory so hopefully i would have forgotten that i hate my life and i hate myself by the time tomorrow morning rolls around, even if just for a moment, the second i open my eyes and nothing seems to matter.

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#7

i know everyone relates minesweeper to childhood, pc computers with no internet, and spider solitaire. in all honesty i had never heard of minesweeper until i was 17. i don't know why, but the computers i used only ever had pinball and solitaire. but ever since my friend told me about it, minesweeper on mobile, it has been a lifesaver. it has helped me massively with my panic attacks, but i can't say that it will help most people because if you aren't good at the game, it'll make you really think and it may make things even worse. i however, have been pathetically playing it so much that i don't even have to think. now whenever i play the 99 mines hard level, all i'm doing is trying to beat my 1 minute 20 seconds high score. i play it everywhere, when i'm bored, when i'm watching youtube videos or tv shows, and i really don't know why. it's like whenever i'm doing something that doesn't require full concentration, my fingers automatically move to open the minesweeper app. maybe i'm addicted at this stage. but i'm fine with that.

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#6

being on tumblr for close to 9 years now really opens your eyes up to a lot of things. i’ve never been the blog that has a theme, like the aesthetically pleasing ones, the memes/funny pictures-centric ones, the ones that are dedicated to music groups or tv shows. all i reblog is pictures that i like, with zero regard for how it all fits together or how people will look at it.

i’ve never had a crazy amount of followers, and honestly every time someone follows me i wonder why, because it’s really not like i post anything original or special.

but it does feel kinda nice to know that i’m one of the older ones on this site. not in terms of physical age, but blog age. i’ve had the privilege of seeing tumblr users go, and seeing even more come. i remember when gifs were first made and memes were first created. i remember when ads and sponsored posts weren't a thing. i remember all the political and social issues that were brought up and debated over, the first time i saw a stranger’s boob on my dashboard and freaked out, years later scrolling past a naked stranger like it was just another picture, just another day. i remember the occasional drama i’d come across over different situations, wondering how people even get into those situations.

i love this site. i love that everyone shits all over the mobile version because it is indeed, shit. but i still also love when they update the app and i have to update it in my app store, because then i get to read the update description that is always written in a manner that is just classic tumblr. i love the dark, muted shade of blue that i have come to associate only with this site and nothing else. i love the few friends i have made through tumblr. i love the crazy ass text posts that pop up every now and then. i love the crazy tumblr users that are the reason for the text posts. i love that every year there are a few different memes that we stick to. i love that tumblr has made me cultivate, and then realise that i have, a weird sense of humour. i love scrolling on twitter and finding something funny, and knowing that it first came from tumblr.

now more than 10 years after tumblr was first created, and the number of users on this site is far larger than when i started off on it. i feel like an old grandmother reminiscing about the past, remembering the days when i would literally spend whole days scrolling through this godforsaken website. what a long way it has come.