I am literally crying.
The person who was my first idol ever updated her Livejournal in October. She's alive and well. She had left LJ and all accessible parts of the internet three years ago.
I wish I had seen her entry back when she still checked comments on it. I wish I could have said 'hi' to her.
She's the one who got me into roleplaying. She's the person who inspired me to learn English properly. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't know all of these amazing people I am friends with today. I wouldn't have made all these experiences that are so precious to me now.
It would mean the world to me to tell her 'thank you', now that I am older and know just how much she's done for me. I don't know if she remembers me. I don't know what exactly it is she's doing right now.
But I miss her and her art and her words and her fashion so badly and I have been thinking of her so much these past three years. And I just want to thank her so badly for all the amazing things that have happened to me since I and her talked.
I wish I had any way of contacting her properly at all.
Kurosaki Akane was my hero back then.
