It was just a random thought after rewatching the show and falling in love with Albis over again
It was just by chance and you were happy that it happened it was worth it, everything you did was for her
What drew you to her? What kind of spell did she do for you to become like this?
It was all her, even till you die, even if she never sees you, love you or acknowledge you the way you do
It was an unrequited love after all and she loved someone else already
Warnings: ⚠️ Angst with fluff at the end
It was her, the person you are in love
She was the person you wish to be with, yet faith seems to be playing tricks on you
For the person you love is none other than Albis, and the person she is in love with is none other than your older brother Benimaru
It was cruel yet you chose to help her get your brother's heart, instead of admitting your love for her, after all, you are happy when she is happy, even if it's not with you
"Ah, Y/N-sama!" A voice called out to you, looking back you saw Shion running towards you with a smile, following her was your sister Shuna
"Ah, hai? Shion-san and Shuna ne-chan? What may you need?" You asked with a raised eyebrow, you were about to head to the training grounds and participate in the training Hakurou asked you to master your skills and swordsmanship
They soon came to a halt when they were in front of you "Y/N-chan, where is ni-san?" Shuna asked, this made your eyes darken and your heart crumble more, but you forced yourself to your old attitude and smiled like there was no problem, hoping that none of them would notice
"Try the fields! I last saw him there with Albis-sama, seems like they were talking about something important so I did not bother them and left to tend to my duties and attend Hakurou-san training!" Shuna saw past your facade
You are her sister, and she can see right through you, before becoming a Kijin you were on par with strength, skill, and speed with your older brother, but now you went down to the second, that must be why Albis chose him, and not you
"Shion-san, please go check at the fields for ni-san, I must have a talk with my imouto" your sister said, Shion complied and left without another word "What do you wish to talk about ne-chan?" you looked at her once Shion was out of sight, only to see her looking at you already
"What's the matter imouto? That attitude and body language of yours must have fooled everyone, but it cannot fool me, I am your sister and before you argue, I can see it, I am not blind nor am I ignorant" she stated firmly, having no intention of backing down whatsoever
Yet you still chose to lie, even to your own sister despite everything she has told you, she got you all figured out yet you denied it all "I have no idea of what you are talking about ne-chan! I am still me! I am still Y/N! Yours and ni-san imouto!" you replied with a fake smile she could see through easily
You suddenly felt warm arms wrapped around your waist, and you saw your sister hugging you, this is suddenly the first time she hugged you again, she last gave you a hug after your whole village was murdered, after all, you saw your parents get butchered to death right in front of you, Benimaru first found you and left you to Shuna in a safe place, there Shuna saw your face dried with tears, blood covering your clothes, arms, and cheek, your puffy red eyes and the tears that continue to go down your cheeks
It broke her heart to see you that way, you were always cheerful, but maybe seeing your parents die right in front of you was your breaking point, because after Shuna saw you like that, you looked at your bloodied hand, more specifically your parent's blood and feel to your knees only to cry and shout in misery, Shuna was devastated not only because she lost her parent but she saw you at your weakest state yet, she knelled down beside you and gave you a hug, after that, you refused any contact with anyone again
It was hard to accept that but you changed when you saw Albis for the first time, it was love at first sight, you were welcoming them as envoys from another nation, she was beautiful and lovely, and that was the first time Shuna saw your eyes light up once more, she was happy for you but that didn't last long after all Albis wanted a strong mate, sure you were stronger than her but so was your brother, and she chose your brother, Shuna saw all the light in your eyes vanish the moment you heard Albis and Suphia talked about their love life and how Albis spoke about wanting Benimaru as a mate
Shuna was there to give you comfort but you chose to bury your emotions deep down like they never existed and continue on with your life, it was hard but Albis was happy that was all that mattered to you
Tears stream down your face without you noticing, Shuna felt the warm liquid fall to her shoulder making a wet patch on her clothes but chose to ignore them and hug you tight in her arms "You don't have to hide anything from me Y/N, you can always trust me, and I only want the best for you just like ni-san would want, so tell me what's on your mind imouto" she asked in a hushed tone
Your facade suddenly fell and your tears continued to stream down your cheeks falling onto your sister's clothes, her hug was as warm as it always had been, yet this time it seemed a bit warmer to your skin
You didn't mind it at all, you actually found it more comfortable at the moment, you refused to talk yet your sister opened her arms and gave you the comfort you needed
Unaware of the eyes looking at you two behind the main building, the looks they gave were one of sorrow and guilt?
"Imouto you know you can talk to me right?" you did not answer only giving a nod of confirmation and letting it all be as it is "Do you wish to rest? If so I can tell Hakurou-san, I know that he will understand it" her voice was gentle and understanding, she was calm, composed and patient with you
Shaking your head you let go of your sister with small sniffles and wiped your tears away, you looked at your sister with a smile, but a fake one that she could easily identify "Nonsense ne-chan, I am fine" your most used line falling down your lips once more
With a smile that did not reach your closed eyes, you waved her goodbye and started to walk away from her "I have to get going now ne-chan, Hakurou-san might get mad at me for being late! Goodbye!"
Shuna was worried, but she had her own duties to do, so with a sigh she turned around and walked away not noticing the two individuals watching her and her sister's retreating form
"Forgive me Albis-sama, I must end our tour early due to family problems," your brother Benimaru said while walking away from the wall he was hiding from with Albis following him
"I understand, go now your sister must be in so much pain, I can manage to explore on my own so do not worry and focus on that first" Albis said with a smile and walked away with a wave of her hand to the other direction
"There is a lake close from here if you wish to see it, I assume that you would like the view and scenery it offers," Benimar said and started his trek to look for you
With a smile, Albis continued her walk towards the lake Benimaru suggested, upon arriving she was amazed at the breathtaking scenery she saw, the lake was wide and clear, perfect for a small dip to freshen up
After admiring the view from afar Albis started her walk down towards the lake to have a clearer view but stopped in her tracks, she heard sobbing close to her
Her instinct urged her to act up and follow the sound leading her to a side of the forest where she saw the lake was near a huge tree, but what took her interest was the being sitting down below the tree bawlling its eyes out
'Who is that? Why are they here?' questions floded Albis, questions only the being could answer but before she could take a step forward the beinf stood up and Albis was forced to hide once more
The next few moments surpised Albis for the being was slowly being recognized as Benimaru's sister, Y/N-chan 'What is she doing here?' with tears falling down from her eyes to her cheek, Y/N went down from the tree and walk a few steps until she was about 1 feet away from the lake
The tears did not stop infact they continued their way down her eyes, Albis feeling worried and saddened by what she saw was conflicted on whether to turn back and call her sibling or come out and comfort the girl herself, but she holds herself back
"Damn this life of mine" Looking at the girl, Albis could see her smile holowed with sadness and sorrow "Of all people, you just had to fell in love with her" Albis was confused you were inlove? So what was the problem of that?
"Why did it had to be her?" Albis saw the girl lay down on her back and stared at the sky, she noticed the tears not stopping from falling "She already chose someone, you heard it clear that night"
For some unkown reason Albis could feel guild eating her chest from the inside, but doesnt know why "Yet it still hurts" she then sit up and sat crosed leg while looking beyond the lake, the smile that Albis always saw soon turned to a frown that also made herself frown
"No point in holding on false hope" Albis saw sadness once more coud the girl's eyes before it evaporated into emptiness, she then grabed a flower that was growing near the lake and stood up
"I should let it all go, there is no point in bottling it all in when the reality is right before my eyes playing the scene that I wish to avoid" she then kissed the flower and the tears she thought were gone slowly fell once more
"Goodbye and I love you dearly, Albis-sama" shock crashed down on Albis 'She loves me?' questions flooded her mind "I hope you are loved dearly by my brother, just as you have wished" the girl continued and let go of the flower with a small frown
Albis saw the girl wipped her tears and walked away from the lake with emptiness clouding her eyes, Albis left the tree and walked toward the lake where she could still see the flower floating
Unknowingly Albis took the flower and kept it before returning back to the village, upon returning she saw Benimaru talking with Shuna, her heart was then filled with guilt, yet she still did not know why
When she saw the scene right before her, she was surprised and confused, she did not know what to do when she noticed Benimaru and Shuna were near she then fastened her pace to avoid them
Albis arrived at her shared room with Suphia, seeing that her roommate was not present Albis collapsed at the front of the door, her mind swirled with confusion and questions
But even with these, she could see the sadness on your face, the hurt expression she would see when she that flashes on your face whenever she would ask you about her brother and the fake smiles you would give that gave her goosebumps
She started to remember the times you would ask her if she was free but got turned down, she would remember the times you helped her yet she only looked at your brother, she could see the lingering stare you would give from far away, the stares she mistook that were directed to her
She wanted to change her mistake but did not know how, how could she just say that she regretted not paying attention, how could she say that she was sorry for not being able to return your feelings
She knows that would destroy you, even if you chose to hide it, how could she make it better without the risk of hurting you? How could she fix this without hurting you more than you already feel?
How can she say to you that her heart belongs to your brother? She can't and that's the problem, she doesnt know why she cant do it
You were young, if she tells you now you can get over her and find someone else, you still have potential
That's what she says to herself, that its for the best when she knows its not
How can she? When you look at her the world was suddenly better, the world was not dull anymore in her eyes, your smile was everything she wanted to see, but she liked your brother more
But does she?
A knock interrupted her thoughts and the sweet voice she wanted to hear rang through the doors to her ears "Albis-sama, are you there? Sophia-sama was looking for you" Your voice was sweet and cold, It was very familiar to her ears
But it was also very different and new to her, like a new version of you from when she saw you down by the river just a while ago "Albis-sama? Can you not hear me?" You asked once more
"Ahh! I'm sorry" Your shocked expression, red eyes and nose from all the crying you did "Sorry I was doing somethingand was not able to hear you" She reasoned
"Its perfectly fine Albis-sama" You answered after composing yourself on the earlier happenings "I was tasked to escort you to the main hall as per the order of Rimuru-sama, he asked for your participation for this meeting along with Suphia-sama, who has already arrived at the hall" You said with a small bow
"How many times have I told you that you should just call me Albis?" She tried to play it off while you both walked toward the Main Hall "Forgive me Albis-sama, but I realize that calling you by your first name without any honorifics is very rude if me given our positions" Your answer made her stop in her tracks
Turning back you saw her standing there still "Albis-sama?" You called out but she was not responding
Meanwhile, Albis was hurt, she thought that both of you were well past that talk already "I told you to call me Albis and not that" She said slowly and raised her head looking at you "And as I have also stated I cannot given our positions" You answered back
"I understand your frustration, but I asked you to cooperate with me given the circumstances that we have Albis-sama" She gritted her teeth with anger, and through it all, she did not realize that she took your hand and dragged you to somewhere opposite of the Main Hall
"Albis-sama?" You called out but she was too deep in her thoughts to even hear you "Albis-sama!" You pulled your hand back and shouted when you recognized the river where you were this morning
How did she know this place? How were you back here once again? How can you stop your heart from beating with love for her? Questions lingered your mind and you hated it
"Why are we here Albis-sama? You need to return now and attend the meeting" You answered and saw her trembling hands "Albis-sama?" You called out once more
"Im.... sorry" She answered "For what? All I know is that they are looking for you as we speak, so we must return at once" You said once more this time insisting on the fact that you both must return and turn to get ahead of her
"We cannot" She answered timidly and you turned to look at her once more "What are you saying that we cannot?" You asked her "I just told you that we cannot" She answered back "I heard but why?"
She was racking her brain for reasons, what to tell you, and how
How has she not realized that she merely liked your brother but loved you
How can she? After rejecting almost everything you asked her, she should not have chased your brother but you, for she did not love your brother but you
So why was she stupidly saying to herself that she did not deserve you? When in fact she wanted you all this time?
"I'm sorry" was all she could say and this confused you even more "Sorry? On what?" Why was she apologizing? It is not like she could change the past and accept all those missed outings that you asked her to
"I am confused why are you saying sorry?" Anger builds on your chest "Why are saying that now?" You could not hold back anymore "Why are you saying this to me when I have declared to give up on you?!" You could not stop what came out and you regretted it
Her pure expresion of shock caught you off guard, she did not know cause she was focused on your brother more "Why?" You asked more softly and cautiously "Why are you doing this?"
She slowly stepped in your way direction and held your cheeks, you were crying yet you did not care "Why are you saying sorry now?" You asked once more but her silence was killing you "Now when I have just told myself to let you go?" Your voice was barely a whisper at this point but you wanted answers
Tears dripped from your eyes to her hand as she held your face, It was warm and soft "I'm sorry for not realizing everything" She finally spoke and you snapped your eyes towards her own "What?" You asked
"I like your brother, yes that's true" She said and your heart broke more "But I should have not ignored my love for you" Her words confused you she liked your brother but loved you "What do you mean?" You asked trembling lips scared of the answer
"I liked your brother for the strength and confidence he has shown not only to me but to every one of us" She said and added "But I loved you on how you make me smile and made every problem a solution with a bit of mischief and fun, your confident smile and blazing eyes that spark me, I should have seen it long before" She paused
"But I was too blinded by having a strong competent mate that I forgot the very first thing I should have looked for" She held both of your cheeks with her hand and looked at you with a wide smile "It was that love is the very first requirement, and it was your love that gave me that"
She was smiling and so were you, before you knew it your lips were on hers, they were soft, smooth and tasted like the wine grape she came to love, she was not forceful and was very gentle, guiding you on your next step and what to do
When air became a problem you both let go with smiles that could counter any sadness and anger, you could feel her honesty and sincerity, the looks she gave you was what you always dreamed of
"I should have done that long before" She commented and smiled widely, an embarrassment in the shades of red covered your face and you ducked your head to her neck attempting to her yourself from the situation you were in
"Dont vanish from me now, I just got what I should have from the very beginning and I am happy that I did" She pushed your hair a bit and held you tight in the waist, you merely grumbled while she chuckled "Be a dear and answer my question please" She stated and you nodded
"Will you be willing to go out with me? Even after everything I did?" She asked and you froze but nodded with a smile on your face while still buried in her neck "It seems I was lucky enough to have you accept my request" She kissed you and smiled
The meeting can wait cause she is with you now, she won't let go of you now and she certainly regretted not being honest first
It ended well for everyone and she is happy with that
She has you right where you belong, with her
Thank you and sorry for being gone so long, I am now feeding you this, my good people
So many things happened and I just can't wait to get back to writing once more
As always if you have any ask feel free to send some and I will do them even so sorry for vanishing in what felt like forever Still busy but will try my best to give you people more fics!
Love and kisses -Mei