#allergyquote

[nickelychallenged]

Happy Sunday. Our #allergyquote this week is "It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it." Last week a major life event happened which seriously removed 98% of my social interactions. And without having someone there then I needed to be by myself later to find out I don't even like being with myself. I don't feel like I am worthy of anyone else company or even my own. I know what you're thinking how can this be if you have an allergy that keeps you isolated most of the time. I know I know. Seriously I know. I can keep complaining or be hard on myself or whatever self-deprecating talk I had last week or even in the coming weeks. But I am trying, I am getting help to at least cope with being isolated this much and help me be more confident with who I am and my own company and take it day by day, minute by minute if you have to. I have to sleep at least 8 hours each day, exercise and meditate and wake up every day with a clean slate and try again. I need to use all my energy to not cheat on my allergy diet, or put myself in danger with my airborne sensitivity and deal with nerve and back pains on almost a daily basis. If the self-control slips out in other areas of my life I am trying my hardest and I'll try again tomorrow! Unfortunately, when we go through things in life we still need to be able not to cheat as we are crying all through the day trying to find comfort in something, or go outside to take a walk but you have airborne sensitivities. You just have yourself, you cannot numb yourself with anything like foods you like, people to talk to, places to go. You have you and in a way, I am trying to count it as a blessing. Because when I conquer the worthless feeling I always have. I swear I will be unstoppable. I won't care if someone rejects me, hurts me, etc. It's their loss. Let me know how you carry your load. I know mine is getting a little light each day. #allergy #foodallergy #airborneallergy #multiplechemicalsensitivity #mcs #smokingallergy

[nickelychallenged]

Happy Sunday or Happy #allergyquote day. I got the inspiration from Charles Bukowski's quote "The problem with the world is that intelligent people are full of doubts and the stupid ones are full of confidence." This is so true when it come with allergies. We seem to be so doubtful about our experience because we start to lose the feeling of being "normal," when the people around us "seem" to have all the knowledge of what is really going on with us. It must be anxiety; you are probably over exaggerating, etc. People who actually aren't going through what we are going through will conclude to things they don't know since they haven't experienced it. People who actually want to hear you out will give themselves room to acknowledge that they don't know what is going on. We as a community need to be vocal, adamant and proud of our experiences as allergic/sensitive human being. We cannot put our all on people believing us; it's not their job, it is ours. This week I rejected about 30% of what I do with my allergy just cause my physical therapist said it might be anxiety from smelling smoke. I told her it wasn't the smell I get a reaction from the molecules attached to my clothes. I had pain for 4 days last week, on nerve pain medications that won't stop the pain. Friday was when I was like nope it is exposure, and I need to do a detox and wash my sheets since it is probably an exposure that found it's way to my sheets. Woke up on Saturday pain-free. Sometimes you need to wash, sanitize everything just to be healthy enough to go to work. People will reject something they don't understand but the few select people who know that they don't know everything will give you room to teach them.