Today i am sad
Today i am sad. Its night and im in my bed covered in blankets. I am sad. Tomorrow i will be walking to school with my headphones on, actually a little early. I am sad. my room is starting to get so messy its almost like a visual represantation of my mind. I am sad. everything is so caotich, yet so empty. I am sad. Why u ask? Why am i sad? How could i know, i answer. When its not me who is in charge of that, but the dopamine in my brain. I am much more than just sad. I have lost controll, and im not myself. I feel lost and abondand in my own body. How do i get home? How do i swim when whats dragging me down is inside of me? You say you dont understand. I envy you for that. At the same time as im feeling even more alone.
Today i am sad.
I let my body win.
-C.h.