#alender

[poolklaasiveini]

Ma korjan su üles, kui langed ja üksinda tõusta ei saa, ei hooli, et väljas on hanged, mu juures küll sooja sa saad. Ent oled sa mõelnud või tundnud, mis saab, kui mind enam ei ole?  Kui endasse tagasi tõmbun, kui sulle mind enam ei ole.

U. Alender

[mizzen-haethon]

Lil'Mizzen: Uldum, Lilim and Guards

Worst night -ever- ! First, I get in trouble because mister Alender can't do his job. I was with Sevine the whole time. I was safe. I couldn't call dad because the comm weren't working and -he- wasn't watching me. It's his job, he's my guard. It's not my fault that he comes and goes as he pleases. And then, he's all standing there in front of my dad telling me that he gave me a chance to be responsible and I failed. What??? Me failed!! I told him then and there that what seemed like me running off was really me simply walking and that if he was doing his job as my guard, he would have seen me leaving. He also would have known I was with Sevine. He gave me a chance, right!

If one of Lady Grouss' guards had spoken to her like that, they'd be fired. I've already got a dad, I don't need a hired guard to pretend to be another one. I'm so mad! And then Dad took his side! I can't believe it. Still I asked dad to get me a new guard. I don't even want him near me.

And then on top of that. Oh, it gets worse. Earlier today I went with Mister Fisk to go hunting and we got a Crock. I'd asked him to go because I knew Miss Swiftsilver would be there and she'd told me before about how our people eat our meat raw. I wanted to try it, but I don't have anyone in our house who will try it with me. So I went hunting, because I knew she'd want it from a fresh kill and I didn't even eat any of the cooked stuff, even though I've never had gator before!! I wanted to wait, because I wanted my first time with it to be special and for it to be raw.

I was so excited, but now I'm all sad because she didn't even care. She didn't want it and when I explained that I hunted it for her she just seemed annoyed that I'd been allowed to hunt and then went off with Miss Lorris. Stupid. Stupid, stupid stupid. I shouldn't have even tried. 

I thought she'd be honored that I'd gotten a fresh kill - even if Mister Fisk was the one who took the danger. I thought she'd be proud that I wanted to be more like us.. like elves and that I would do this for her. I wanted it to be an honor thing, a respect thing, and she just.. she didn't even care. It didn't matter one bit to her.

I shouldn't have even tried.

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It was a blindingly bleak day.

As Dead as it Gets, Katie Alender

[quotequotas]

The only way to describe kissing him is this; it's like being on a roller coaster in a pitch-black room, and you're going downhill, and for a few moments you're weightless, and you want to throw your hands in the air and scream.

From Bad to Cursed, Katie Alender

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In that moment, it seemed like nothing could possibly go wrong.

From Bad to Cursed, Katie Alender

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She gave her a glittery grin, the kind the wolf wore when he opened the door for Little Red Riding Hood.

From Bad to Cursed, Katie Alender