Dear past me,
Hey, stupid. So, there's a lot of crap that you went through. You know, skipping out on those nights you didn't want to be home, and going on top of the abandoned building just to get away from reality? Probably not the best thing you could do, and you should probably stop, but I know you won't. It's fun and thrilling, and when you almost fall off, you'll end up re-thinking life and how you actually enjoy being alive. It isn't the best to be a daredevil, sometimes you will regret it, but it's all fun and games, and you'll eventually mellow out.
You'll end up getting an amazing dog. Someone left him at the clinic, and when you went to open up the place, he came running to you and pretty much became your best friend after you gave your son up for adoption. That's right, you had a kid. Crazy, right? The whole 'ew, I'm never having kids or even going to get pregnant'. Didn't work out. You partied a little too much after graduation before heading to Colorado to veterinarian school, with one of your lab partners and oops, that happened. Trust me, giving that little boy up is the one thing you will regret every day of your life, and you will be kicking yourself. We still don't know what it's like to be a mom, but the day the nurse took him away from you, you lost a piece of yourself, and that part is love.
Of course you love your family, but this was some other type of love you never thought you could feel. Speaking of family. Try to keep in touch with Cris even after you leave. It isn't good for either of you to just vanish like that, thinking you can handle things on your own. Truth it, you can, you can definitely do anything you want, but sometimes you still need your big brother to help you throughout things. Yes, he has a lot going on, but he will never abandon you, or screw you over. He's the one person you could always count on. I'm sure you know that, but as you get older, you will need him a lot more, there's no doubt about that.
Besides all of that, you have a pretty great life. You have a great job, an amazing dog, and even though you're pretty much by yourself, it doesn't bother you all that much. Of course, you do go to therapy twice a week, but there's nothing too terribly wrong with you. Just being away from your family gets to you every now and again, so you should probably keep in touch, call daily and make sure you don't just drop contact with them because they do mean everything to you. I think that's all you would need to know. But life is just a day to day struggle, you never know what's going to happen until it does. Enjoy life, and just be happy, that's all you need.
Love,
Your future self.
