Saying Goodbye they say is always the hardest part...
I can’t believe it’s that time. It’s one of those things that I was hoping would never happen, but knew logically that everything always has an ending. I had just hoped that we would have more time... Arrow ending is like an arrow to my heart. It hurts so bad-- and honestly it feels like I’m losing a friend, the one constant I’ve had for almost 1/3 of my life. The one thing that I had to look forward to every week-- sometimes it’s the only thing that got me through. So it’s going to be rough, hard -- I’ve been trying to prepare myself since we found out last spring that the show would be ending with a shortened 8th season and I thought I was doing well. That was until the crossover and I’m sure I’ll be a blubbering mess through the two hours of Arrow tonight. I’m having trouble typing this out now as the tears run down my face.
You know that saying about not knowing how important something is until it’s gone... I feel like that’s me and the show, but I’m realizing the impact it’s had on me and what it really truly means to me right before it’s getting snatched away. This show has given me so much -- I’ve made friends that I would have never made if it wasn’t for this show and going to Comic Cons and talking about the show on here. The show ending won’t change that-- those friendships will last forever. We just won’t be able to analyze and debate new content.
This show got me through some of the hardest times in my life -- it got me through my 20′s. This show had characters from all lifestyles and it gave me so much hope. It gave us Felicity Smoak -- a girl I relate to so much-- the ‘nerd’, smart, intelligent girl -- but she’s not just that she’s so much more. That’s me... You don’t see that in many shows. It gave me hope that eventually I will find someone who will accept all my quirks and love me completely and unconditionally.
Arrow gave me so many great memories and adventures in the last 8 years -- I’ve met the majority of the cast and in doing so have gotten over some of my fear of talking to those that I admire or rather strive to be like and see has role models -- my anxiety is not nearly as bad as it used to be.
This show has helped me deal with so many of my personal and mental health issues. I just don’t know what I’m going to do without that -- I know there will always be this Arrow/Olicity fandom community that I can rely on and I’m so thankful that I found this show and that it gave me that.
I honestly don’t know what tomorrow will bring, or what will happen next Tuesday or the one after that when there won’t be a new episode of Arrow to DVR and watch. I feel like I most likely will have a period of grieving that I’ll go through -- and feel like I’m already in that grief cycle. I know some of my friends that don’t watch the show, and don’t understand it’s importance to me, don’t get why I’m taking this so hard -- but like I said it was that constant in my life, what I could always depend on -- though not real people -- all those characters -- Oliver, Felicity, Diggle, Thea etc. all became my friends and got me through some really hard times. I’m going to try to focus on all that Arrow brought to me though -- this fandom and it how it healed me in a way that I didn’t know was possible or that I really even needed.
I understand why the show is ending now and don’t have any ill-will for those behind the decision for ending it now. I do feel like, with any show, there’s a chance of going for too long and I’m so happy that they realized that and didn’t want that to happen to this great show. I’m just going to miss all my fictional friends -- I just don’t want the ‘book’ to end. I thank God for this fandom, fanfiction and invention of TV DVD Box Sets -- it’s really what’s going to get me through... I’ll be ok eventually it’s just going to take some time...
I want to thank Stephen Amell, Emily Bett Rickards, David Ramsey, Willa Holland, Colton Haynes, Paul Blackthorne and the rest of the cast and crew of Arrow for bringing this show to life and making it what it became to be. It’s a legacy and it’s the end of an era. Nothing can ever touch this show and no one can ever bring those characters to life like they did. It was like magic in a bottle.
Wow-- this post ended up being way longer than I had ever planned -- like I said I’m a lot like Felicity -- you get me started and I’ll keep going until someone interrupts me. LOL
I know I’m going to cry lots of tears and use up my stock kleenex tonight -- but I hope that I’ll see you all on the other side... and that you all become that constant that the show was for me... when a show ends the fandom never does...
Thank you Arrow-- Cait















