#alli muses

[allimariexf]

so I’ve been thinking though

Isn’t ARGUS a secret government agency that like, is off the books and no one’s supposed to know about? 

Or am I wrong? It’s cool that John’s being interviewed for a documentary in his ARGUS uniform?? 🤔🤔🤔

[vavragequit-blog]

Maybe it's time for me to call it quits on RPing. 

Like for real this time. Close all the accounts and find something else to do with my time. Because whatever this is, it isn't working. I constantly get trashed by anons for no freaking reason, all my other RP partners are RPing with different muses, and I just feel like really alone right now. Yeah, I still have Tara and Nicole and Dylan and even Lais - despite everything that's happened, I still consider her my partner and my friend - and countless others but even they're busy with other accounts and real lives. Like, I only started RPing because I thought of it as an escape from the hell that I live every day that's called my 'family'. 

I dunno, maybe I'm just going through a mood swing but I just don't feel all that accepted in the RP community. Take for example, I may have had 2057 followers on John (which I actually did) but no one approached and it made me question everything. Rick, it just feels like no one wants to and yeah, it may be because I'm on semi-hiatus because of summer school but still. I get like no plot requests and the only asks I ever get is either telling me to go kill myself, or that I'm shit at it. And then everyone is like 'oh don't listen to them' but it's kinda hard, you know? 

And maybe it's just paranoia that all my partners are just like 'oh she's not all that good, but let's pat her on the back for attempting'. 

So maybe, just maybe this time I will call it quits. 

I don't know, I haven't made up my mind.

I just wanted to be good at what I thought I did best, but apparently I'm still not good enough for the RP community.