#akdanize is crying

[akdanize]

feeling a little hopeless.

to my filipino countrymen, this good governance could have been for you.

[akdanize]

i may be stupid, but

I’m trying!!

Hi, hello *shimmies into this room*

While I may either be caffeine or whiskey infused from time to time, I’d like to think I have my shit together. 

Just for a small intro: I’m Zen. Call me Zen! I also go by Jan or January with my friends. I have a couple of pseuds I use for other fandoms and audiences, but it all boils down here. (or if you prefer calling me ‘akdanize’, go ahead)

AKDANIZE is my username, which means “written by Ze” in my local language. Ze was my pseud when I started writing and it has a special place in my heart.

okay we get it. now on to my wips (btw here’s my Ao3, here’s my carrd.)

Currently clawing my eyes out at:

Amidst Breeze and an Odd Pup (featuring my OC and Kei’s) Chapter 2

the plot for whatever the heck goes on at my celebrity x bodyguard AmberCrose

fic gift for friend due a year ago (screaming)

fic gift for friend #2 due on september

And maybe the couple more things I shouldn’t start now so I don’t burn out immediately but ehhh probably will anyways:

AmberCrose plush bunnies

Amber/Ittou/Sucrose and my shameful attempt at smut

DiluVen being softies 

Some originals that might make it into various websites 

HOPEFULLY I can resume writing by July or else.....

OH and one more thing!

#akdanize posts - general day-to-day shittery 

#akdanize updates - mostly “writer” updates, sometimes personal

#akdanize writes - drabbles, short fics, anything that pours out from my last two braincells