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[nikkisbellas]

heartbreakandtriumph's follow forever. If you're here, I either visit your blog everyday, reblog from you often and/or talk to you. In any case, it means I like you. For the photos, I picked someone I know you like, someone who makes me think of you or someone who your icon/url makes me think of. I hope I wasn't too far off. Just because I don't socialize a whole lot, doesn't mean I don't like you. You're all great. ♥

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[twelvefeetdeepp]

Have you ever done something that you hated and loved at the same time?

I have!

[nikkisbellas]

1,2,8, 21, 35, and 37

1 - Three.

2 - Single, I guess.

8 - That I'm actually 21. People think I'm much younger than that. Or that I'm pretty shy and insecure because I've been told that things I say as a joke come off as me being arrogant sometimes. 

21 - I'd say my friend John because he was the one to tell me when I was ging through a rough phase that being different and being myself is not a bad thing and because of him now I know that someone can actually care for me even with all my issues. Plus plenty more cheesy stuff he's taught me and having him lately has made a huge difference.

35 - Either when I'm sleeping, eating junk food or talking to my favorite.

37 - There's so much I'd change but right now I'd say being so stuck on the past and on the bad things that have happened to me, which causes me to constantly feel afraid, anxious and scared of everything.

[nikkisbellas]

4, 11, 15, 25, 37, and 49

4 - I'm sort of blank and calm. I'm not worrying about anything and I don't have anything to do so I'm just... relaxed.

11 - The fact that he lives across the sea.

15 - Just waking up.

25 - The person about who the question 11 is about.

37 - A job. I've replaced all the other things I want with just this one.

49 - I guess, at least someone tells me they do.

[nikkisbellas]

4, 6, 21, 29, 34, 37, 45, 47, and 51 !

4 - About my future and if or what I can do to get out of here.

6 - Yeah. It's embarrassing but I get very aggitated around ballons because they usually pop around me in most occasions and scare me and when I get scared I cry, it's a natural reaction. So yes, ballons. And people in disguise. It's creeps me out to have something so big around me and not knowing what's under there.

21 - The wall, it doesn't even extend completely. There's nothing in touching distance of my left arm.

29 - Not really. My obsessions are all under control, I'd say. EXCEPT FOR SPONGEBOB AND BUNNIES. I JUST REALLY LIKE THEM AND IT'S LIKE I START YELLING ON THE INSIDE WHEN I SEE THEM.

34 - Depends what the question really is about. I prefer love over lust because it takes me a lot to truly love someone and I think it can be a great feeling once it does happen. But I definitely feel lust more often.

37 - There's really nothing, it's horrible. I'm just myself and it usually works if people are looking for someone to fill their "bro" status, haha. I don't know, I try to be interesting and not very weird at least at first, not sound like I live in my own little world of fandoms but yeah, it never works and I scare everyone away. It becomes pretty obvious that I've got nothing going on for me in life, pretty quick.

45 - Eh, this is a tough one because I find myself falling for the most unexpected people. But I guess it's important to have a personality like mine in overall aspects. Of course, I don't want anyone exactly like me because that wouldn't go well - I can hardly live with myself, let alone with another one of me. But, you know, the typical - be funny, very honest even if that includes saying I'm weird and stuff like that, opinionated, know how to respect everyone else's opinions. Having the same music taste as me will most likely get you half way there and get a "omg marry me now". It's very important to have yourself figured out - meaning know what you want to do in life, what you like and mainly not be easily influenced; I hate those guys that are still on kid level and do whatever their friends tell them to just to seem cool or let them make their decisions for them. Don't be overly sweet because that really annoys me and I kind of like to be picked on playfully or having my buttons pushed. Be a good friend and make it known that you'd do a good job taking care of me. Be spontaneous and not cliché - none of saying what you think it's appropriate for the moment or those made up compliments. It's mostly about personality, as you can tell; I either like you or I don't. Besides that, be original if planning something with me - for example, none of that dinner and a movie type of stuff; that would be cute but on a later stage but at first you have to catch my eye and kind of let me lead the way, I guess. Ice cream, that usually gives you my heart too.Shit, this was a long one. 

47 - I haven't really made any decisions that make me thing "wow, I did really well" apart from when I decided - and this is going to sound stupid - that I'm not going to let the fact that I don't have friends keep me from doing what I like and going where I want. I'll do it alone if I have to; it sucks but it's better than looking back and thinking "wow, I wish I could have done this, I wish I could have done that".

51 - 

Obviously. :p

Thank you. <3

[nikkisbellas]

4, 18, 20, 24, 25, 26, 39, 49, and 50

4 - I'm 5'10". Or 11", I'm never sure because of the conversion. But I'm 1,80 in meters.

18 - Blue. I like gray and black but that's mostly for clothing. Blue is for everything.

20 - I usually go a park that's like ten minutes away from here. Quiet enough to be alone and avoid everyone I know and just sit around.

24 - Ugh, so many. This is kinda weird but Pantera songs always turn me on for whatever reason. But in a guy particularly, I like a really dirty mouth - not in public though.

25 - Guys too sweet to have a hold on me and put me up on a pedestal like I'm going to break. Don't get me wrong, I like being treated nicely but I like a strong personality more than anything.

26 - My best friend told me this was a good source for photos and obviously, I had to join and hoard photos, haha. Never did I think I'd end up meeting some pretty nice people.

39 - Yeah. It's a little more than a crush at this point but yes.

49 - Does my mom count? Because other than her, it was probably like, two months ago.

50 - Million Dollar Baby.

Thanks for these. :)

[nikkisbellas]

9, 24, 55, and 70

9 - Yes, I think sometimes people push the confidence boundarie and sound blatantly annoying or cocky but the right amount of confidence is great, especially for the way everyone perceives themselves. It doesn't exactly feel good to walk with their head down. Personally, I really like a confident guy and if it's the right amount of confidence, it makes them that much more attractive.

24 - To see and be with with a certain someone but that's not really possible so I'd settle for a conversation. And since that isn't possible either, I just really want to go back to bed and sleep some more, haha.

55 - Apple pie.

70 - Well, in my little world of fantasy, he'd be in a band or a wrestler... but in reality, I don't really know who that person is going to be so I don't picture anything about them. Just anything they're happy doing -- unless they're a drug dealer or a pimp or something -- I'm sure I'll be proud and happy for them.

[nikkisbellas]

1, 6, 7, 22, 36, 37, 47, 55, 70

1 - I'm not sure, I'm so confused that I don't know what I'm confused about... I have a lot of feelings now -- in one hand, I feel liked today but then again there's always someone bringing me down so I just don't even know what my mood in general is.

6 - I'm probably alone. I tend to be alone when I get drunk so no one sees me making a fool out of myself. Somehow I always find my way home so I'm cool with that.

7 - Well, my first answer would be end it with that person. But, knowing how much of a push over I am sometimes and how blinded I get when I'm in love, I can't be completely sure. But in theory, I'd end it eventually. I can't see a relationship go on when I can't trust the other person.

22 - Yeah, for the most part. Some people are really, really blessed in that sense and just get away with everything. But eventually, it might take a while, it might not be that obvious and it might not even that serious, but somehow what goes around comes around.

36 - Tan. I know I won't be going anywhere or doing anything in particular so I just really want to get a nice tan so people can stop commenting on how pale and sick I look. -.- If a miracle occurs, I'd like to go to a music festival too.

37 - Well, I was always better friends with guys than with girls. At every point of my life, I can recall having at least one guy best friend. Now I don't consider I have any more than one friend in real life, if that, but at least online, I have two or three boys I get along with well -- you included.

47 - That I have to be positive today, that I need to get out of the house so I don't lose it, that I need to really put all my efforts into passing my driving exams so I can move on to better things and finally go back to not worrying about anything too much.

55 - I don't know, I don't even know when my next vacation will be.  With my dad not being around and my mom being unemployed, it can't be managed so who knows. But hopefully, in a couple of years I'll start making my own money and will either visit New York or California -- that's my main vacation plan, even if it does take me a while. :)

70 - Blue, I'm just really drawned to everything that is blue. I like gray and black too but that's mostly for clothing. Blue is for eeeeeeeverything.