'feel better' by penelope scott gives alex? in a way?
'I am an awkward teenage virgin and I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed / but other times i cry, or i don't make noise at all'
this lyric might be in a different context than what i'm thinking but something i distinctly remember in DSS is that alex canonically laughs in his sleep
'i'd give anything to miss you again'
hazel?? daisy?? could be george if you squint?? his grandmother??
'but someone loved me, someone fucking loved me / someone fucking loved me and i fuckin' loved them too'
hazel!!!!
'goddamn it, i was worth something, i fucking earned something / i have a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose too / and god no! / of course i don't wanna feel better! / can you fucking imagine?'
my projections hcs for him fit this perfectly but this could also stand for him in mua
'it hurt like nothing in the world sometimes / that i was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck / and also somehow making it / i think i might've died there twice, and i would do it all again'
him during the murders he was present at in mmu, and maybe also during the spanish civil war assuming he was there with george/lavinia/hazel/daisy?
'but when my head hit my cheap pillow, i could tell i had a heart / i wanna tear this fascist milky way apart'
admittedly this lyric fits george more but do you see the vision
'i had my cake (i ate it, it ate me too and, god, no)'
something of some description consuming him? something's consuming him i just need to find out what
'i loved you, i guess i really loved you / all my filthy life i loved someone i barely knew'
this can reference his crush on daisy
'goddamn it, i was worth something, i fucking earned something / and it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food'
my hc about him being a people pleaser? a bit?
'(i don't wanna get over it) / (i wanna rip it to shreds)'
the trauma of the murders then the war
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there's probably more but i'm tired and lazy
anyways do you see my vision
