My fear is not having the talent for art or whatever, but i have to knock my head into the wall until I unlearn talent, and appreciate building skill. That child prophecies are just some capitalist gimmick into thinking that some people are just born for their skill. That the grind must start early, as soon as you can walk, especially if its a non-industrial passion. Bc if ur good at arts as a kid, when ur an adult people can tell u the time for that imagination stuff is over and u just accept it bc yeah, ur not a kid anymore. And then you know what the grind feels like bc thats what u had to do as a kid to prove u could go somewhere w this passion, so its even easier to fall into the self destruction grind of capitalism.
Fuck being good at stuff. Fuck it all. Im gonna draw random ass circles in my sketch book and it will be art. Bc im having fun. Im trying for heavns sake. Enough with this 'talent or quit' mindset. Im not going to be good at things for a while, not until I try, and thats okay.
GRAAAARRR